Few have ever felt so pursued.  Sometimes we wonder if we've ever been noticed.  Father was too busy to come to our games or perhaps he jumped ship alltogher.  Mother was lost in a never ending pile of laundry or, more recently, in her own career.  We come into the world longing to be special to someone and from the start we are dissapointed.  It is  a rare soul indeed who has been sought after for who she is not because of what she can do, or what others can gain from her, but simply for herself.  Can you recall a time when a significant someone in your life sat you down with the sole purpose of wanting to know your heart more deeply, fully expecting to enjoy what he found there?  More people have climbed Mt. Everest than have experienced real pursuit, and so what are we left to conclude?  There is nothing in our hearts worth knowing.  Whoever and whatever this mystery we call I  must be, it cannot be much.

"In fact", we continue, "if I am not pursued, it must because there is something wrong with me, something dark and twisted inside."  We long to be known, and we fear it like nothing else.  Most people live in subtle dread that one day they will be discovered for who they really are and the world will be appalled.