in life, everything is specified, basically. you're given a specific time & place, specific friends, family, and surroundings. everything is basically set out in front of you & you're left with a choice. the choice of whether you want to screw things up for yourself & everybody else around you, or to make the best of the life you've been given. it's not always easy, but it's not impossible.
for me, i just wanna live the best life that has been given to me that i possibly can. i don't see a reason to take detours into what is cool for the moment, because of the way i see it, it's not worth ruining what's planned already. God's got this fantastic plan for my life that is gonna take it's toll the way it should, & hopefully, i'll make a difference somehow. i'm not on this earth because God ran out of ideas & He felt sorry for me. there's a purpose for me, & i take fulfillment in that.
i want to live a simple life. i want all my relationships to be simple. i don't see a reason for me or other people to complicate things. if crap comes up, deal with it. it's all a part of life, & complaining about it or causing drama for it isn't gonna help it go away none-the-less take it back from happening.
i want to fall in love with the man of my dreams & for him for fall head over heels for me, too, and that basically be it. us being in a relationship with our love & friendship to fall back on. if we're truly in love & it's meant to be, then it'll all work out. sure, there's gonna be problems, but we'll learn how to deal with them together. love isn't about being selfish, it's about completely sacrificing yourself for your significant other, whether it's a friend, your family, or your husband. i want to fulfill that need & purpose in my life, but am i by no means saying i'm gonna succeed everytime.
it's in our human nature to be "natural". we naturally sin. we're naturally selfish. naturally this, naturally that. why not defy the natural? be who it is you are created to be, which is completely unnatural. when we become a part of the holy body of Christ, we are called to be unnatural. it's our purpose, to defy the natural and not sin. God says we aren't perfect, so we're gonna slip up, but isn't it great how amazing God is? He'll just forgive us & we start back over; again & again.
i guess what i'm trying to say is, i'm sick of this monotonous life to the same 'ol same 'ol.

"it take a crane to make a crane. it takes two floors to make a story. it takes a hen to make an egg. it takes an egg to make a hen. there is no end to what i'm saying.
it takes a thought to make a word. & it takes some words to make an action. it takes some work to make it work. it takes some good to make it hurt. it takes some bad for satisfaction.
life is wonderful. life goes full circle. life is wonderful.
it takes a night to make it dawn. it takes a day to make you yawn, brother. it takes some old to make it young. it takes some cold to know the sun. it takes the one to have the other.
& it takes no time to fall in love, but it takes you years to know what love is. it takes some fears to make you trust. it takes those tears to make it rust. it takes the dust to have it polished.
life is wonderful. life goes full circle. life is so full of. life is so rough. life is wonderful. life goes full circle. life is our love.
it takes some silence to make sound. it takes some loss before you found it. & it takes a road to go nowhere. it takes a toll to make you care. it takes a hole to make a mountain.
life is wonderful. life goes full circle. life is wonderful. life is meaningful. life is wonderful. life, it is so wonderful."