my life lately has been... whats the word... estatic ... yeh thats it... lets see... i got into a wreck... but it god rid of the car we didnt want... i go through wierd times with girls and now im about to go out with the girl of my freaking dreams... My grades start to slip but suddenly all of my teachers want to give me extra credit... my old springy bed was killin me... i couldnt sleep... i would wake up in pain... yeh... i come home sunday and my mom had surprised me with a bed 3 times the size and by far the most comfortable bed ever... me and my brother are becoming really good friends... wierd cuz we used to like... totally despise eachother... i start running low on money and my mom tells me today that because of mine and my brothers injuries in the wreck were getting a $1000 check by the end of the week... ok... i just wanna put these in a list

1: The ugly car is gone and were getting a cool one

2: Lauren Johnson is absolutely everything iv been looking for

3: Me and my bro will have $1000 dollars in a few days

4: my mom informed me 2 days ago that she got me 2 new cell phones... one of them being the one i have ALWAYS wanted

5: my grades are getting better by the second

6: my friends are simply amazing

7: I proved paul wrong... hehe...but im totally happy for him

8: (of all things) i was looking for a certain type of mirror to put in my room... found them for 1500 dollars and the day after... the place i was working was gonna throw a set of mirrors IDENTICAL to the 1500 dollar ones away and they gave them to me

9: iv completely redone my room and now it looks sheerly amazing

10: My mom is by far my bestest friend in the whole world... and that makes me happy to say that

11: my dad is being less of a jerk

12: my sister-in-laws baby is due in less than a month... Kevin Scott Slate

13: A really cool person (storey freakin akers) got moved back into my 6th person... shes awesome

14: i was offered a job... but i wanna keep it on the DL until i know if im gonna take it... but trust me... its one of those jobs that a lot of people would envy

15: Me and Karla (the girl in the picture 2 posts ago) hung out sunday... and yeh... shes the epitomy of amazing

16: after the band im in gets going... iv already got us 2 labels... we just have to go record

ok so if you cant tell... nothing seems to be able to bring me down lately... the wreck even made me laugh... no matter what anyone seems to say to me lately i just dont care... today some guy was cussin me out and crap and i seriously didnt care... All the people i once thought was mad at me... ALL came up and talked to me in the halls today... my teachers (espicially my 1st period) all seem to be taking more of a role then just the person that gets paid to talk... they all seem to be role models... and by far... i think one guy that has really helped me thtough this year is the main guy i bash all the time... and i plan to thank him for bein there, tomorrow.... and that is Mr Tomlinson... hes actually a great guy... just he can be a jerk at times... but a few things hes done lately has made me gain a LOT of respect for him...

one thing i cant get over.... in that wreck... i was thinkin about it... we were goin about 60... and where we hit was right on my side... i know that it is insane that i only got a minor bit of whiplash that lasted for 3 days... 2 great people were killed in a car wreck 5-25-05... Hope Brownlowe and Lori Golliher... and i know that they had their hand on me and my brother in that wreck... Hopey and lubby... thank you... i miss you guys... *RIP Hope and Lori*... i could have been the next to go VERY easily... and you can be too... i know u probably here this a million times but take this from someone who could have easily been looking death in the face... You only live once... live it to the fullest... ur not promised tomorrow... and the only thing that can promise you happiness is God... He can help you with absolutely anything... and he garauntees you eternal happiness after death... The one promise that someone literally died for... he died for me... he died for you... and he did it all so willingly... trust him... the world truly is in his hands... God Bless

You guys have no idea how much you mean to me... even the people i randomly message on Phusebox... you guys are all amazing... without you i wouldnt be here... i would have died years ago... thank you... all of you...

if you cant tell from the title... i was in a wreck... yeh... my bro was drivin... we were headin to church... a guy in a red truck (Chris Goins... senior at Oakland) was turning left on Greenland... turned a little late though... and we couldnt stop... i remember i was lookin down... and i look up and see nothing but red... yeh so i got out of the car and at first i was mad... but then it hit me... "wait... we wanted to get rid of that car anyways..." so yeh... me and stephen were laughin and jokin around... then chris morgan came and he was gonna take me to church... u know... since the car was gone... but yeh... so i ended up havin to wait for like and hour and a half just to tell the cop my name b-day and middle initial... what the crap... well while we were still outside i wasnt hurt at all... i fealt like any other day... so i went to church and after sittin through the half of service i didnt miss... i got really really tense... and sore... o god so sore... well ms jeanna took me home and as we got there stephen and my mom were on there way to the emergency room and were like "hey are u hurt at all cuz my wrist is killin me were gonna go to the hospital".. so i told my mom about my neck and she  told me i should go too... come to find out i have whiplash... bad... that night i couldnt hardly sleep cuz i was in so much freakin pain... i left school early thursday and i didnt go to school friday... but today... i feel 100% fine... kinda wierd... i go from horrible pain... to absolutely fine... but yeh... im not complainin... haha... ok but i am kinda ticked.... i was makin some advertisements for phusebox... and i spent like 5 hours workin to play with some stuff and make it look good... and i finally finish and im so happy... i go to upload them... and it didnt upload... so that kinda ticks me off.... but ill tell u what they were... one was a hot air balloon... it was cool... one was a billboard that said "War on Iraq is NOT the answer... PhuseboxBETA... now theres an answer" and then one was a cut out of a arbys cup that i turned sideways and put to a mountain background... i put a cape on it and it was "Captain Phusebox" it was the funniest ad iv ever seen... thats for sure... but yeh... i couldng get them to upload... and that still ticks me off... i emailed them to Beck and he told me to try the copy he sent me and that still didnt work... i have no idea why it wouldnt work... i did the exact same thing with those as i did with my profile picture... i took the original... and i colored it... what the crap... oh well... im still workin on it...  but yeh... i dont really know what to say anymore... this has probably been the most boring post ever made... and i probably sound like a nerdy freshman... haha... oh well... whatever... im out

of all the things goin on now... all my stress... all my work... everything... all i can seem to think about is the friend i feel as though im losing...

Karla Lozano... I love you

ok... so i was gettin ready to go to laurens and suddenly my doorbell rings... i open the door cautiously... to see a 3 foot batman... (the movies so make him look bigger) well he suddenly lets out a sound of retched horror... "Trick Or Treat!!!" said the world known hero... i was scared... i mean... this is Batman... the one who can sooo friggin own you... and he offered me a treat... or a trick... well obviously i did what any smart man would do... i kicked him in the shins and shut the door just joking... but i did offer him a piece of candy to save my mortal flesh... shortly behing him was a shady character... he told Batman to hurry up... he said... "its cold out here"... the Hero looked back... and said "hold on" and all off a sudden... the beast was unleashed... the unknown man grabbed the kid and devoured his face... actually... he looked at Batman and said "Shut the f*** up"... i was in shock... i just knew that in any second Batman would so whoop that hoes butt... so i shut the door and played a happy song on my guitar  little do i know what happened to the mysterious figure... or Batman... but i do know... that today... will forever live in infamy... Today was the day... That Batman met "STFU"

ok so that was lame... but ill update later... im off to laurens... then probably a party afterwards at Greek Row... im out...

i think its time to celebrate

CONGRATULATIONS NATHAN!!!!! i wish you both the best...

so if you havent heard by now... the best website designer alive is now... the best website designer fiance' alive...

congratulations... but i wanna be invited to the wedding... lol jk...

well yeh... anywhoo...

it seems my life has been so utterly confusing lately...

i like her... but i like her*... but she** means a lot to me... i want to ask her out... she** wants me to ask her** out... but im fallin for her* again... if you cant tell... the stars make a difference... means a different girl... means a different face... a different personality... but the same crush...

A toast to Nathan... the one who can make up his mind!!! i truly do wish u the best...

dont get mad if i never breathe again... my smile is officially faded and slash or confused...

call me out... call me the emo prep poser wanna-be...

umm ok??? am i supposed to care what you think... pardon me while i ignore you... your wasting your breath... go away...

theres a bridge... jump...dear god please!!!...

ur breathing is retched... cease to live you whore....

i cant wait til halloween... im gonna be tinkerbell... and Liz Joines is gonna be Peter Pan... any takers for Hook or RUFIOOOOOO!!!!!???...

Lauren... you keep me laughing/breathing/living/here at all... thank you...

Elaine... you keep me confused... wheres that bridge again?...

Jessica... look... ur name is in your favorite color... best friends are best freinds... thats all i need to say... i love you more than life itself... really i do...

Sara... you keep my hopes high...

Kayla... well ur kayla... never change... ever...

Liz... you have to be the coolest person i have EVER met... our talks... just amazing... our jokes... just astounding... us... just wierd... lol... i love you dearly...

Karla... we basically just met... im glad we did though... ur one cool chick...

paul... ur not supposed to sing or speed... but yeh... ur paul so thats not gonna happen... haha... what a mustang... lol...

BrittyPoo... can i ask for more of a slut... i meant... a friend... hehe... ur cool...

Storey... im so glad i dont hate you anymore... lol... though the 1st period "Storey Akers is a B****" convos a surely missed... lol... jk... i love you boo...

GOD... we've lost touch... help me...

to all my friends i have sadly left out... thank you for keeping my heart beating... I love you all so much...

Cheers to you my loves

I love my life... everthing about it... its just amazing im gettin yet another new phone by the end of the week... Cingular sucks... so im gettin T-mobile... dont know the number... obviously... but ill keep you updated.. i have ISS tomorrow and thursday... o well went off on El Senior Tomlinson today... fun times... fun times... my friends are estatic i like a girl she likes me and yes... i am going to ask her out... soon so yeh... i think im gonna go live my life... i love it... so dearly... envy me....

wow... if the title doesnt say enough... ok so basically... this is my weeks layoutso far... monday was basic school... nothin big... i was supposed to hang out with Nicole after school but that didnt go thru cuz she was sick... tuesday was lame... one club meeting in the morning... an announcement...school.... detention... home... the end... wednesday was cool... school... random cool things goin on there... hung out with Karla after school... we went to Jasons Deli with her parents... and OMG... her parents are the epitomy of cool... haha thursday/today was same ole same ole... it was school... made an announcement... then classes... and jensi and i were gonna hang out but she wasnt freakin at school.... what a hoe... lol... i was supposed to have detention... but ms yeager wasnt there so i didnt go and im gonna tell her that i couldnt go today and yeh... ill get it rescheduled... and hows about like EVERYONE had detention today so i kinda wish i woulda gone... ok tomorrow... friday... its gonna be freakin cool... One Club in the morning... then basic "whatever" announcement... then classes... then im skippin 6th and gonna go home with Liz and shes drivin me to STEPHEN FREAKIN TURNERS PARTAY... i cant wait... techno is the shiz.. dancing is the shiz... parties are the shiz... therefor... techno dance parties WILL BE THE SHIZ... and yeh... it think thats all... i will most definately update about the partay... The Endcall me sometime.. 556-5642five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.... i cant wait... techno is the shiz.. dancing is the shiz... parties are the shiz... therefor... techno dance parties WILL BE THE SHIZ... and yeh... it think thats all... i will most definately update about the partay... The Endcall me sometime.. 556-5642five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.

that chick is sooo my new best friend... Haha... ^dont we look sexy^ ok just to let u all know... aaron massey makes the coolest music videos EVER... he made one to a Taking Back Sunday song... "This Picture Is Proof" it looks professional... i love it... go to his site... its amazing... well anywhoo... random info.. i almost lost my NEW PHONE at school like 2 days after i got it... luckily katie kimbell found it and gave it to me.... but unfortunately all the way from the start of first lunch to the end of 5th period it was connected to the internet... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End... so i have to go get more minutes added to my account today... me and elaine got into... not neccecarily a fight... but an argument... but now were all good... this morning we apologized... and yeh... were cool now.... Sara Effin Romans is startin to become cool again... she wrote me a note today... i wont type the whole thing but it basically said that she wanted to start going to church and she wanted to know if she could go to mine with me... that makes my job like 98475283645 times easier... and paul told me that felicia (her cousin) was tellin him a while ago about how when we started to go out she stopped drinking and smoking and anything bad... for me... but when we broke up she started doin it again... and now shes stopped... hopefully for good.... why paul didnt bother to tell me earlier... i have no freakin clue... im not even gonna lie... that makes me mad that he didnt tell me sooner... instead he led me on to believe she was a drunk, pothead, slut.... so umm ok... but who cares... shes not now... so im not that mad about it... i havent so much as seen Nicole Briard (sp?)since friday night.... but since then iv met Karla Lasagna... i meant... Lozano... haha... and she is muy muy el coolio.. lol... iv been able to suck up to like all of my teachers lately and now i can do like whatever i want... for example... in my 3rd... this girl ashley needed to go to the library... the teacher wouldnt let her... i needed to get somethin out of my locker... i went up... i asked... she started laughin and was like "i told you amillion times not to forget ur book.... go ahead" then ashley was like... how come he can go and not me... and i go "ill watch her... u can let her go..." and the teacher said "ok ashley... u can go"..... so yeh... theres one example... i love it... my grades are good... i cam miss like all the assignments and still end up with a 99 average... hehe... im just that good... im having a few... mixed thoughts... about my church... i was keeping it on the down low... only a few people knew... but now i guess i can tell... im greatly considering leaving family worship center... the people there... as well as the youth pastor... are all getting to be to much to handle... ill most likely go to another church like FWC or somethin... but right now... im not sure if im gonna leave FWC... one thing can stop me... and ill find out if thatll happen tomorrow at church... my life seems to be like...whats the word... really friggin sweet.... look at my post 2 posts ago.... yeh... reffer to that... i live a laguna beach life... minus the drama... and ever since i left LaVergne High School and moved to Oakland... the dramas been gone... thank god... and yeh... consider this post a goodbye to all of the people in lavergne... "good bye... i never want to talk to you people again.... oakland people are better..." and at that note... i think ill say goodbye to all of you... have a nice day... i know i have... :-D .... c ya The End

photo from another_lostsongmeet the chick iv spent all my time with

ok... so iv come to a conclusion:

i live a total laguna beach life

 seriously... think about it... im out like all the time... never get in earlier than midnight... my parents spoil the crap out of me... i dont have a curfew... well i do.... my mom always tells me to be in before the sun comes up... iv beeninvited to like 8728634208576 parties... but iv only gone to 3 i think...maybe 4... yeh... i mean.... despite the rich parents... ginormous house... and picture perfect city.... i live a laguna beach life....

ok... now that thats outta the way

last night at about 6 30 paul picked me up... we met up at oaklands annex parking lot... so most of the people got there... then me and paul had to go pick up karla... so at like 7 30 me,paul,katie kimbell, karla lazano, jeremy zajas, matt ?, matts friend, elizabutt, kate hooper, kelsey stroop, mike sandman, kelseys little sister, sarah walls, randy rodden, liz joines, and maybe some more people... all went to the corn maze... and we were GONNA go to a movie afterwards... but a lot of people didnt want to... so me, karla, randy, and liz all went to the movies and everyone else went to DQ... but i think me, liz, randy, and karla had the most fun... we saw elizabethtown.... i was to tired to pay attention... so dont ask me if it was a good movie cuz i dont know... idk... maybe ill go tomorrow... but yeh...

call me for plans...

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I love my life... what. a. hoe.

 so yeh... hows about last night was effing amazing
ok... so i talked my mom into lettin me go to the game... aka... i asked...and she said yeh.. remember... im supposed to be grounded
well yeh... i got the the game.... Nicole was gonna drive me home... and like... i talk to a few people... and walk up to this girl karla... one of zachs friends... a girl iv talked to like once... and was like... i effin love you karla... and yeh... me and her started talkin... and then this girl lilly started talkin... and yeh... iv only seen lilly around school... shes cute... lol...
well yeh... i found out that they were gonna leave at 7 30.... kinda lame since the game started at 7 00.... well yeh... i thought it was lame until i found out where they were goin... the effin rosevelts concert ... so yeh... basically i told Nicole that i didnt need a ride cuz i was so goin to that concert so i left with karla and lilly... and we went to the place where the concert was... and like... no one was there... so i think we got there to late... to early... or not the right day/place... so we left... we went by my bros house... then to mtsu... then to starbucks... then to the park... then walmart... then mtsu campus... we found dewey... hehe... its a cat... umm then to walmart again to get lillys phone... THAT SHE LEFT IN THE BATHROOM so yeh.. we got that... then we drove... god only knows where... no parties goin on at Greek Row... what. a. hoe. then we started to go to lillys house... but we changed our mind... so like... at 12 30ish karla dropped me off at my house... and yeh... thats all... i called nicole :-) the end

so... for a night of screaming "i love you" at everyone and recording posters of lost cats it was by far... the... best... night... ever...

i got my new celular device... call me... five.five.six.dash.five.six.four.two.556-5642

Help Dewey Find A Home

my life is gibberish
everything is so confusing...
school is getting unbearable
friends are... strange sometimes
my girlfriend acted more like we were a couple when we werent goin out

i dont know...

its been really stressful for me lately....

i went to young life monday... it was... interesting... i met a lot of new, cool people... shultzie drove me home... hes really cool... and um yeh... that about all...

my mom got her new job... im gettin my new phone... stephens gotten like 98465786398456 new things... yeh... i think im spoiled.... but its cool....

corn maze this saturday... off of 96... a lot of people are goin... call me for details... call me at my house now... but ill have my new cell in a few days most likely... 9049502....

hasta luego

this just in
Me and Elaine are only friends now... but shes still here... so im happy

if u cant tell by now... im freakin bored... but ill let u in on a few things...

1: if u didnt see the edit in my last post... me and elaine are official....

2: also in the edit... im a big brother... my step mom had a baby boy... Samuel David Slate.... lame name....

3: i broke my phone forever and a day ago... so in a few weeks ill have a new one... ill give u all the new number when i get it... im gettin cingular

4: IM EFFIN BORED


5: my fall break has been amazing... though im kinda excited to go back to school

6: i cant think of anything... so yeh... heres number 6...


ok so nothing much goin on... im really bored now... i just found out what phone im gettin... and other than that... im sittin at home doin nothin... someone call me... pretty bad when your own girlfriend wont call you.... :( ... im hurt.... lol... but yeh... someone call me... 9049502...

and they lived happily ever after ...The End...

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wow... i just went out to eat with my mom and step dad... it really made me realize how much i miss my "family".... me, my mom, my dad, micheal, and stephen.... just around a table... happy... perfect little life... to bad that was all a dream... My dad is married to a snob now... my mom is married to a mexican that argues 24/7 micheal is married at only 19... stephen works non stop so we rarely see him... iv been to my dads house 1 time since february... he only lives 30 minutes away... my friends seem to be the only thing i have left...

yeh so as i told u in my last post... me and paul were goin to Lee University... it was effing amazing... i never thought i would be impatient to go to college but i want to go NOW.... a few highlights of the trip... some u wont understand cuz i sont want to explain them...

-me, paul, randy, russell, and adam all got stuck in an elevator... and thats like a really big fear of mine...

-Dance Dance Revolution... me, pike (paul), russ, adam, and randy... in adams dorm.... in our boxers... hehe... yeh... what it was hot in there?!?

-Mustang on the way home... teehee...

-we saw a forest fire... like yeh... it was intense

-stoplight by taco bell.... omg i dont want to explain... just wow...

-micheal uses a spoon.... thats all ill say... haha

ok yeh that trip was freakin AMAZING... except for that i left at 5 in the morning... i got like 30 minutes of sleep

but yeh... friday i called elaine to see if she wanted to hang out... so we decide were gonna get a group to go to the corn maze... sounds dumb but it was actually really cool... so we called a bunch of people... and like yeh,... we got a small group... me, elaine, kayla, stuart, and paul... it was awesome... after the maze thing (which we didnt actually do... we just walked around and acted stupid)... we all went to my house to pick up pauls car and then to elaines house to watch a movie... ok... so we got there at like 10... somehow the movie didnt start till 12 or something... but who cares... lol... elaine... i love ur dad... never talked to ur mom.. and am scared of ur dog... but i want ur cat... hehe... its so fat... rascal fats... haha...

yeh... my break has been like... pretty freakin sweet... elaine... me and u... hang out soon... like.... this saturday...
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an update on things.... im a big brother as of 5:23 october 7th....

and

me and elaine are an item...

ok so yeh... basically iv been hittin a lot of glitches on phusebox lately... i click like any link and it says something like "Warning my_fetch_row_sql is not valid"... but yeh... phusebox is still better than xanga... congrats to nathan...

ok the whores part in the title had nothing to do with the post... ill admit...

hmm i went to a drive in theatre last night with paul, kate, hooper, and the jensen group... it was muy bueno... drive in movies are like the coolest thing ever... 6 bucks for 2 movies... and we had pauls car on one side hoopers on the other and the jensen mobile in the middle behind us and me, kate, marybeth, and zay sat in the middle on the ground and we like had suround sound.. amazing... if anyone wants to go to the drive in tell me... im tryin to get a big group to go before the end of fall break... its in cannon county... far ways away... but trust me... its worth it...

random... i wrote a song... i had it in my notebook.. and someone stole my notebook... so i dont have my song... i dont remember most of it...

laurens strange

im kinda bored

and yeh...

hmm cool news:... 3 days and me paul and randy are off to Cleveland Tennessee... yep... were gonna run to Lee University... so just think... Chris Slate, Paul Morgan, and Randy Rodden in a car for like 2 and a half hours together... wow... am i gonna have some stories when i get back... i cant wait... pauls dad just has to say yeh we can go... but im not to worried about his answer...

umm

i tried screaming some more today... i killed my throat... but hey... thats what screamo music is for... i think it sounded pretty good...

but yeh

the end

ok so yeh... today is the 29th... the 15th will be the 30th day of me being grounded... meaning it hasnt even been 15 days and it feels like a lifetime... i miss my life
well actually...
i still do a lot... went to eat with friends 2 days after i was grounded... went to the football game... went and hung out with liz and randy... umm yeh.... a lot of stuff... but im still apperantly "grounded"... sara gets ungrounded the 15th of October... so she only got 30 days... thats what i HAD too... but then i got an additional 30 days for punching a hole in my wall.... the hole isnt even that big *cough*
but yeh... i still have a life... i can talk on the phone.... most of the time... watch tv... listen to music... i still have my guitars... all of them... the only thing i havent been able to do is get on the coputer... oh wait... im on it... so i guess i can still do everything... hmm... well ill update u on my life... well... what uv missed...

me and sara broke up... i found out she was still doin drugs... a major NO in my books... drugs are for hoes and hoes arent for me... (shut up paul... i know what ur thinkin) but yeh... me and her are OVER... ill give the female update at the end of my life update...

my 2nd period teacher refused to give me .01 points on my final grade and he gave some other guy 25 extra points on his final average to so called "keep his reputation" so hes a hoe... i dont like that teacher.... hes the one u always read about me fighting with...

oakland has introduced me to some of the coolest people in the world... kayla, kelsey s.,kelsey j, lauren, but most of all... i definately think the one i would have to give the Oakland Favorite Award too... is Katie Kimbell... shes cool... a friend of pauls... i used to think she was a snob... but im glad i got to know her... but yeh....

variety show went over awesome... i was impressed

sara is mad at me now... who knows why... but i really dont care... i have 2 years left at oakland and im not gonna waste them on petty stupid drama.... and she definately has pettystupiddrama-itis... so yeh...

and im goin to the oakland lavergne game tomorrow night... so go with me...

ok thats all that i can think of now....

the female update:

well sara is out... lauren likes me... and yeh... i kinda like her... but idk... theres things about her... but shes an amazing person... but idk... ill give that time... i was told that a girl named ellain liked me... i didnt believe it and then ellain told me for herself 2 days ago... but one problem with that... shes talkin to another guy... and from what iv heard hes gonna ask her out like any day now... theres one girl... (shell remain nameless) shes been on my mind a lot... i could definately see myself with her... but the problem... shes a senior... shes 17... and shes kinda semi-taken by someone... so that sucks... so yeh... right now im single... and i love it... power to the single guys... lol... but yeh... thats all

im gonna go back to my total antigrounded life... farewell...

so yeh...im grounded for 60 days
basically...
i snuck out...
practically stole a car...
now im screwed....
i was caught like crazy...
so yeh...im updating now at school
during the variety show...
and im up next....so gotta go

Me and sara are officially together
yeh... im happy
we hung out today... it was fun...
hmm... anyone wanna hang out tomorrow... ill be bored... call me 9049502

ok... a few things
1: some people make mistakes ... actually... ALL people do
we cant hold people accountable for what they did when weve dont so much worse...
yeh iv done bad... really bad... iv changed.... but i still cant hold people responsible when they go get high or something... iv been in that boat... so i cant call them stupid and tell them i hate them and what not... but i can tell you this... from experience... i know it seems fun for the moment... i know it hurts the day after... i know that u dont want to do it again... but u still do... and i know that life is a million times better when ur not involved with those things... turn your head upward... look to god... he will make your lives better... and drugs and drinking is NOT better...

2: friends fall away... me and jessica... were still the best of friends in the whole wide world... i would die for her i would hope she would do the same... shes awesome... im soooo effin glad shes my friend... shes been like a sister to me since we met... a lot of things i have or havent done have been considered with her in mind... not my mom... not my dad... not my girlfriend... her... jessica ryanne hunter... but the thing is... i had other friends... not as good of friends... but other ones... we would hang out all the time.. some of the funnest time in my life were with them... and something would happen... we would stop talkin on the phone... we would stop hangin out on fridays... then on saturdays... then stop all together.... then we barely talked... before u know it... u have trouble remembering there last name... yeh... iv had frinds like that.... alot of them... and i look back at them now... and theyre all dealing with what i was talking about in the first part... and they would have gotten me involved... theres a reason we make and lose friends... we make friends to be an example to them or for them to be one to us... its our choice which one we choose... i chose to be an exaample... i didnt smoke... didnt drink... nothing... i was a positive example to the best of my ability... and i challenge you all to be a positive one too...

3: god is an awesome god... he changes the worst of muck to the richest of gold... the poor to the rich.. the homeless to the housed... the followers to the leaders... and trust me... im a walking, talking, breathing ,living testimony... yeh... u read the first part... iv been in those shoes... iv been where you all have been... trust... iv gone through just about everything u can in a lifetime... drug addiction, gangs, depression, suicide attempts, a lot of stuff... and u know what i did... i decided not to live the life that made me sad... mad... depressed... just so lost and confused... i gave it all away... i gave it all to god... and my life has been awesome ever since...
another thing with him is that he blesses the ones who bless him... hes given friends of mine money (more than 2000 dollars at one time) to get cars... to get gas... to get food... to get anything they wantes... simply because they gave him what they could... and he blessed them... its amazing how that works... u give ur life to him... he makes all warm and bubbly inside... hehe... well yeh... gods amazing... leave ur life to him... ull be so much happier...

4: life will be hard... no matter what you do... who you live with... what you have... anything... ur life will be hard at times... ur not gonna be able to live a life that only involves smiles and laughter... we will all go through our storms... we will all have our fights to fight and our wars to win.. life wont be perfect no matter what... and one thing that people need when they go through those times are friends... 2 of my friends right now are goin through a hard time... ashley... zach... im here... just call... anytime... same with anyone else... just call... even if i dont know u... i love to talk to people... just call... 9049502...

thats all that i really have to say... i hope that this will help someone... because even the words out of my mouth helped me...

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
- Matthew 6:34

^^if only you knew how much that verse has helped me lately^^

I got another confession to make... Im your fool...


my life gets better
the days get brighter
the sun shines a little more throught the clouds
the rain dies
the fog fades
broken hears are mended
broken dreams are soon fulfilled
lives restored
remade
reborn
.... and i can live
once more
and for some reason....
the next storm does it all again
the waves are much more than a hurrican
katrina? hah!
these storms make Katrina look like a mist
the tsunami was a drop in the flood of sorrow im faced with
"and what starts such a storm?" you may ask...
one thing
a small thing
yet a large thing
an inevitable thing...
a confusing thing
a thing of many pieces
but a thing to make you complete
love
L. O. V. E.
its only that...
one word...
causing the worst of nightmares
and the best of dreams...
just one word
one feeling
one life
one LOVE


Is someone gettin the best, the best, the best of you?