i decided today im going to major in electronic media production.

pretty much im going to become a producer/editor/script writer

my dream looks like it might come true.

:-)

i guess 203 remarks was my peak. now i can't get anymore.

so i just had my first "collision". nothing bad at all, but it scared me so bad the second i walked in the door i just started bawling. i dont feel like typing the whole story....so if you want to know just ask.

man though, that made my crappy day way worse.

so now i dont feel good, im all teary-eyed, and its about to tornado. not my night.

-sara

Got quite a few comments on that last post. Phusebox record? I dunno, but I'm guessing so.

itunes is like having a "billion songs downloaded" contest. so, if you download the billionth song you win a 20-inch iMac, 10 60GB iPods (5 white/ 5 black) and a $10,000 iTunes music card. And here's the most amazing prize. Apple is going to start a scholarship to a world renowned music school and if you download the one billionth song it will be named after you. so like, there could be a "Sara Read Scholarship"

ha. that would be so neat.

If I had paid more attention in spanish I would say "36" in spanish. But alas, since I didn't pay attention I will say this:

36 days.

{by the way, the title of my entry also happens to be the title of the ABC family original movie that was on last night. It was sad. Unless you've seen it already, don't watch it. Because it was sad.}

the end.

i have 51 "friends" on my phusebox. and i can only count a very very small amount of them that are actually my friends.

makes me feel not good i guess.

yeah, ive been having one of those days where i feel about 1 inch tall.

yeah, that would be me.

well pretty much i just got to tell you guys this:

about 2 minutes ago i decided that fresh fruit will bring world peace.

i would say "don't ask" but you know you're curious.

Wow. It's amazing what you miss when you don't check your phusebox in about a month or so. Let's see if I can recap my life up until this point....

I went to midstate, did awful.

I had chair tryouts, did awful.

I just barely scraped by on midterms, due to my complete lack of studying.

I became very unhappy with a friend of mine, and have since seen the error in my ways, sort of.

I got a puppy {see picture}

(she's a dachsund)

I got a camera

I got one of these:

which i am madly in love with

i became completely in love with this:

I became part of a "crew" of sorts

I went to the most drama filled christmas part there ever was

I found out I'm going to NYC and I either get to see Rent or Wicked ON BROADWAY. Which fills me up with joy.

And overall I've just had an awesome break.

Maybe you'll leave me a remark?

Maybe?

Because I probably won't be on for another month or so before I check it, so it would be nice to come back to some remarks.

-Sara

On the way home, this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. This weather. The wind outside is biting. It has left me feeling tired & exposed. You've been asking me to bleed. It seems these kinds of questions come too easy to you now. Your lack of shame comes naturally. I should not be surprised. I should have seen it sooner.

You expect me to apologize for things you've done wrong. While you're inciting others. You're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, because you're not going anywhere. this damp air is fighting my defroster. My sighs they ring victorious & fog this tinted glass. It's clouded and so is my head.

The hint of these new tears are sharp I try to hold them back. Its useless. I am useless against them. They are beating me with ease. On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight i'll take the long way.

so im going to do that 85 random things or w/e because i'm a thief and way cooler than you are. i dont expect you to read it though, because i know your attention spans are like 2 seconds, but if you feel adventurous, go for it.

and here we go.....

1) Last thing you burned while attempting to cook?
eggs. i dunno what it is about eggs, but i am physically incapable of making them without a furocious fire flaming into my kitchen.

2) Describe yourself in 3 words?
boring, funny, excitingwhenimnottiredwhichisntoften yeah, you like that last one dont you?

3) How long does it take you to get ready for your day?
like 10 minutes. depends on how tired i am. then i sit and stare at the computer like a zombie.

4) Favorite place to blow $50?
music stores, holla. did you see that? i was totally ghetto!

5) How many people have you thought were "the one"?
oh man, like every one. kidding, umm none, guys are stupid, most of the time.

6) What is something that turns you off from the opposite sex?
the interest in silly things like....wrestling.

7) What kind of car do you drive?
corolla. i think i spelled that wrong. anyway yeah, its my dads, so not technically mine. other than that, any car i can steal. kidding, kidding.

8) What's in your CD player right now?
Taking Back Sunday- Tell All Your Friends. it's awesome, go listen to it. right now.

9) What celebrity would you have coffee with?
adam brody, obviously.


10) What celebrity would you NOT have coffee with?
hillary duff. her voice is like setting someone on fire and listening to their screams of agony.

11) What kind of toothpaste do you use?
cinnamon. oh yes.

12) What time do you go to bed?
um 9:30. sometimes earlier, sometimes later. but usually before 10:30. im a baby, i know. shut up.

13) Last movie you saw?
Regretfully, Harry Potter. I just wish i could say something awesome like, dead poets soceity or hamlet. heh.

14) Last TV show you watched?
Amazing Race. but soon that answer will be the o freakin c

15) Who is your best friend?
this is going to take a minute. many people have earned the title of best friend, and all for different reasons. i wont go into the reasons, just the people. caitlin, grace, crutch, mady, and court dogg. 


16) Who in your family do you best get along with?
mom. but dad too. bah, myself heh.

17) Who do you lust after?
adam brody, and hmm no one? lusting is only good if its a celebrity.

18]) What time is it?
5:41 pm

19) Are you planning a vacation/travel?
oh yes. im goin to DC. and im goin on a cruise. and im goin to the peace freakin corps, so eat it. no, dont eat it, it could be poisonous. heh.

20) When/Where was the last time you traveled?
ummm....to my gparents in crossville.

21) How many times have you been in love?
none? thats stupid. 

22) How old will you be in 10 years?
26

23) Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
being a rapper.

24) Sinful snacking weakness?
tacos and fritos with bean dip.

25) Rollercoasters?
no. keep them away from me!

26) Ever run out of gas?
no

27) Ever been on a train?
yesh.

28) Ever been on a blind date?
sort of. it wasnt a date?

29) Ever been to Europe?
someday

30) What would you do if you could be the opposite sex for one day?
party. no, id prollie play a video game and feel what its like to not suck.

31) Would you tell anyone it was you?
no, you crazy.

32) Ever been arrested?
no, but ive gotten into trouble with cops at a mtsu football game once. heh, dont ask.

33) Have a crush on anyone you work with?
yeah, considering i dont work!

34) What is something you believe in?
i'm not sure. thats a stupid question too.

35) What is something you fear?
tornadoes, throat cultures, spiders. you get my drift.

36) Big or small?
big

37) What is the worst pain you have ever experienced?
monday night. heh.

38) What is your favorite television show?
the o freakin c and dawsons freakin creek. i know, shut up.

39) Ever photoshopped yourself to look better in a picture?
no photo shop for me.

40) Tell us something about your childhood.
my first word was bobble.

41) What would it cost for you to flash the person next to you?
the printer? been there, done that. kidding, kidding.

42) Best time to catch you in a good mood?
i dunno, my moods are completely random, haha. im usually in good mood, and if im not, im really good at hiding it.

43) If you could be anything for one day, what would it be?
a bird because i think flying would be fun.

44) Most prized possesion(s)?
my cds.

45) Would you ever sell it/how much?
yeah, then i could by them back again. $1,000,000

46) What is one of your pet peeves?
when people bump me like in the hall or w/e.

47) Favorite kind of ice cream?
spamoni (sp?) its italian, its like cherry, chocolate, and pistachio. its AMAZING.

48) Coolest thing that happened today?
asking people if they were down with opp.

56) What do you usually order from starbucks?
umm lets see, during thanksgiving time pumpkin spice latte, during holidays egg nog and gingerbread latte, during regular time i get a iced caramel machiato and a caramel frappachino.

57) What is/was your biggest mistake?
theres a lot, but theres one that stands out in my mind. however, im not going to share it on here. so, let your minds wander.and its not an obvious thing. so, shut up.

58) Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
yup

59) Say something totally random about you:
tacos are my FAVORITE food. mmm.

60) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
once. that girl from matilda. i think its bs. but w/e.

61) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
no.

62) Did you have braces?
nope, but in january *throws up*

63) Are you comfortable with your height?
yeah, it doesnt really matter.

64) What is the most romantic thing done by someone of the opposite sex?
to me? idk.

65) When do you know it's love?
you just do, i guess.

66. Do you speak other languages?
el espanol, me no gusta espanol. yucko.

67) Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
gross.

68) What magazines do you read?
the ocinsider magazine, teen people, teen vogue, etc.

69) Have you ever ridden in a limo?
yup, a few times.

70) Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
i dunno if you would call it close, but, yeah i guess.

71)Have you ever watched MTV?
like everyday, cant you tell?

72) What's something that really annoys you?
when people are fake. rawr.

73) What's something you really like?
sleeping.

74) Do you like michael jackson?
wacko jacko? not so much, no.

75) Can you dance?
pshhh ahhaaahahahaha no.

76) What's the latest you've ever stayed up?
like, 2 days. muahaha and one of those days was the day before the day before band camp, then the day before band camp, then...i lost track.

77) Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
once.

78) Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? 
not by an ambulance, but ive been rushed to the emergency room. 

79) Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
holla.

80) Who did you take this from?
grace, mady, courtney, nick. yeah.

81) Whats your full name?
sara elizabeth read

82) If you had to pick another city to live in... but it was in the same state what city would you choose?
gross. nowhere. i was gonna say nyc, but you guys suck

83) Favortie place in the world?
i don't know... favorite place i've been to (take a wild guess) New York City

84) Best feeling you ever had?
that infinite feeling described in the perks of being a wallflower.

85) Life goal or dream?
money.

the dnnnedn

thats supposed to say end. hehe.

so i'm laying in my bed, pretty much in a coma at about 7:45. and i hear ever so slightly the ringing of a telephone. and it keeps ringing. and it goes right through the message, and then the phone rings again. so i eventually, after like 4 or 5 times, wake up and i stumble to the phone, with my eyes half open. so naturally, the phone rings again and i answer it. and it's my dad. he says "get in the shower we're going shopping." i say (with the sound of "your crazy") "ITS 7:45 IN THE MORNING! HAVE YOU LOST IT??"  so my dad responds with "no, actually, your mom and i have been up since 5 going from store to store."

and now i'm about to go hop in the shower. in case you didn't pick up from the story, which you probably didn't, i HATE shopping. i can do it, but on days like today when 3/4 of america is out shopping, i want to kill someone, and i always go home really really really not happy.

so, wish me luck as i wind my way through the chaos they call the store. and let's hope i can keep my temper down.

-sara

so, this is what our band played last year for concert festival/ spring concert. everytime you hear a violin, that was the part our clarinets played, and the clarinet parts too. now let me tell you, playing a VIOLIN part on a CLARINET is hard. really hard. so yes, listen to it, the end is the most amazing part. prepare to be owned. also, let me tell you we took the end quite a bit faster than the royal philharmonic orchestra, which is amazing.

Today I ate kindered elk and deer chili.

Today was an odd day.

this girl i know, well mostly my moms friend, but i know her daughter well anyway this is her little story.

about 5-6 months ago her dad killed himself out of no where. totally unexpected. about a month or so after she came out as a lesbian, and then got the crap beat out of her. she started cutting, and huffing. and a few days ago she killed herself.

now, imagine being her mom. she loses her husband, out of nowhere. she had to watch her daughter slowly kill herself, and now has lost her whole world.

so yeah, your life doesn't suck. so stop saying that, because it's not. stupid.

--brand new--

"so wear me like a locket around your throat, i'll way you down, i'll watch you choke. you look so good in blue, you look so good in blue."

today was good. and i can totally be completely happy with good. especially considering i usually get less than good. i am doing everything in my power to keep any sadness. if i work at it, i can surely get there.

i checked out a fun book today. or i think it is fun. most people would be like "umm....ok?" but i'm like "WHOOPIEEE!!!" (yes, whoopie. shut up). i almost checked out this other book, but, alas i did not. however, the library isnt going anywhere anytime soon. so i can always go and check it out some other time. like tommorow.

anywho, i am feeling kind of left out. im not, not by any means, but i feel that way. anyway, i think i should depart.

leave me a remark? please?

me

yeah, ive been marching 3  years and never in my life have i heard judges tapes so good. holy crap it was amazing. i mean, in every tape we heard "low reeds look awesome" or "the woodwinds sound amazing" or "those mellophones were smokin". and at the end they were like "im so glad i got to hear a band like that. absolutely amazing, best band we've seen all day. great everything. the marching, the music, im really really impressed. sign me up for lessons right now!!!"

makes me smile.

--Brand New--

We won. Not only did we win in our division, but we got the highest score out of EVERY band. we win, they lose.

holla.

thanks to aaron for showing me how to do that.

but yes, anyway, no more band practices. we have one more chance to own, and thats at vmi, the macdaddy of all band competitions.

so, wish us luck.

pretty sure grace spent the better part of lunch trying to say "whatre you doing?" like me, but, theres only one me. she shall fail!

and pretty sure mady and i argued for like 30+ minutes last night about whether or not i was pretty. (i was against, she was for)

AND we got to play with FIRE today in chemistry.

the world has been good today.

also, congrats to nathan and rachael.

sara