so, do you ever have those days where you just wanna sit around and do nothing but eat warm food, drink hot chocolate, and listen to sappy love songs with a lot of piano and/or strings. pretty sure i'm listening to a song by The All-American Rejects...i think maybe i've turned into a complete fag. kidding. maybe i'll just got drink a chai latte and cut my self. hardy har. so. it's pretty cool how when, in the words of Mary Lauren, you just let God rock it, He definitely does. life's pretty good. as good as, say, finding a $10 bill on the ground. but not as good as having a boyfriend. i really would like one. i think maybe Valentine's softened my hardened psyche. w/e. i'm such a girl. but you see, i just struggle with the whole thing, not because i really really love someone, but mostly cause i feel like i'm just not attractive. no, i don't want a pity party. i'm serious. you know what i mean? i think all girls feel that because guys and other forces of nature make us feel that. not consciously, but they do. i'd just really like a boyfriend. but at the same time, (and maybe this is why i don't have one), i don't think the guys that i tend to like deserve me. i know, sounds cocky. but i don't mean it as bad as it sounds. so i find it funny how contradictory i am. i feel inadequate, and yet i'm too good?....w/e. i'm weird. so yeah. anyways, life is aight, son. the play went so freakin great. wow. but i think i might quit choir next year. i'm really tired of Ms. P. it's just gettin old. w/e. we shall see. much love and bunny nuggets to you all---Cari