I've been reading some very unique books lately. If any of you have read Jane Eyre and Wuthering Heights you know what I mean. They make you think it such a....um, unusual way. I really think that the people that wrote them were not right in their head when they did. They have some misconcepts about....well, a lot of things. 

 I have been reading a book about apologetics. I've realized that I need to know more about things like that. I'm also gonna start reading "The Case for Christ" which seems like it will be really good book.  I've already read "Mere Christianity" but didn't like that all that much. I'm starting figure out exactly what I believe and why. I've realized working at Kohl's that the people I'm around will not always agree with what I believe. Which is ok. But, I want to make a mark on their life. I want them to know when they walk away that I'm different. I've always been around people who were "like minded" but now I'm not. It's pushing me to know withut a doubt what I believe kinda like what 1 Peter 3:15-16: "But in your hearts set apart Christ the Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good behavior in Christ may be ashamed for their slander." That is my goal. 

 Revival at DFA has definitely helped that. I'm learning to lean on God more than anything else. Something Pastor Steve said on Sunday night really got me thinking. He said that we need to rend our hearts to open to God. We need to become so desperate for God that we can't live without Him. That's were I totally want to be. And I'm starting to get there. : )