I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen...I just don't know what. I'm ready for my world to be shaken upside down, to be swept off my feet, showered aith attention, and placed on a pedestal. I'm ready for my time to shine...

But when is that something going to happen?

Soo, last night was fun. "Chaperoning" little kids was pretty entertaining. lol. I'm so tired though. I stayed up and watched the snow, and wrote a little bit, which was nice, since it was 2 in the morning, and I was the only one up. I had some "me" time.

Sometimes I feel like I'm overly timid. In most situations, I'm the one who takes control, speaks out, dominates. So why can't I do that now? Am I afraid that I'm going to mess things up? Am I afraid that I'm going to lose everything? What's holding me back, and why can't I just let it go?

Sorry, I doubt most of you will understand that, but it's just the thought process I've been having today. Maybe one person will understand, and can accept my lacking explaination.

Have a great weekend. Enjoy your extra day off!

        Lindsay

"I want you to be yourself- not your idea of what you think is somebody else's idea of yourself." ~~Henry Thoreau, author of The Night Thoreau Spent in Jail

Yea, so we're reading that in English, and that line struck me, so I wrote it down so I could share it with ya'll. It's such a truthful statement.

Anyways, today has been one of those days. I just haven't been able to get on track. I need a hug, a real hug, a don't-let-go-for-several-minutes-because-it-just-feels-right hug. *sigh*

Thank God tomorrow is Friday, and the start of a three day weekend.

        Lindsay

Wow, I completely suck at this thing. Anyways, not much has been happening. I learned to crochet, which of course most of you know because as of late, I'm ususally crocheting. Ummm, school's good, West Side Story is coming right along....and that's about it. Hope everyone has a good week!

Hmmm, life is pretty good. I made all-state choir, which makes me happy. School tomorrow, then Thanksgiving break. Not a whole lot going on, I'm not very good at this thing...

I feel like crap. Yes, crap. I'm tired, and I had to chaperone a children's trip to Chuck E. Cheese today for church. Screaming children arguing over tokens and pizza + tired and exasperated teenage girl = a really big headache. And I still have to do those summer reading card thingies. Yuck. So yes, that is my life at the moment. School again tomorrow, hate my classes, desperatly alone in most of them, miss all my friends. That's about it. Hope your day went better than mine.

School-tomorrow. I can't believe summer is over!

It hurts. It hurts alot. Why can't things ever have a happy ending for me? Is that so much to ask?

Ok, I was xanga-surfing, and I found this cute entry, but I couldn't copy and paste it, so I'll have to sum it up the best I can.

I want a boy:
Who knows my favorite color, food, movie, and song
Who calls unexpectedly
Who notices a new hair cut
Who tells me that I'm beautiful and my smile lights up a room
Who says he loves my laugh
Who knows what I'm going to say before I say it
Who never forgets those special days
Who knows when I have a big test, or when I fail one
Who will hold my hand when I'm scared or nervous, even if I say I'm not
Who can make all my troubles go away
Who will tell me his problems and let me try to help
Who will shake my dad's hand and look my mom in the eye
Who knows my full name and how I got it
Who talks about me non-stop to his friends, and never says anything bad
Who carries a picture of me with him at all times
Who holds me closer when he talks to other girls
Who knows when something is wrong
Who makes me laugh when I'm upset
Who gives me his shoulder when I need to cry
Who will do anything to make me happy
Who never forgets me.....

There was more, but I couldn't remember all of it. I added a little to it too. I know, it's sappy, but I couldn't help myself. Have a nice day!

Lindsay

My grandmother's sick. Again. I don't know what's wrong with her, but it's always something. She's 85 years old and always sick. I hope I don't get like that when i'm old. It's such a sad way to live. My mom left this morning to go spend some time with Gran and my aunts. I didn't want to go. It's too depressing. And my mom took my cell phone with her, so it's temporarily out of service to all my friends. That's about it. I'm completely bored, putting off summer reading, and in desperate need of something to do. I need some books or something. Maybe I'll go to the library or something....that could be interesting. Well, now that I've bored my readers as well as myself, I'll go. Have a nice day.

Lindsay