so. life is good, and pretty much the same as always. no boys, lots of work, but plenty of Jesus to make up for the things that stink. i just started the coolest devotional that i found in our computer desk. it is truly amazing.

When you know that God doesn't want you to do something, and yet you want it so bad, it makes for a very interesting situation. This boy...gracious. I love him so much, but I love Him more. I know that he is not God's best for me, and I believe that if i am patient, God will bring me someone. (Or He might not bring me anyone, and that's ok, too.) I just have to keep believing that something else will come along, and I tell myself that I can't give in and do what I want. But God has been so faithful to fill up that void for now. And the cool part is, the closer i get to Him, the less i feel as though i need "him". But it still doesn't make it any easier to be around him.

Nayways, other than that, life is peachy. School is almost over, thank goodness, and i have yet to fail chemistry, so that's a plus. I made an 84 out of 90 on my Free Response (i'm thinkin only APUSH kids know what i'm talking about), and things are, as i said, peachy.

but on a more depressing note, i really miss Bruce lately. I just can't believe how much i've grown up since he died, and i often find myself wondering what he'd be like if he had grown up with us. i miss his friendship, and how he was always there for me. I miss our deep conversations, and i miss him telling me about his walk with Christ. It's been a long time since i've had a conversation with a friend about that. i wish that William and I actually agreed about anything. but we don't, and that's ok for now. the arguing just makes things hard. i swear, if people didn't know us they would think that we were married because of how much we fight. it's a bit ridiculous. anyways. i'll stop boring anyone who actually reads this. much love to you all---Cari