so my life has been some what eventful, shall we say, in the last week or so..

so y'know my car..? yeah well it kinda blew up. and i was bumming rides off people left and right so that i could make it to work.well i just got my car back like 2 days ago. and still my shock wasn't fixed.. and the car details of it blowing up... too long and too many things to tell you about it. BUT one exciting fact: my anti-freeze boiled!!

yeah i know. amazing.

i went to the lake. i so had fun. i bought a little grill thing. it was great we grilled out and had a blast. phillip and chris a. jumped off the bridge. its was awesome. i so wanted to do it, but i was afraid of loosing my top. :D cause you know them 2 pieces you gotta watch out for.

but... i'm emotionally having a ruff time... ): i even called Barb (the ex Mrs. Leeper) and told her about it. you see... i haven't been able to see my boyfriend in, atleast, 2 weeks or more. and its like that every other time you know..? cause we only have off Monday & Tuesday together and we still don't get to see each other then anymore (barely).. and its really made me upset and i need some companionship. well me and someone important to me got close.. (or maybe i just thought we did) and you know... i got to where i "liked him" liked him.. ): and we were spending time together after work.

so... i've been asking him personal questions and such.. wondering if he wanted a girlfriend and such... etc. whatever. and he started to kind of avoid me... (or it felt like it) would text back, he was always busy, didn't want to hang out anymore.. and so i was getting a bad impression... so i was like whats up?! and he told me he was dating a girl for a couple of days now...

well i was smashed.. ): even though i really shouldn't have been-because i have my own boyfriend and i love him very much.. but you know... ): i was still smashed... :

so i skulked over a pint of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream and watched Gone with the Wind. :

rejection stinks. >:{

anyways. on to brighter subjects... I ordered stuff from target!! :D i got a polk-a-dot shirt that is uber cute on me. a tote purse with is really cool and it has the big tassel on it (etc) and i got Dane Cook's Harmful If Swallowed cd. it's great, he is an awesome comedian. i burned Retaliation from Justin. (:

i have two jobs now. im back at mcdonald's and im not takin shit from no body!! >:} muwahaha.

i saw a BEN-LOOK-ALIKE! his name is cody and works with me.i miss playing dominos and going to chef wangs with rocky and ben and sam. those were good times. (:

...And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer