so it's been a very long time since i've posted on phusebox. thought i would give u guys a nice lil update. i made it thru my first semester alive. i am now an aunt for the 7th time. ms. bailey anne farrar was born feb 8th she's 7lbs 1oz and 20 1/2 in. she is possibly the most precious thing i've ever seen. oh! big news. my dad has been trying to apply for disability since 2003 and they finally gave it to him!! which means i get money as well. AND they give you back pay from when you first applied. so that means beth is about to get an assload of money!! and is totally going to england this summer. but anyways, that's a brief run down of what has been going on. ciao ya'll.

i think i am going to disown my phusebox. no one uses it anymore. find me on myspace or facebook. ciao

i swear me and clayton may have broken up but i LOVE his mother. she is the sweetest thing ever to walk the face of this planet! i still talk to her all the time and like a week ago i broke down and thought i would do the nice thing and call and say hey so i did. pretty sure i talked to him for like 3 minutes and talked to his dad for about 10 then i talked to his mom for a good half hour. i don't know who was talking faster. lol. i'm starting to kinda have mixed feelings about this whole break up thing. i mean he did cheat on me. but atleast he didn't fuck her and he had the balls to tell me about it. i mean i love the guy to death i always have. we had so much fun and i'm thinkin it's better off this way. but i know since i'm still so close to his whole family it's gonna be pretty awkward. i mean we all grew up together! and mom is really wanting me to come see her (for the purpose of this post "mom" refers to clayton's mom) and dad (same with "dad") but i just know that i'm gonna go say hi to everyone and i'm gonna go to give him a hug and he's gonna kiss me or i'm gonnna kiss him or something and then the shit will REALLY hit the fan. i mean he told mom today that if she talked to me to tell me to come see him when i get a chance. how the fuck is he gonna go and do that when apparently he's dating the same skank that he cheated on me with?? and according to mom she's fucking hideous AND she's 33! everyone is raggin on me for talking to JJ and he's only 26. atleast he's not 30 something. i really don't know what is going on. it's like if JJ is around i'm going clayton who? but then when he's not here and i get to talkin to mom i start thinkin about all the stuff wee got into this summer. i mean, goin to panama together, going down to the bluff all the time, rididn around all of erin, going to paris for the fourth of july. i mean we had so much fun i'm smilin just thinkin about it! i really don't know what to do. i need boy help guys. what do u think...talk to clayton and see if he wants to give it another go? or stick around and see about this whole fling with JJ??

ok so if u kno jackie u prolly read her post about her bad luck. ha. this is part two bitches.

since i have started school i have had the worst luck EVER- my radiator in my car blew up, i lived in a hotel ACROSS TOWN for 3 1/2 weeks, i failed my first pysch test, i can't find a job, i'm completely broke, i've overdrafted mmy bank account twice, i killed my iPod (yeah coincidence? jackie kills hers and exactly a week later i kill mine), my boyfriend cheated on me, i broke up with my boyfriend, i almost failed my first english paper, my computer has been going haywire, my wireless keeps dying, i broke my brand new cell phone faceplate 3 days after i bought it, two words: meacham disaster, my favorite picture frame ever that angela gave me b4 she moved to canada got smashed when i moved into my dorm

i think that's about it. long enough list?? man this is ust....AHH! something has got to give. i mean i'm still in a pretty good mood but that's just b/c that's me. plus i have a guy to distract me. u guys know me. i love boys. especially older college boys. ahhh. ok sry. got distracted again. lol. yeah ok. i just needed to vent. i feel a lil better now.

COLLEGE BOYS. enough said lol.

 so we FINALLY got moved into our dorm last night. we've already got like everything unpacked it's just getting situated. i've already started decorating. 

any guesses whose corner of the room this is?? lol

so i'm taking a poll....nose ring. yes or no? and not a big hoop. a small diamondy thing. yes or no?

so yeah still bored. still in a hotel. and still broke. lol. doesn't get any better than that huh? BUT the good news is that i think i have a job. I am supposed to find out today whether or not i got the job at chili's. and that would rock b/c everyone i've ever talked to that has worked there has said they BANKED on tips. plus with all the people coming back with the 101st airborne there is so many extra people in this town it ain't even funny. but even if i don't get the job there my uncle really does have me hooked up for once. i actually could've started last night but i don't have the cash for my beer license. and they closed b4 my class got out ne ways. so ti's looking good on the job front. clayton is almost done with his car. he should be driving it by this weekend. he and jim finished wet sanding it sunday and that means jim should've started painting it monday. key word- SHOULD'VE. oh and did i tell u he's selling his nova? yeah he's been working on it for over a year and all he needs to do is get it painted and fix the interior, just cosmetic stuff, and he's selling it. he has $6,700 under the hood and the receipts to prove it. guess how much he's selling it for...just guess.....$3,000. i was like u have got to be fucking kidding me. that means he lost 3,000 on the whole deal! i was like u are stupid. but apparently T has decided he wants it and he's gonna give him $3,600 cash for it this weekend. they came and visited me last night.  i was so excited. and if T is feeling better they are coming back this afternoon that way we can run to erin and he can see the car and they can work out the details and whatever. but yeah figured i would update since i had some time (i skipped history; he makes me fall asleep anyways).

so yeah still bored. still in a hotel. and still broke. lol. doesn't get any better than that huh? BUT the good news is that i think i have a job. I am supposed to find out today whether or not i got the job at chili's. and that would rock b/c everyone i've ever talked to that has worked there has said they BANKED on tips. plus with all the people coming back with the 101st airborne there is so many extra people in this town it ain't even funny. but even if i don't get the job there my uncle really does have me hooked up for once. i actually could've started last night but i don't have the cash for my beer license. and they closed b4 my class got out ne ways. so ti's looking good on the job front. clayton is almost done with his car. he should be driving it by this weekend. he and jim finished wet sanding it sunday and that means jim should've started painting it monday. key word- SHOULD'VE. oh and did i tell u he's selling his nova? yeah he's been working on it for over a year and all he needs to do is get it painted and fix the interior, just cosmetic stuff, and he's selling it. he has $6,700 under the hood and the receipts to prove it. guess how much he's selling it for...just guess.....$3,000. i was like u have got to be fucking kidding me. that means he lost 3,000 on the whole deal! i was like u are stupid. but apparently T has decided he wants it and he's gonna give him $3,600 cash for it this weekend. they came and visited me last night.  i was so excited. and if T is feeling better they are coming back this afternoon that way we can run to erin and he can see the car and they can work out the details and whatever. but yeah figured i would update since i had some time (i skipped history; he makes me fall asleep anyways).

so, lets see. what can i update about. hmmmmmmmmmm. oh, i ended up going to clayton's last weekend. even though i said i wasn't. let's face it, me saying no to him doesn't usually last very long. lol. hmm, oh me and jackie are STILL in the hotel. it's been two weeks and they told us it was only going to be like two or three days lol. but it looks like we get to move in sometime next week. and yeah, all my classes are SUPER easy (so far) ::knocks on wood:: and everyone down here is really friendly and they all rock. hmm...oh yeah jackie went home again so i'm by myself. i'm trying to talk stacee into coming up here tho. riverfest starts tonight and i want to go but not by myself. clayton has to work so he can't come. and yeah that's about it so i'm gonna let u guys go before u die of boredom lol. ciao.

on a random side note...i miss my janelle!! =(

so yeah, i'm really bored. jackie went to a recital at school and i'mnot much of a recital person so i decided to hang back here. but i'm still bored. i think i'm about to go hit the pool. doing laps sounds fun. and i have absolutely NOTHING to talk about. can u tell?? c'mon leave me some love guys!

how fucked up is it that me and clayton have been dating for nearly four months and every weekend he asks me baby are u gonna come see me this weekend? and he's only come up to see me three times? well this weekend i was like i can't, i don't have the cash for gas. so i said why don't u come see me? (keep in mind since i live in clarksville now i'm like 45 min away from him) know what he said, oh i'm just way too busy this weekend. and i don't have the cash. i promise as soon as i get my car back i'll come see you. know how long his car has been in the shop? THREE MONTHS! and he keeps telling me next weekend. it will be ready next weekend. ::glare:: sry guys, just needed to vent.

so for those of u interested. got a small update. me and jackie are STILL stuck in the hotel. and it looks like it's going to be another week at the earliest. i've heard (unofficially) from some R.A.'s that it's going to be two weeks at the earliest. but no one is saying the same thing. i do know that they are having to replace the ceilings in harvill hall and i heard something about them replacing the walls in blount (my dorm). so yeah it's going to be awhile. but it's not too bad. it just sux being so disconnected from everyone else on campus and having to drive across town. but i mean other than that it rox b/c i have someone cleaning my room everyday, i've got a hot tub, a pool and free breakfast lol. but ne ways, just wanted to say hey and update a little bit. i'm gonna be home for a day or two this weekend so u guys should definately hit me up. oh and i got a new cell # 931-338-8897 ciao.

so for those of u interested. got a small update. me and jackie are STILL stuck in the hotel. and it looks like it's going to be another week at the earliest. i've heard (unofficially) from some R.A.'s that it's going to be two weeks at the earliest. but no one is saying the same thing. i do know that they are having to replace the ceilings in harvill hall and i heard something about them replacing the walls in blount (my dorm). so yeah it's going to be awhile. but it's not too bad. it just sux being so disconnected from everyone else on campus and having to drive across town. but i mean other than that it rox b/c i have someone cleaning my room everyday, i've got a hot tub, a pool and free breakfast lol. but ne ways, just wanted to say hey and update a little bit. i'm gonna be home for a day or two this weekend so u guys should definately hit me up. oh and i got a new cell # 931-338-8897 ciao.

so i made it thru my first college class alive! whoo! french is going to be soooo easy this year. apparently if you have had more than two classes of french in high school u can move up to french 2010. instead of staying in elementary 1010. but i'm gonna stay b/c my grammer is HORRIBLE. and i talked to my professor about it and she was like that's fine. so it looks like i am gonna have atleast one good grade. b/c the majority of her work sounds like it's going to be vocab and that is fine by me b/c it's gonna be easy words that i know. and she totally rocks b/c coming to class on fridays is optional with her! ha! but ne ways, i gtg. time for english and psychology! yay! not. lol.

well i can't pretend that today wasn't an interesting day. to start off i was sick all afternoon yesterday so i had to finish packing this morning. and i was still sick. then we get almost all the way to clarksville and my freakin radiator blew up. yep. it blew up. like i had steam coming out from underneath my hood and everything we had to pull over on the side of the interstate. then i get a nice call from jackie saying that we are staying in a hotel for the next week b/c they found mold in our dorms. tell me how gross that is? like seriously. they found mold in harvill hall and blount. so we are shut down. they said that we can maybe move back in as early as sunday. but at the latest it will be wednesday. so yeah. it's been CRAZY. and i found out that i no longer have a roommate. apparently she either dropped out or she switched dorms b/c they told me that i now have a private room. yay! the one good thing that happened todya. and yeah bout my radiator, clayton has ordered me one but it won't be in until saturday and he's gonna come up here and put it in. tell me how sad that is. i can't even get my car to his garage. he has to come up here and pull it out in the middle of the parking lot. so yeah, that was my first day as a college student lol.

well guys today is my last day to live in the boro. and i'm excited. i'm gonna go to bath junkie with stacee later (jenna bought me a going away present from there), i'm gonna get to hang out with danny today which i am so excited about b/c i can't tell u the last time i saw him and janelle is gonna come hang out tonight. busy busy. it never ends. and yeah pretty sure i'm STILL packing. i didn't realize how much junk i've got. even tho i'm not taking a whole lot with me i'm boxing stuff up and putting it in my closet so it will be easier when i actually move out. but ne ways, i'm outtie. call me if u want to do something tonight. love ya.

u know i cannot wait to move. most of the ppl i know in the boro haven't bothered to try and keep in touch even over the summer so i think if i can go three months without talking to them and be fine then i'll be fine moving to a different city. but it's really gonna kill me to leave my girls at work. i am gonna miss jennifer sooo much. she is like my second mother. and lori-ann is about the most adorable person i have ever met and she is just so sweet. me and her and jen have so much fun when u get us started. it's amazing. and u know jenna kinda grew on me. we have so much fun. we went and got jennifer a happy vacation present and then we went and had lunch today. and last week we went and did someshopping. i am soo gonna miss all them. it's kinda sad. but that's the only thing that's got me sad. i think it's b/c i have been around them soo much this summer. and if i didn't leave it would all be same. jennifer has flat out told me if i didn't leave she would make me asst. manager but i can't spend my life at a dry cleaner's. i want something bigger than that. i just don't know what. but u know who i am really gonna miss? stacee. she is like my big sister. my actual big sister doesn't care what i do as long as i'm not doing drugs she's happy but me and stacee have gotten really close. everytime i mention leaving or even just school she says u better come back and see me. she really doesn't want me to go. neither does caleb. he won't admit it but he doesn't want me to leave. he's really killing me with the overprotective brother thing lately. everytime i mention clayton or jake he looks like he could punch the next person he sees lol. but yeah, for those of u that have kept in touch i'm gonna miss you. and STAY in touch. ok? love you guys.

ok so it's been about a week since i updated so here's a little update. my car is running amazingly! except for the ac. it died the day after they put my motor in then me and daddy fixed it then it died again, so the conclusion is that my compressor is burnt out and i need a new one. ha. guess how much one costs? yeah $150. i think i'm gonna pass and yeah other than that i've just been working my ass off. i was in the back pressing shirts all week at the cleaner's then i was helping bill at the gas station b.c he had eye surgery. and yeah, total this week i worked 62 hours. not including all the cleaning and crap i did around the house. and i don't get another day off until my last day at work which is aug 11th. after that i'm off for two weeks. one of which i will be spending in florida. and yeah that's fucked up. first stacee was supposed to go then she couldn't, then angela was supposed to go but she's broke, and then on my third try i askd clayton if he would be interested in moving his week's paid vacay and coming and he is! i cannot wait! my favorite place and my favorite person all at the same time. and i'm definately due for a good vacation after all this hell lol. ne ways. oh on a new front, my brother is home! for good! u kno as big of an asshole as he is i still kinda missed him. he brought candace with him too. and yeah i'm outie. i gotta go to work. yay! ::sacasam:

i swear i love having a mechanic for a boyfriend. it took them two days but it was actualy only SEVEN HOURS that it took them to take out my motor and put my new one in. it's AH-MAZING. and my ac feels sooo good. it was a good thing that they did it now too, both of my motor mounts were broken when they took my motor out. and if u are wondering exactly what the hell a motor mount is it is basically just a weird lookin metal bracket that holds ur motor up. and considering that BOTH of mine were broke i'm pretty damn lucky that just driving down the street my motor didn't fall the fuck out lol. clayton said if we had gone about another month before we did it that my motor prolly woulda just locked up whcih would've been REALLY bad. u should heard him tho. he was like my ex-girlfriend couldn't even get me to change her oil much less come 200 miles and spend two days changing out a damn motor! ha. that's great. and rene is a bitch. (the ex girlfriend) and other than that i've got nothing extremely interesting to say....oh wait yeah i do! my big sis might be having a baby!!  i might be an aunt for the 8th time! (and i'm not talking about christie, my OTHER big sis, stacee nicole) ok so yeah i'm done. and since i just woke up i am in DESPERATE need of a tooth brush, ciao bitches.

ok i'm excited. i'm off work for two days in a row. i get to go to apsu tomorrow to make my schedule and all that mess. we are picking up clayton and he's staying the weekend. AND i am finally having my new motor put in my car. and since i'm getting my new motor that means i'm also going to have an AIR CONDITIONER! i'm so excited.

well my summer just got a whole lot busier. i now have two jobs. i'm back at the gas station where i worked last summer. he's got me working monday night's 6-10, wednesday mornings 5-9 and sundays 9-3 and on the saturdays that i don't work at the cleaner's i'm 9-3. so it's not too much for me to handle or ne thing but i'm still gonna be busy. on mondays and wednesday i'm gonna be wiped but other than that i should be fine. but right now i just need all the cash i can get my hands on, so i'll take just about anything u guys want to throw at me. lol.

well my summer just got a whole lot busier. i now have two jobs. i'm back at the gas station where i worked last summer. he's got me working monday night's 6-10, wednesday mornings 5-9 and sundays 9-3 and on the saturdays that i don't work at the cleaner's i'm 9-3. so it's not too much for me to handle or ne thing but i'm still gonna be busy. on mondays and wednesday i'm gonna be wiped but other than that i should be fine. but right now i just need all the cash i can get my hands on, so i'll take just about anything u guys want to throw at me. lol.

hmm. so i'm thinking about breaking things off with clayton....something just doesn't feel right.

wow so i like cleaned my car tonight and it hasn't been that clean in a LONG time lol. like i cleaned the carpets, polished my wheels...the whole nine yards! and then i came home and cleaned my room. omg like what is wrong with me??! beth! cleaning?! those two words don't belong in the same sentence unless doesn't is the word inbetween lol. guess what i found when i was cleaning?! i found mine and my friend rene's old rant notebook. ha! funny stuff man. we had a rant section and then a section where we just kinda kept a running note. u know how girls are. but dude reading this is HILLARIOUS. i don't even remember 3/4 of the ppl we are talking about or what the hell is going on lol. and there are sooo many old inside jokes. PICKLED FETUS! that was one of them if u were wondering. and don't ask b/c i have no clue in hell lol. and dude we have some old poems in here. i'm glad i found them. i copied some of my cousin's poems in here and i LOVE them. maybe i'll post them later. idk. but ne ways. i've rambled enough. gtg. ciao.