so. does your life (or what it could be) ever seem like a movie? cause mine does sometimes. not in a melodramatic way. it's just funny. so, to whom it ma concern, i got principal's list this six weeks...YAYAH!...and pretty sure Lakeisha Seay is my favorite person ever...excluding Kelsey Stroop, who is my hero. but what i'm particularly not liking right now, is guys. actually, i love guys. but, one guy in particular has earned his way onto my "crap list". i don't like guys that try to mess with me, either because they think that they can take advantage of the fat kid and that i'll just go all googly eyed over them because i'm just sooooooooooooooooooooooo desperate...or guys that are just too touchy feely. i'm sure he'd just tell me i'm making to big a deal out of it, but it bothers me, so i don't think it's too big of a deal. anyways, yeah. i'm actually really sad that mrs. dugger (student teacher) is leaving on friday. i really liked her. but w/e. anyways. formal is growing ever closer, and i am excited. but not in the usual crazy way. just a very mellow anticipation. woot! we's gon has fun! i still can't believe Siegel beat us last night. but God has really opened my eyes to how not big of a deal it is. it's really not worth busting unity in our youth group, which tends to happen (i do it too, i'm not blaming anyone). also, it's pretty weird when someone you haven't talked to in a year starts talking to you again. but kinda neat. also, pretty sure Bruce has been on my mind like a mug lately. i dunno what it is. who knows. story of my life. so anyways, i'll leave you with a song, which i really think was written for me, by Billy Joel...and it goes a lil' summpin like-a dis... 

[slow down, you crazy child, you're so ambitious for a juvenile, but then if you're so smart, tell me, why are you still so afraid?...where's the fire? what's the hurry about? you better cool it off before you burn it out, you got so much to do and only so many hours in a day, hey...but you know that when the truth is told that you can get what you want, or you can just get old. you're gonna kick off before you even get halfway through...slow down, you're doin fine. you can't be everything you wanna be before your time, although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight, tonight...too bad, but it's the life you lead, you're so ahead of yourself, that you forgot what you need. though you can see when you're wrong, you know, you can't always see when you're right, you're right...you got your passion, you got your pride, but don't you know that only fools are satisfied. dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true...why don't you realize, vienna waits for you. slow down you crazy child, take the phone off the hook and disappear for a while. it's alright, you can afford to lose a day or two...why don't you realize, vienna waits for you.]

much love---Cari