I basically use this for good lyrics now. haha.                 

 

you told me 32 ways
to make you smile
i did 31 within the first hour
you stood amazed
in your delighted shoes
bewildered but willing
didn't know what to do
so i grabbed your cold hand
pressed it to my beating heart and said
isn't it neat
how our bodies tick
and we can move our feet
whenever and however we please
you stared blindly while i waited politely
in the doorway by our school
some cars passed and i noticed someone was singing
"us" by regina spektor
you know how i had a crush on her
i know you don't like grey skies
we know our multiplication tables
you got straight a's while i was writing fairytales
and looking out window seals asking why
the sun shine liked my eyes
and kissed my cheek
when it knew i was in love with the moon
and of course with you
well i sped it up
'cause you don't like slow songs
you're more of the literal kind
yeah you're more like the ocean's waves
you get closer at the end of the day
when you know i can't see your face
when you're sure i'm already lost
love is oh so lovely
but it also comes with a cost

I was tired of my lady, we'd been together too long.
Like a worn-out recording, of a favorite song.
So while she lay there sleeping, I read the paper in bed.
And in the personals column, there was this letter I read:

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
I'm the lady you've looked for, write to me, and escape."

I didn't think about my lady, I know that sounds kind of mean.
But me and my old lady, had fallen into the same old dull routine.
So I wrote to the paper, took out a personal ad.
And though I'm nobody's poet, I thought it wasn't half-bad.

"Yes, I like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne.
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon, and cut through all this red tape.
At a bar called O'Malley's, where we'll plan our escape."

So I waited with high hopes, then she walked in the place.
I knew her smile in an instant, I knew the curve of her face.
It was my own lovely lady, and she said, "Oh, it's you."
And we laughed for a moment, and I said, "I never knew"..

"That you liked Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."

So,just thought I'd tell everyone(the one and half people who check this)that my xanga now is having new installments of a story on it. If you've never read my writing,go to it. www.xanga.com./jsoccerdude

it won't disappoint you,i promise.

If anyone wants me to photoshop pictures of yours,let me know. I really want to...cause I'm bored and it's fun.

So,I like 2 ladies.

Both are really pretty...girl next door type girls,seem innocent,really cute smiles,all that.

One seems more real than the other. She has more problems,she has more worries,concerns,hopes,fears...the other one seems to be just plain old jane,no real worries,just fun to be with.

I seem to think I could really be something in the realer one. I seem to think I could resolve her problems...I can't though. But it feels like I could. We've got a lot more in common with each other.

but we're friends. and idk how to make that move anymore...

We're close though..ohh well..maybe maybe?

Shit,this entire thing is old.

It's almost the end of the summer.

And I'm almost 100% happy.

It's insane how weird this summer has been. This entire past year has been.

But,I've realized,finally.

I need No One to make me happy but myself and a friend.

So...haven't used this in forever. Lots has changed since the past update. I look at this a lot,and don't change it.

Personal reasons..don't need to get in to it right now.

I date Ashley now...I guess that's cool. I like her,I do. But we never get to see each other,and it's just not cool.

But,it's all good...

Ever had something inside you that you can't tell anyone?

In other news,I'm in the preproduction process of a film I'm making.

If any one is interested in being in it,let me know...if you're a lady,you have to like to wear preppy clothes or rockish clothes. If you're a dude,you gotta be white and you have to like to wear wigger clothes.

Me and holly are doin fine now.

Ok everyone,free concert tonight.

6-9 pm.

Sports Com pavillion. Look for the crowd :)

It's free with free food and drinks as well. Amazing music talents too. Josh Phiffer and All For Nothing are the 2 main acts with 3 others.

I'll be there in jeans and a skynyrd shirt,if ya see me just say hey!

over,and done with.

damn it.

We're back together!!!


*insert biggest smile ever*

Holly and I broke up...BUT....

We're working on getting back together. After lots of talking,she said she'd take me back if I changed.

So...I'm changing!

Remarks people,remarks! Leave them..it ain't hard.

I was listenin to the song "So Far Away"(took the last line in chorus and made it my title),and realized that I like who I am. I,with the help of friends and family,have molded me into a great person. I've finally realized the type of person I am....I'm too modest,I've been told. I always respond "No,I'm just not good nough"

I realize now I am..See,lately,my grades ain't been too hot. So everyone looks at me as a slacker,as an avergae grade guy...when in reality...I do good in some subjects. Everyone keeps looking at my negatives,so I inturn focus on my negatives. I have plenty of positives. I'm witty,funny,I can write well...I'm realizing these attributes now. I've known them,but haven't really thought bout them,because I've been focusing on my negatives.

I like who I am and my positives though. A big thanks to those of you who have helped me see that I like me. You may have shown my negatives to me,but you've also shown my positives. Thank you.

Me and her go out now...what a wonderful life.

photo from ohh_holly

This girl is really great..she's amazing.

photo from ohh_holly

Didn't make it a month. lol. Yep,I'm single now.

Almost a month with Ali...and almost V-Day...

Our 2 week is tomorrow. Pretty nice,eh? I usually don't keep the girl this long hahahaha.

I have an amazing night planned for V-day...as amazing as I can,at least.

School and all that jazz will go on,and then I'll come home...

The weekend before I'll have bought chocolate,a card,and roses for her. Then that afternoon I'll get ready,and we'll meet up for a few hours at Red Lobster,one of the classiest restaruants I know,lol. I'll give her gifts and treat her to a romantic meal.

I'm also gonna try and find someone who can help me burn a cd for her...my burner is busted.

photo from classicrocker
Everyone,I need a place to take that lovely lady on V-Day...

1 Week for me and Ali today...yep yep.

Let's try for a bit more. lol.

Love that girl!

I date an incredible girl now..she's great.

Not the one from last post...a different one..but still great.

So...
I really like this girl,right? She's AMAZING,and totally perfect.

She has a boyfriend. Doesn't like me like that. Wouldn't break up w/him anyways.

Pretty much knew it was dead before anything would even look like it would start...but some how,actually knowing it's not gonna happen as in hearin it from her herself...it feels a lot worse than knowing it w/o her saying it.

This is gonna be a big ass thank you post...basically,things are gettin better and better after bein worse and worse,and I wanna thank the ones who were there,are there,and will continue being there in the future.

Let's get this list started...

Cale-Best friend. Crashed at his place day before New Year's Eve,and on NYE night too.
Sarah-talked to her all the time and she's helped a lot. Also hung out w/her over break. Fun times.
Elizabeth-Haha,you put up w/me in Bio. You gotta admit,some of our convos are a little strange....
Kayla-Talked to you bout nothin in general,but had some funny moments. Hale The Whale.
Jessica-Haha,you're the one who has been online when I've needed to start tellin people bout that fabulous Ali. For that,I thank you. Course,you also told the whole Bio class bout her,lol.
Deb-O-Rah-I Love You. And that's all there is to say. Lol. Fun times.
Kaitlyn-You're a bitch. :) And there's really not enough words to say how I hate you.
And the rest of my bio crew...and my english crew...and my geometry crew...and hmm...spanish i don't realy have a crew that is like the rest..it varies.

That's it for now..it's 12:25 AM though,so chill...

Now for random shoutouts...fuck the names,if you're a real friend you'll know which ones are for you...

Asa Mack James and my cooked burger and shoes w/clocks.
Green Bean Supreme
Girl Moss
It'd be pretty cool to have eyballs all on your body "eww gross justin" Better than toes,right?
Whale.
Freshman don't understand anything. Their npt sart enuff. Yes,I made spelling mistakes so you could understand it in your language.
"His giiiiiiirlfriend"

That's perty much it...

.

Goin through a lot of shit lately,and seems to be gettin a little better...but I can't tell anymore....

I really like this girl....but I have no chance...at all....and even though I have told myself stop...my likin for her grows.

and then there's my parents..they're goin through some stuff...seems better though now?

And then there's school..all this other stuff affects my grades...

aahh well....

Uhh...


Dunno what to say....