LIFE GOES ON!!!! DONT WORRY   BE            HAPPY!

It was such a good day..... up to a few hours ago! A lot is going on and i just pretty much broke down! I dont cry and i think all of you know that, but i cryed! ;( I need all the prayers i can get right now! Thanks

I am way to board. All i could find to blog about is Star Wars guys on a swingset. I'm sad.

Hey you guys whats up! I've finally gotten over my whole crisis aboutS.O.S. And i decided to just go on and see how it goes if it does not work out i will end it .If it does than how about it lucky me i know what yall are saying THANK GOODNESS!!After 4 days it gets old i know! Well im gonna go now see yall later!!!!!!!!!!

Guess what me and my best friend wg101 are goin through some hard times she trys to make me mad sometimes in science and thats when everything goes bad in science because in that class is when she tries to make mad and i just cant put up with it anymore but i now shes playin sometimes but other times i dont know if she is or not but in all of r other classes she just fine shes not mean or nothing thats when she acts like a friend  i still want to be her friend and everything but you now how it goes so i hope we are going to work it out  and everything well im gonna go talk to her about the stuff and see if shes mad @ me or just playin around like she always does well you now i still half to love her and everything cuz shes my cousin well g2g see yall later!!!

Went to the lake for the first time this year on saturday. It was freaking awesome. Starting at Jim n' Nicks this afternoon, it's going to be a busy summer. Between all the houses we have starting right now, working nights as a waiter I am really going to look forward to my weekends

wow it's been awhile a lot of shit has happen this month... school is done hell yeah... so i am  real not doing anything....need to do more then be on the computer...i am going up north tomorrow evening...so yeah.... it's going to be fun... this past year has been great....sadly.. lol...well i am out

--meaghan

Planned Parenthood is threatening to sue a college student because she taped a conversation with PP as she posed as a 15 year-old impregnated by a 23 year-old (a reportable statutory rape) and was advised to lie about her age.  Just google "Planned Parenthood UCLA," and you'll see what I mean.  What morons...

I think now would be a good time for me to start seeing a therapist.

<b>Green Belt...</b>

I had my green belt testing on Saturday. It was harder than most tests and Im not really sure why. I was pretty drained when it was over but I was really excited. In perspective there are 10 belts before Black. [[White, Yellow, Gold, Orange, Green, Purple, Blue, Brown, Red, Red Senior, Black]] And I just got my Green. Ill be working hard for Purple now and hopefully in September Ill get it. I would probaly get it sooner but I have to go out of town for all of June.

<b>Graduation...</b>

Graduation was yesterday. In itself it was pretty boring but I guess it's tradition. I dont think it's really hit me that that was it. I mean really it... done. no more high school. ever again. College this fall... MTSU. Im pretty excited. I can't wait to see what the future holds for me...

<b>Grandma.... </b>

God I cant wait for her to LEAVE!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow I take her to the airport and Im so freaking anxious. I know it sounds awful but I want to never have to spend time with her again! She's awful to me. She told me my hair is unbecoming.  She told me Im gaining weight and need to get a handle on it or [insert that boy's name here] would never ask me out and that Ramen Noodles are the reason Im fat. She is so cruel to me and mom. OK yes Im overweight, yes Im not really pretty but I dont want to hear it over and over again! I already have low enough self esteem. I already struggle with depression so if you dont ave anything nice to say to me... DONT SAY ANYTHING!!!

<b>The Gathering...</b>

The Gathering had a barn party tonight. It was fun Im glad I went. I met a couple people I guess. I just dont know. I feel too young. like I dont really fit in with them yet cuz im not old enough. Maybe Ill wait till next year to start going? I sat there in cried just searching for answers on what to do next. Im so lost. I dont know if Im ready for the Gathering but I need something. I want to make friendships that MEAN something you know... I just want to fit in and be cared about! I want to meet people who will help me grow towards God and not keep running in the total opposite direction.

<b>Boys...</b>

OK. so although I think you all know who <i>that </i>boy is by now.... Im still not saying any names. But I really like him and its absolutely driving me insane. He's going away for a month and so it's not like we can even start a relationship... plus I dont really know how he feels about me. I mean I know he likes me... but i dunno... ugh. Plus EVERY time we try and make plans something comes up... and he leaves NEXT WEEK... then I wont seem him till July. UGH why me??? why me??? I dunno I guess if something is meant to happen it will but by then I might have driven myself entirely insane!

&hearts;meag

    So hows everyone doing?? Good hopefully. pray as us teens have to go take exams.. just to pass the class.. yeah oh mime practice was fun! i learned one new song and got put in a different place in the other.. which is the coolest spot! i hope i can do it.. im bout to go practice it! well everyone be safe... have fun... be safe again.. and also love jesus.. alot which i do and i know where im going (HEAVEN) so i hope yall do too.!       Corey

So school almost over for eigth grade and middle school, and I'm actually really kind of sad. I want to go to high school, but I also don't want to go to high school because I'm so scared about getting lost and having no friends. The other day we had an assembly, and Ms. Southerland said we wouldn't have the same friends next year. Now Carmen and Keri are being all pesimistic and saying that we won't be friends next year. :( I think I'm actually going to cry now. I've never had a friend for like ever that just not a really good friend. Someone who even though you're not in classes together you still are like best friends. It seems like everyone else has one. I guess I'm just a big dork, nobody wants to spend more time than they have to. I just really want a friend to be friends with no matter what. I guess I have my friend Shauna I've continued to be friends with even though she's home schooled, but it doesn't feel the same. Well back to the school ending thing. I really am going to miss middle school. I'm going to take up two whole camera cards tomorrow of people of middle school so I'll have some kind of memory of them, because apparently nobody wants to be my friend next year. Do you? :'(

Hi. My life is..............slow. Why must the last days of skool drag on? Whats the point in school after TCAP anyhow? Ive probably bloged about this a million times, but it really makes me wonder (lol, best song ever) All where doing for the next week and a half is watch gay movies while I sit in the back of class a reread New Moon. (by the way, go read Twilight. Long story, just do it. It will change you life *magical tune plays*) Anyhow, I've had a little third wheel syndrome lately, but it's probably just my head. I have a real problem with craving attintion. I'm like a 5 year old with a new baby brother, wanting to be held by it's parents constantly and starting the sibling rivalry insanely early in the poor baby's life. Anyhow, I say "anyhow" and "anyway" too much. That's all I have to report so.................toodles?

tomorrow is my last day as a sophomore.
it's crazy how fast time has gone by.
i'm halfway done with highschool...
then i'll be headed to college to pursue my special education teaching dream.

it's almost scary how fast time is moving.
i used to think that a week was basically forever..
now i blink, and a month has gone by without me noticing.

i hate it.
but i guess it's all just a part of life.

so much has happened.
i've been hurt a LOT, met a lot of new friends who i don't know where i would be without, went through a lot of hard times, and then of course there were the amazing times...like my first date, advancing to nationals with my youth group, getting accepted into an AP english course, and then seeing my best friend walk across the stage when she graduated high school.

nothing will ever be perfect...i already know that, but lately the only thing i can do is smile. i know that god has everything in his hands and whatever happens will happen for a reason and that i'll come out of the storm victorious and happier than ever...i can't wait.

we're going to see my aunt this weekend i think. her cancer is getting worse...and well, i just need to see her. i don't know how long we'll be up there, but i will have internet and my cell phone if you guys want to talk. i might call a few of you just to talk..it's gonna be hard seeing her in the condition she's in right now...

but yeah. i told you i'd ramble today.
lots of stuff on my mind. ahhh. goodness. too much on my mind right now.

god's taken control.
now, the hard part is to sit back and let him take care of it...when all i want is for it to go my way...but i can do it.

So, I've been sick this weekend, and anytime I'm sick, mom is always sure that we have popsicles handy to make me feel better. And for those who have not enjoyed a popsicle in a while, remember the jokes on the sticks? Well I've encountered several lame ones these past couple of days, like...

Q: What has spots and rides on a fire truck?
A: A fireman with the measles.

Q: What did the dentist give the marching band?
A: A tuba toothpaste.

Q: Where do bees go on their day off?
A: The wax museum.

I think you have agonized enough now...

The point is, anyone above the age of seven cannnot help but roll their eyes over these lame jokes. Whoever writes these jokes needs to be FIRED. Or forced  to listen to country music. Anyhow, that's just my thought for the day.

Hey everyone i just dont know what to do about the whole best friend boyfriend situation and i know some of you guys said it doesnt matter but it does to me i dont want to loose one of my best friends just because he wants to go out with me. If you GUys could please give me some more advice maybey i will get over this!Well im going to have to go  see ya!

Guess what i just found out Saturday that my mammaw had shingles oh and i can catch the chicken ox from it b/c i havent had them yet so my mammmaw will probabbly have to take me to the doctor and get a shot for it and that wont be no fun cuz I hate gettin shots and they hurt if you have 1 stuck in your hip whitch ive had before well g2g back to my messages see yall later

Random paper i wrote... so i put it on here :P lol i am bored     

                                     Race Against Time
There is always a race against time. Your ether trying to get somewhere or your thinking of the events that you have to pack into a 13 hour day. 
     My question is why are we racing time? Time is not something to be afraid of, more along the lines of exciting. We get to live as long as God wants us to and in that time we get to fulfill all the things that He has planed. I see so many people rushing from one place to another just to get a few things picked up and dropped off. 
     For instance Sunday is supposed to be a day of rest, not worrying about what time it is or where you have to be. But do you see soccer mom, baseball dads, working parents and teens resting and not looking at their watch very 10 minutes? No. You see them running from one game to another or trying to keep their boss happy and hoping their watch is 10 minutes slow. Shouldn't we all remember what rest is and forget about our watches, not only resting and forgetting about that stupid little thing on our wrest ticking the time away, but also family time. Yeah your kids are going to have things that they are going to want to do and that's great, but shouldn't you still get together at the dinner table and talk. Not "Hi how you are doing" kind of talk, that's what you say to someone you pass by while your rushing through your day and you don't have time to talk. But sit down and listen to one another.
Time isn't something we should run from or race with. Time is something to be cherished and remembered, not lost and forgotten.

There might not be enough time for you to get done what you want to get done, but there is plenty of time for you to get done what God wants you to get done.
                                           
                                          

What is it Jarred?
Daddy Daddy!!
Inky Dinky Spider!

photo from Minnae

Got to love my Leslie, you just do. Really. You have no choice. You have no say in the matter, just no. None. None at all. Not one little bit. The decision was made for you. We've made up your mind. Really, we have. The choice was not yours to make. Your options are only to love Leslie.Sorry.

Haha, we're both slightly sleep deprived and we just happen to have internet acess. Yeah...

So my weekend blew. But Josh had a bad weekend too so we drove around town and ranted till about 11. It felt very good. I feel better now. I'm going to go back to my mud and jello now!

maybe this is a good thing...
if i can make it through this storm, i can get through anything.

i'll be okay..
i promise..
just give me a little while to get back on my feet..
and keep me in your prayers.

     Dont you hate it when people come up to you and say.. "christian arenyt soppose to be doing that and your not doing anything bad..." they think that christians cant have fun.. well im a christian and i dont have fun i have a blast w/ a little fun (but same thing...lol) but seriously.. somehow we need to show them that we can have fun...!               Corey

How was prom, guys? I wish I could have gone. Who all was there? I know Carmen, Keri, Milby, Sydnee, and Jessica all went. Did you guys have a lot of fun? I had an OK amount of fun at City Fest. TobyMac and LeAnne Rimes sang last night, and Barlowgirl and Craig Morgan sang today. I was amazed I actually didn't get sunburned being outside all day for two days. But I did hurt my foot because this guy, Chase, in my youth group was stepping on everyone's feet. He made me trip and slide down the hill. He's really annoying, but he's pretty cute. (Although he's in sixth grade.)

I can not wait to open the pool and go to school tomorrow. We had to help take off the tarp off the pool today. (Which I hate.) We cooked out at my aunt's today after church. That was fun hanging out with the fam. I just realized today that I won't be here this year for 4th of July. I'll be in Australia. I hope we get to some kind of fireworks thing. Oh well, we'll see...

well pretty sure this is gay. last day of school is tomorrow and i have a test and a presentation. oh well. work has been ok. they are stiffing me hours but all and all its ok. my parents are still giving me hell about being a vegetarian. well i g2g

I don't if any of you have heard of this or are already going but there is going to be a day of fasting and prayer for a Great Awakening in our country this summer in Nashville!

Massive, United Fasting and Prayer Can Shift a Nation…

On 07.07.07, tens of thousands from across America will gather in Nashville to fast, pray and cry out to God for another Great Awakening! 40 years after the start of the Jesus Movement and 40 years after the rebellion of the Summer of Love, it's time for a new generation to step forward and return to the Lord and to renew our covenant vows of love with Him.

In the Bible, the word for 'oath' literally comes from the word 'seven' because they would repeat their vows seven times. 07.07.07 is a divine opportunity to divorce our false loves and remarry the Lord.

2007 is a covenant year for America, the 400th anniversary of the planting of the cross in Virginia. We believe that if the Church will gather to fast and pray, God will visit America in an historic awakening again.

Join The Call! Registration is required! Register at www.thecall.com Titans Stadium on 7.7.07. Be there. This is quite possibly the most important event of this year and can shape the future.

*Check out their myspace as well*:

myspace.com/thecallgathering

I plan on going and I would love to go with someone else besides myself so if you are interested in going let me know! -Ebony

well,  todays presentation was good !!!!~ im messed up some but it was still good both of them were ...... but i got mad at the team because of something , it really made me upset...! i was gonna go off on the team monday , bc it really made me out to be a liar , and im not ... i was soo mad i was even thinking about quitting the team , bc it just made me furious!!!! but when my emotions finally got intact w/ my head , and i remembered that it aint really bout all that i felt better ...!!! well, yeah , sooo .. i didnt mean to come off like i did sorry !. have a great day kids!

      Yall my nerves are getting me.. swww i cant do the mime walk w/ America Again.. :( seriously i mess up everthime...

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Sometimes I feel like my life is spinning and spinning around and around without a possibility of stopping.

How do I stop spinning?

Ya know that feeling you get when you have someone behind you and ya think to yourself, "I really deserve a spanking right now."

So, the Sounds Game Fridaynight was fun, kinda cold but fun. I eat a lot of food :P and took a bunch of pictures, well till the cameras batters died on me :( it was sad! The FireWorks after the game was my favorite. I used to cry when FireWorks went off ( like years ago ) lol but they are so pretty :P Other then the Sounds Game lastnight and the yard-sale my sister is doing today nothing big has happend.
Oh yeah the test i took... i think i might get an F but i really hope not. I know i didn't get an A but maybe a B or C would be nice. I dont know. Anyways i am going to go
~Grace~ 

An Extremely devoted Christian dosen't follow the crowd....An Extremely devoted Christian follows Jesus.

 uhhh im gonna go crazy.. to much stress. Presenttation tomarrow.. havent practice and dont know the line up (could someone send it to me b/c my email isnt working and wont let me bring up the email w/ it on there.. thanks.. but theres only one more week of school!! and im leaving for Kentucky for about two months!! Yeah pray for me b/c im going threw some stuff right now.!! Corey

Hey hey Hey !   i hope this makes you LAUGH! its gonna be okay ,i know yousaid you feel weird , but in the future you will laugh , & really it cant be that bad at least not as bad as these....

Its OKAY to scream!

its okay to be sad!!!!

but DONT GO CRAZY!!!! tehehe.... love you!remember it will be FINE!

Oh, my goodness. I've had so much fun these past 24 hours. Last night at the Sounds game was awesome. (If you get honor roll or perfect attendance, you get to get to go to a Sounds game, but nobody really watched the game. We just socialize for about 5 hours.) Well, anyway it was so much fun.We saw this license plate that said hacker on it. Being the nerds we are, we thought computer hackers first. Everybody was thinking hackers, like chopping stuff off. So being the even bigger nerds we are we thought about hackers who track your info, and then come and hack you. Hacker squared. Carmen and I wanted to find Joseph and Austin. We thought the would be in the ice cream parlor, and they were. Then we wanted to find them again. We thought the would be at the kids juming thing, and once again they were. Austin and his friend Jacob (who has the most bubbly eyes I've ever seen in my life) got in trouble because they were wrestling in the jumping thing. All of their friends left except Joseph. He was looking around for them for a few minutes. He was walking out and he was like were are my friends. He saw me and was like, oh here she is. Then he patted me on the back [ ;) ], but sadly he said he had to go. We did other stuff too last night that didn't invovle guys, if you're wondering. Everytime we saw people with alcoholic beverages (which was about every person old enought to drink) we would scream. (I have a very bad fear of that very bad stuff. I hate it. Just to let you know drinking, smoking, and cursing, are my biggest pet peeves.) Also everytime we saw couples hugging or kissing, we would be like Leave Room for Jesus! When we loaded back on the bus, these seventh grade kiddlings were waving at us, so we started waving and blowing kissed back. It was so funny. Ms. Crossman was like they probally think they are picking up pretty, eigth grade girls.

Now for today. We went on our algebra field trip today, which was awesome. When we were going to Percy Warner Park all these popular guys were talking to us. I felt really important. And two of those guys happened to be Austin and Joseph. We were just...I don't really know what we were doing, but it was hilarious. Guys are so weird when they are together. They talk about stuff I'd rather not say aloud. I never knew that they actually acted like that. We took some awesome pics at the park. There is all these trees and creek and stuff that is so pretty. We've all agreed we are coming back to take our senior and wedding pictures there. Yes, I want to get my wedding pictures taken in a creek. It is rather Tennesseeish, but it would be so pretty. I plan on putting those pictures we took on here, but I can't do it right now. Then we got to eat with all the guys at Shoguns. While we were waiting for it to open was one of the best moments of my life. We got so much attention from the guys. It was great. Well while were eating Joseph looked at me a couple of times and smiled. It was so cool how the cook did all the fire stuff. I have some pics of that I'll put on here too. We got fortune cookies, and mine said Good things will come your way in due time. (What do you think that means. I know what I want it to mean.) When we were going back to school, Austin and Joseph listened to my iPod. I'm never losing those earphones. ;) Well,Carmen wrote this note to Austin:

Carmen: Hey Kid, Why aren't you going to prom? Just asking. Carmen.

Austin: Huh? Cause it's boring.

Carmen: K...sorry.

Austin: Huh.

Carmen: I said I'm sorry you think it's boring. You're missing out in my opinion. I know someone that wants to go w/Joseph.

Austin: (Spoken) Who?

Carmen: I can't tell...plus she can't go...but it's Megan.

Me: (Embarressad.)

I don't know if this is a good think or not. He said he alread knew that. But that's bad right. I mean if he knew, and he liked me, well... But he still talks to me, so that's good right? I don't know, but I can't wait till' Monday. Carmen and I are supposed to be taking Austin and Joseph to eat on the Writing Assessment field trip. But I don't think he'll because he probally thinks I'm weird and some kind of stalker or something.

Hey yall whats up with you guys today?Well i have some news i dont know if i am going to keep my blog on phusebox not because of anything weird or anything!Nothing against any of you guys or anythin either! Its just that im getting bored with it so i hope you all dont take it the wrong way. Oh yeah i have something else yo tell you to,well not long ago this guy asked me if i would go out with him after 3weeks i think i've finally made up my decision! I think im going to say YES!!!!!!!!!!But he is like my best freind and i dont want it to ruin our relationship what should I do?Will you guys please give your requests?

Well i should go i have things to think about!

SEE YALL LATER!

I was reading one of my favorite books in 3rd today when I was suddenly hit with a realization. I've been having a few problems with multiple things at the same time and it's been very strenuous, but that book always seems to find its way into my hands when I need it most. I read a certain part and things got a little clearer and I think I got the fix I needed.

I went to the doctor yesterday, I've had a constant headache for about two weeks and they've come and gone for a couple months, last week I got landed with a serious migrane for two days. It sucked. It sucked big time.

He told me that not only were these migranes and headaches were genetic, the were what was called constricting. When certain parts of my brain don't get the right amount of oxygen they start to contract and they cause the pain. He gave me some medicine to keep them in check and I feel so good. This is the first time in two weeks I haven't had a headache, I'm a little sleepy, but that's just a side effect.

I'm heading to Jamestown after school. My cousin is graduating and we should be back sometime tommorrow. But until then I will be away from anything internet, cell phone reception, of decent TV without so much as a good movie to keep me distracted. I'm taking several batteries for my CD player and some good tunes. Wish me luck and I will try to make contact the second I'm back in cell phone range!

My "essay" on a Biblical perspective of marriage is posted on http://clean.i8.com/writings

Please let me know what you think
Thanks!
JW

Dont you just hate it when something happens in life
and you cant do anything about it. You dont really know whats going on. I cant stand it and so many things are happening right now. I dont know what to do. Guys I really need some help Please.
Something just happened and I dont know why it happened and i cant doing anything about it.

 

   I know this is kidish but its one of my favorite movies... Shrek the Third comes out today!!!....lol but seriously it does.. i might go and see it tonight.. ok well i got to go get ready for school.... Have a great day!! Corey

ok, I heard this song and then asked my mom about it. It's kinda sad.

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Little jackie paper loved that rascal puff,
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other
fancy stuff. oh

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

Together they would travel on a boat with billowed
sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on puffs gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow wheneer they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flag when puff roared
out his name. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, jackie paper came no more
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless
roar.

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like
rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave,
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his
cave. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called
honah lee.

http://clean.i8.com/writings/

This is a website that I have where I'll start posting my things as I write them up.  Enjoy!

I come to check on my friends ... hope once in a while they check on me at my new blog site.

So nothing much is with me or my fantastic life! Other than school and working at the Bakers things have been the same old same old! My sister wants to go camping this weekend and my mom said we have to go to some baseball game fridaynight so i guess i will have a fun weekend! :) Sorry Tamara.... i wanted to go to your mime presentation but i think we will be camping :( :) maybe next time. Oh yeah please pray for me.... i have a test in Physical Science tomorrow, and i pretty much suck in that class so, i am going to need all the prayers i can get! :P Thanks

So I keep talking about things I'd like to write or things I've written, you know?  I figured, "Hell, I've got a few websites strewn about the Interwebosphere, so why not toss some of them out there so that goobers who get lost after taking the wrong turn on the road to Google can have something to make fun of?"  Now I'm going to start posting my things on my websites; the URLs will be listed in a future blog; feel free to go, read, and post comments on here to make fun of them.  I will likely do so as well.

I've found that I like to come up with ideas that aren't entirely innovative, but also aren't the same as other things...sort of adaptations of age-old principles to modern-day affairs that many people with whom I have contact don't seem to think about.  I had an idea similar to these last week, so I figured I'd toss a short blurb about it onto Phusebox before I get all in-depth into trying to write about it.  Expect this to come later tonight or some time tomorrow.

Hint 1: it's about marriage, sex, pornography, God, and other such related topics from an oft-forgotten and many times misinterpreted (in my own opinion) passage from the Bible.

Hint 2: 1 Corinthians chapter X

So, when I post, I would be more than happy to have folks comment on it and/or ask questions.  It's not necessarily a full exegetical work, nor is it a staunch matter of my opinion, so things should not be as bumpy as some of my other discussions have been.  If nothing else, I'll enjoy writing the thing.

Ok, so I have practice Take You at Your Word a grand totally of...get this....once. Thats it. Not anymore. Not any less (though if it was less I wouldn't have practiced at all). Ok, now this is not good. Our presentation is on Sunday, I don't know what the heck I'm doing! I need to practice...keep your mouth closed tyler. ; ) I know its bad when even my mom is telling me I need to practice. Which I honestly do. I'm comfortable with There is a God and Basic just not Take You. I'll watch a video of it tonight and see how its done. grrr....carmen. : ) I love you girl.

Anyways, I have to go to the airport today to pick up my brother. I've been to this airport a lot.

We are redoing jar's hair before he goes to work. I liked it. Oh, well. I'm different. : ) Of course, we knew this already.

photo from CoreyMay

Hey you guys i am in the library alone today my friand samantha is sick

and i am all alone. well im gonna search for another friend of mine ill see you guys later

Well, it's another apologetic explanatory time, although I'm not sure the people who need to hear these words the most will listen.  But here's the deal: I'm imperfect and have long admitted to that fact.  And then there's God's love and His peace which passes all human understanding.

Most of you Bible readers out there are probably familiar with the story of the wicked servant--you know, the one that owes the king millions of dollars.  Likewise, you know, that upon begging for forgiveness to the king, the servant gets his debt expunged from the record.  Then he turns and incarcerates someone who owes him mere pennies.  The other servants tell the king about this, and the wicked servant faces judgment.  It's one of the best parables in the Bible, and it gives us a clear understanding of how we should be gracious of the mercy given to us.

Fast-forward to today, where I read these words...

For the record, he's not my friend. The last time I talked to him, he

suggested dumping my crying baby in a trashcan so he wouldn't have to
be quiet at my in-laws' house. I don't care how much nicer he gets; I'm
never going to like him, I'm never going to respect him, and I'm never
going to consider him a friend.


I get a little snippy when it comes to my child.

People may take this entire post the wrong way, but it really doesn't matter.  This comment comes at a very peculiar time in my life, one in which I'm trying so desperately to learn how to forgive others, and myself.

A few years ago, I heard a rumor; I heard specifically from someone's mouth that my friend was sleeping in the same bed with his girlfriend at the time.  I wondered about it, and I resolved to ask the friend himself.  First serious, he explained to me how it did not seem wrong to sleep in the same bed with a woman with whom he was not married.  After all, he assured me that nothing physical had gone on, and much more, he admonished me not to slip about it in front of his parents.  Still, he wanted peace, and I granted it foolishly.  However, I did warn him to be very careful.  He agreed.

A few months later, things were bumpier and getting worse for me.  In a practice for a ensemble, this same friend became sullen with some news.  He was going to be the father of child his girlfriend was carrying.  Knowing our customs in the Assemblies of God, it came as a shock to some possibly, but I remained silent.  They married, and things seemed to fly smoothly for them from my perspective.

He told a mutual friend of ours that he wanted to make sure that I was positive he did not lie.  His girlfriend and he were not doing anything at the time I spoke to him.  He even got around to telling me once.  Instead of exposing my feelings about the situation, my tongue lay dormant, a rare occurence.

I've thought, even through all I've been through, what a slap in the face. Especially now, when some of my high school friends won't even talk to me after bearing their souls to me only two years ago, I felt the sting of someone who called me his friend but did not listen to me in the least.  How much more when I call him after all this time to be told in a mostly genial conversation that I'm hardheaded above all things did these thoughts frustrate me!  So I prayed to God to help me forgive others!

Now, I say a lot of stupid things, and at times today, I had evil desires to show that friend what I was made of, telling him of that hurt.  Lord willing, I'll always keep those thoughts to myself and will pray for forgiveness when needed.  I must forgive.  God must become greater in my life than any problem I have or any wrong others have done to me.  When rage comes, I must subdue it under the authority of an Almighty God.  I'm serious.  If you readers only knew the anger I've kept, you would hardly speak to me, but I'm saying that I must control all of that.

I've said some stupid things.  She's right: I did suggest that her baby be thrown in a dumpster.  How imposing I thought at the time that he and she with their sick child come to a place where they knew a substantial group of people would be.  Even if for family's sake, they could have come later or kindly asked us to move.  Instead, we received harsh words for being too loud, which seemed fairly relative at the time.  So, in my anger, I said something harsh, sarcastically belittling her frustration that she couldn't make her child's sickness magically disappear, what any loving parent wishes for.

The problem with anger is that it assumes too much on one end while knowing too much on the other.  We know our feelings about such and such and assume the other person's just attacking us.  But that's not the case, especially in this case.  I would have attacked anyone who came through that door angry with the people in the room.  Heck, I was angry at the world at the time and also with myself.  I could go into a further explanation but I hope this should suffice.

I'm sorry for what I said.  It was said in the heat of the moment to be semi-clever to mask feelings of general hostility waging war within myself.  I ask for your forgiveness and your husband's as well.  I also forgive you both for what misunderstandings we've had.

These words are the truth, and I can do no less.

I don't make sense

It turns out that I like the piano more and more that I use it. I've been reproducing Megaman 4 songs (ya, know, from the oldschool NES ... emulator). I have most of Dr. Cossack's levels melody down. I just need the beat and bass. What I've been doing is I listen on the computer, reproduce the notes and order on the keyboard, then program the notes in time on the computer in Fruity Loops 3.

So far I suck at composing original music, but I think that might change after I actually pick up the system in my head. By system, I mean how the keyboard has tons of notes in an orderly, ascending pattern. For some reason, I haven't been able to pick it up. Familiarize. Initialize. Integrate. Become.

I got a latin book from the library, as well as a copy of the Koran (Qu`ran). And e-Sword allows me to have a nice compilation of... what?... like a dozen Bibles? Sweet! German, Greek Septuagint (sp?), Vulgate, ESV, KJV, ... pretty much all I could need.

... and I feel like I am Solomon. Could I even imagine telling myself two years ago I'd seriously consider an agnostic (or any non-Christian) for romance? I may not have treaties with other nations, but I am looking desperate, aren't I? Either way, I was fairly disinterested before... but earlier today romantic poetry spewed forth from my digits. What the heck? Rational Wisdom, depart not. I love thee more than the follies of this world. ... I think. >_>

I am also taking a summer class. The first three lectures were on worshiping the Science god, or rather... "SCIENCE IS AWESOME. EVERYONE SHOULD DO IT." But focuses too much on empiricism for my tastes. Maybe I need a balance. Or maybe I will be glad this class only lasts 6 weeks. 10 page research paper and an 8 page experiment proposal. Not fun.

Tonight we mourn even greater than weeks previous for the elmination of another America Idol contestant. The best one this season. Period, and unquestionably. Simon knew she was the best, but obviously America didn't. Personally, I had picked out Melinda Doolittle as a favorite since her audition. Week after week, she consistently gave the most solid performances, period. Blake can't even sing. Jordin's incredible (her rendition of "I Who Have Nothing" pretty much gave me chill bumps), but she is not as consistently solid.

Some people have criticized Melinda for her "false" humility and her shy countenance, but if you've really watched the show, then you would have seen the transformation of this woman from a timid background vocalist to a bright star. Was anyone else wowed by how she rocked the mic last night?! She owned that stage! She was all over it and having a blast!

Despite what some say, I can see that she is a genuinely humble girl with a sweet spirit, and I know she will is going to go far. Melinda, you better believe I'm going to buy your CD the minute it hits shelves!

I work at Blue Coast Burrito in Smyrna now. Day two was today. I like it a lot. My boss is awesome, and everyone I have worked with is very pleasant. They are all genuine people. Who'd of thought? 

I'M GRADUATING FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

how amazing is that?? i cant even believe it.

go ahead and guess the school. lol

 

 

 

heres to help you guys through today!: (its what i think will help you right now according to what i know about how your doing ihope it helps someone.

Tamara -eccl.3:1-8 there really is a time for everything , and you are  gonna be awesum at the presentation doing carmens part ,you always are!~

tyler im gonna give the same verse as tamara  ecc.3:1-8 ... there is a season for everything , and also , many things in life go not the way we ever planned , but it all works out for the best josh.1:9b

Austin- i hope you have an awesum day , and even when your feeling lazy , just keep working hard ! no matter how much you dont wanna do it! i thess. 5:12-15

Corey- remember you have many friends , and when you feel alone remember you got me & jesus & the mime team!prov.18:24

Jacob- you are really growing , and dont slow up!!! i mean growing in more than one way , especially spiritually , and in mime , and even as a friend!!!col. 2:6-7

gracie- dont ever feel like you have to do things to fit in , bc your awesum , and i know you arent , but i want you know you are soooo cool, and you dont ever have to be liuke this world! Rom.12-2

Jarred- you are going through many changes , and that doesnt mean bad nor good! just change , you have a real talent , and you are good at everything you do .... do it to your best. col.3:23 .. u know it!phil.4:13

 hey yall read those verses! it will encourage yall!

gosh i hate chester , and i hope he reads this somehow

Hey everyone im in the library now long time no see sorry I haventwrote to you guys in a while!Why dont any of you guys ever message me?Well i guess ill talk to you guys later.

             SEE YALL LATER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I'm done with the tomatoes.... : ) By the way, did you know that when tomato juice gets in a cut it burns???? Yup, I found that out the hard way.
We have a presentation at Elizabeth's church....grrrr kid....Making us get up so early. J/k Actually, I think it should be fun. I hope!!! : P Anyways, I'm doing Carmen's part in Take You at Your Word....need I say more?? Ok, I'm almost positive that she does it a whole lot better then me. And since I didn't get a chance to practice it at our actual practice time I'm left to figure it out by myself. This should be interesting. Hopefully I won't mess it up too much...please pray for me. : )
Did I mention that I'm going to the Amish tomorrow? Yes, it is that time again. This will be our sixth or maybe seventh, I can't remember, summer going out to them. Every year we do the same thing, get the same stupid flies and the best strawberries ; )

i feel very unloved right now. thanks. no picture comments nothing

chris jensen is clearly my only friend

aaannndddd i can move out. one problem. no roommates. anyone looking for one?

i'm clean quiet and i don't throw carazy parties. haha

please?

      Hey how everyone d-o-i-n-g? well today i had to do a mime song america again.. the mime team would've been embarrssed idf they had to come...lol but seriously it was good but not that good.. also i got the face stuff in my eye.. man it hurt bad.. then it was burning and i was pointing i my eye an they was like his eye is burnuing and i said yeah.. :( sorry i talked. i added my own style to the song which was cool courtney b helped me do it.. she was all serious (which is good) but i like to joke around beside it was my grade and no i didnt do anything bad.. and no i didnt do anything tat would make yall quit or something.. i just wnst fully into to it.. but it was good.. everythought i did a good job.. but then i tried to take off the mime stuff and it wouldnt come off my eyes at all .. i tried and tried.. it looked like i had white shadow on for two blocks.. :( yes i got made fun of .. finally i got the stuff off my eyes.. now my eyes hurt really bad they are really tender now (if you know what im saying.. ) well i had a great day and hope you had one too!!

I love this dating thing ya'll. I could get used to this. The perfect girl, the perfect date, a redneck truck, and of course, the redneck guy. It all works out. Becca really is a beautiful girl. I'll keep ya'll updated on the HUNTER/BECCA thing. It's all good right now. I'm turning her into a country girl. My accent has rubbed off. it's pretty funny ya'll.

Well, I updated.

Bye everybody, HUNTER 41

dear phusebox:

i am cheating on you with Facebook. it's not that i don't love you; you were my first love. but i just feel that i am in a place in my life where i need to branch out and meet other people...so let's just be friends, ok? thanks, babe...

   love, Cari

photo from lucky317

photo from Ali

okay i ve decided ill keep my phusebox afterall!!!!! i guess i love u guys way tooo much!!!!!!! im sorry for anyone who cried all night the night i said im deleting my phusebox ... i really didnt mean to make you sad . this means ive got to get all my friends back , and put new pictures up ... and waste a bunch of time... lol... but you guys are worth it , ... i think.

photo from CoreyMay

photo from CoreyMay

YOU SHOULD DEFINATELY COME!

it's my dance recital : ]

june 9, 4 PM

murphee center at MTSU.

be there...

or im gonna getcha...

    Have you ever felt like not doing anyhting just sleep all day and to be lazy.. well today i woke up for school and in a great mood (even though i wanted to go back to bed) Went to school.. no problems w/ that and cfam home and just felt like getting up tp do anything.. lol but im so tired of scools almost out!! woo! 

So, I've noticed that I'm not shy at all about showing off my videos (speaking of which, check out And The Rocks Cried Out, now viewing on MySpace and Facebook), but I don't like to talk to people about my stories that I write. When I wrote the script for The Case of the African Tsetse Fly, I had no problems with writing the script and then throwing it out there for my talent to see. But then today at work, when my co-workers asked me what I was writing on my computer, I suddenly didn't want them to see or know about them. Why is that? I wonder if the novels and other stories I work on just seem more personal than a script or a video...?

photo from CoreyMay

photo from faith_hope_love

You can see in my "Profile", that I live in Warsaw, Alabama. I llive in Warsaw, Poland (Europe), of course. Phusebox gives no choice, that's why I have to be from Alabama. Let it be.
Chcą na Phusebox, abym był z Warszawy, ale z Alabamy, bo nie przewidzieli, bidulki, że mogę być z Warszawy z Polski.

photo from faith_hope_love

You know how your entire life you either hear or someone gives you the advice to follow your heart...

What if following your heart isn't as easy as all of that?

So i think my mom had a pretty good Mothers Day! My oldest brother *Shawn* came in and we eat and played games :P It was fun! Today is a FANTASTIC day to go riding so i hope my mom lets me go to the Bakers!! :) I need to ride... i haven't been up in the saddle in way to long. I miss my horses! Ahhh :P
Anways, i hope you have a FANTASTIC rest of this FINE looking day!
*** How Was Your Yesterday ***

Prom was amazing.

Perfect recipe?

1 Smile that is too big
1 Beautiful prom date-G.G. Kellum
12 Limo passengers
1 J.Alexander's
1 Battery-selective camera
Unlimited Black Jokes
1 Dance move to use for every song
1 Kelly Clarkson song
1 30-minute game of Twister
2 games of Volleyball
and 1 hour of sleep before 9 hours of work.

Sounds perfect to me.

Hey my peeps whats up this morning?Well so far my morning hasnt been so well well i have to go to class see ya.

photo from TinkerBell

photo from TinkerBell

photo from you_dont_know_me

photo from wg101

well we lost another phuseboxer it looks like. i think now it's just me, amy, and the moores.

you know, i was thinking today. it's wierd coming home. used to i liked being in the boro more than knoxville. now, i dont like coming back. i was thinking today why that is. and it's cause i have too many good memories here. like i remember the good times how i can never have that back. all my friends that have changed for the worse and i wont see anymore cause their not their regular self anymore. i just hate coming home and things not being the same. i really just kinda feel like an out sider. it kinda made me realize why my parents dont go to their high school reunions anymore. things change. people change. and who wants to look back on the past and realize that things have changed so much for the worse. but i dont talk to my parents about why they dont go. i'm just speculating.

well, i'm in town for a few weeks. i wanna hang out and have fun. maybe i can find something to do.

hope everything is going good with yall

piece

im sick of the way you make me feel

im sick of even caring

im sick of the way you make me feel

im sick of the smell of your hair

im sick of the way you make me not mad

im sick of the way you make me feel whole

im sick of the way you  go behind my back

im sick of the way you make me feel like nothing

im sick of your emtional  roller coaster

im sick of the way you somehow always make me fall for you again

im sick of being inlove

You can turn painful situations around through laughter. If you can find humor in anything, even poverty, you can survive it.
Bill Cosby

i went with the love of my life, mister Stephen Turner

just a few pics up from the night. alot were the same so ijust put a few

and i went to ren fest today. pretty sure some little nerdy kids asked to take a picture with me. i said ok. i find it funny when that happens.

anyway, leave some love. :]

Yesterday me and my luverly mum went out and bought me the MOST AWSOME DRESS EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait for prom, screw having a date, i'll be cool just getting to wear my dress!!!! It's strapless and a kind of off-white/cream/light yellow color with white beads and flowers in some places. It's  poofy like a Cinderella dress at the bottem, but not that much. The only problem is, it's really tight in the waist/belly area, like wearing a corset. It makes it kinda hard to breath, but it's so worth it. Here's some crappy pics. I hate my camera.

         Dont forget that today is Mother'sDay and to tell you mother that you love them and stuff.. today is there day so do what they want you to do!! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

oh my goodness.
last night was perfect.
great guy.
great movie.
good food.

it was great.
hah.
=]

first date ever = happy becca.
yeah, it was pretty cool.

i'm happy, he's happy.
he didn't pull any crap.
he was a complete gentleman.
i love it.
haha.

mmhmm.
and i went to bed with a smile on my face.

just thought i'd let you know. =]
love you all.
[becca]

[I was told to post some of my short stories. So here is my most recent one.]

The Flies

It was late last night, my clock said it was just after 4:00AM. I gasped aloud, "Oh my God. What is that smell?" My stomach was turning sour and my head felt heavy as a brick. I heard flies buzzing all around me in the room. "Oh God. Not again. Not again." My head became red as I vomited on the floor next to my bed. I reached to turn on the light. My eyes squinted as they adjusted, and I saw that there is nothing but my vomit. Not a fly in sight, and no buzzing could be heard. The putrid, heinous smell which was before was then either masked or gone. The wet towel was on my nightstand in case this happened. I cleaned it up as I did every other time. After I calmed down, I got back to sleep. But it still doesn't make sense. It just doesn't make sense.

It was about a year ago since this crap started happening to me. I remember this distinctly because it was right after my accident. Late at night, on St. Patrick's day, I was crossing the street to get over to my downtown flat. When I started to cross the garbage-filled road there not a single moving car in sight. But then came a small car squealing around the street corner, dodging a few of my neighbors. He hit me with his stupid, little Volkswagen Bug, then swerved into a streetlight pole. He died that night. I hadn't: I came out with a concussion and two maimed legs.

The guy was about 26 years old. According to the police, he didn't have any alcohol in his system. "Odd," they said, because it was the holiday. But everyone knew him as a quack. He was a conspiracy theorist who talked to himself often. Sometimes he would run down the street late at night screaming about some maggots and someone trying to kill him. He had cuts on his arms. He was being seen by a psychologist, and was on all these various medications -- all of which he said did not help him. He was completely insane, at least that's what his neighbors told me. If he had friends, I never saw them.

I will admit I was an emotional wreck after the accident. I didn't have a job and I needed help doing various simple tasks. I got disability pay after I was released from the hospital, and have been living on the government's aid up to today. Don't let anyone fool you: being stuck in a wheelchair is about as bad as it looks. I eventually had to move several times to where the rent was cheaper; and finally into a rundown apartment. These events, of course, added much to the destruction of my sense of pride. My old job was a firefighter, so naturally I couldn't go back to work. While I worked there I was very competitive; some called me heroic, but I say I was competent. But that is all gone now. My psychologist diagnosed me with depression 7 months after it happened.

It wasn't just depression. I hear the sound of flies buzzing, not just at night but also at the store and in the shower. It is sometimes accompanied by a tremendous, unbearable odor of burning flesh. I never had these problems before the accident, but they keep coming back about once or twice a week. I described it to my old best friend, and he, with a tone of disbelief, said it was "of Satan and the pit of Hell." I reminded him I was serious. We don't talk about it anymore. Heck, I haven't even seen him for over half a year.

The worst time before today was in the middle of the night about 2 months ago. I woke up panting and screaming at the top of my lungs after some recurring dream about this long claw reaching at me and flies swarming around me. The absurd part was when I went into the bathroom to wash my face and get some water. In the shower to my right I saw a burnt body ripped up and facing me. His bloody skin was sliding off of him slowly, and the tub was splattered red with blood. I immediately wheeled myself the hell out of there. I puked in the hallway. As I left my complex, the sound of flies buzzing got louder and louder like an ocean's crash on the beach. It stopped when I bumped into my neighbor around the street corner, accidently knocking her bottle of wine out of her hand. She was so kind to me, despite all my quirks and weirdness. She said she saw and heard nothing of what I was talking about, yet she offered me to stay in her apartment for a drink and have a place to rest my head. Every time I met her, she always seemed like she was trying to seduce me, but that night when I joked about the thought she shot it down with disinterest. She was nice enough to follow me back to my room and check out the bathroom.

She found nothing there. Smelled nothing. Saw nothing. Heard nothing. But I swear, I felt it was still there even then. I couldn't find it either, but something or somebody was felt there above all the senses. I sometimes wonder if someone didn't just do this to play a trick on me. This instance terrified me enough that I couldn't live with myself without finding a reasonable answer to this problem. She tried to console me and gave me her number in case I needed help.

After I had seen all these things with the loud droning of the flies, I decided I would go to the nearest church on the following Sunday. A televangelist wasn't going to help me through the TV. I was raised Catholic, but that church creeped me out already as it was. So instead I went to some other Protestant church that was closer. But they still worried me. I was with them and I sang their catchy songs. The sermon was on how to handle finances -- hardly what I needed to hear about now. I was on my way out while the pastor and his wife were shaking hands with people as the congregation left. The pastor stopped me and wanted me to tell about myself, how I liked the message and the service, and what brought me there. When I told him about the sights I had seen, he lost his glee-filled face and grew somber. He asked me to come into his office, as he thought he had a solution. I followed. "A demon!" At this point, I wanted out of this place. He tried to exorcize me and it didn't work, but then he said something to the effect of "this kind must only be able to come out through prayer." I told him I was leaving, and he warned me. That gave me chills up my spine, but I was still convinced that he was bigger nut than I was. Dead end, if you ask me.

I told my psychologist about it and he put me on some expensive medications. I never felt right when I took them, and the sounds only stopped for about a week. Big woop. Not worth it. If they don't solve the problem, I'd rather feel like myself. The first time heard the flies again, I woke up and a putrid smell felt like it was coming over my face. It's strength felt like a soft hand was going to grab me violently. In a panic, I pulled the pills out of my nightstand and downed several. I didn't know what to do. I wheeled myself over to the phone to call my neighbor. She came over immediately. Again, she didn't find anything. She was concerned that I overdosed. I passed out.

I woke up again, very dizzy. She was sitting there, eating some of my leftover chinese carryout. She asked me about the knife she noticed I had on my nightstand, but I didn't remember even owning it. She saw that I looked survivable, but told me that she needed to go to work. She left me what was remaining of the chinese food. I ate it and after a few hours went outside when my head cleared. I made my way over to the store and bought some books on schizophrenia, as well as some books about demonic activity. The cashier noticed my eyes were red, and I hadn't bathed in a while. She stared at me as I left the store. I bet she thought I was insane. But I am not. I know I'm not. I am not like the psycho who hit me with his car.

My psychologist suggested I write everything I knew about my history. I think this is a good start. It is time to turn in for the night.
-- Raymond Ellis.

10:25PM
March 13th, 2005

A man searched the remains of an apartment. Everything was ransacked and most things were destroyed with fire. A bloody knife was on the floor with a melted handle. The man looked through his belongings and into his filecabinet. It was the only thing without any burnt papers inside. Inside was a notebook and some drawings of claws. Opening the notebook, the man scanned the only passage. A smirk grew on his face and he spoke aloud, "I found something. Take a look at this. This guy was a fruitcake." The officer handed the notebook over to the detective. "What is this?" He paused a moment, and handed back the notebook to the officer. "Bag it. This will probably help explain his accident." The detective walked into the bathroom and quickly covered his nose, "Holy... Somebody come get this. He's in the tub."

Seriously. I’m brilliant. I take six bucks to Wal-mart and I
come out with 2 bunches of silk calla lilies, silver spray paint, a yard of
blue ribbon, and a pack of Orbit gum.

Then I go home, take the lilies off the stems, spray paint
them silver, put them back on the stems, wrap them in the blue ribbon and
voila! Instant Mothers’ Day present.

It was great, I get back into the crafts section and the
flowers are half priced, and they have my moms’ favorite flowers. Then they
have the silver spray paint and ribbon in my moms’ favorite color. God loves
me, he really does.

  Who belives that life is short.. so go and have fun!!! (In a good way?) 

           Ok me and Elizabeth wants everyone to know that we are sorry for getting you all drag into our troubles. it turns out to be that it was a misunderstanding. We both worked everything out.. and are doing better... Sorry again..!

        FRIENDS        

I really felt like i was supposed to put this on here...i think some people could use it right about now. 

"Happy is the person whose sins are forgiven, whose wrongs are pardoned.  Happy is the person whom the Lord does not consider guilty and in whom there is nothing false.  When I kept things to myself, I felt weak deep inside me.  I moaned all day long.  Day and night you punished me.  My strength was gone as in the summer heat.  Then I confessed my sins to you and didn't hide my guilt.  I said, 'I will confess my sins to the Lord,' and you forgave my guilt.  For this reason, all who obey you should pray to you while they still can.  When troubles rise like a flood, they will not reach them.  You are my hiding place.  Yo protect me from my troubles and fill me with songs of salvation.  The Lord says,'I will make you wise and show you where to go.  I will guide you and watch over you.  So don't be like a horse or donkey, that doesn't understand.  They must be lead with bits and reins, or they will not come near you.'  Wicked people have many troubles, but the Lord's love surrounds those who trust him.  Good people, rejoice and be happy in the Lord.  Sing all you whose hearts are right." Psalm 32 (NCV)

Right now, I'm kinda thinking that maybe the reason God doesn't help us sometimes is because we are too 'high and mighty' to let someone else help us out.  we are prideful.  well maybe it's time to step off of our throne and let the real King help us out.

"Pride will ruin people, but those who are humble will be honored.  Partners of thieves are their own worst enemies.  If they have to testify in court, they are afraid to say anything.  Being afraid of people can get you into trouble, but if you trust in the Lord, you will be safe.  Maybe people want to speak to a ruler, but justice comes only from the Lord.  Good people hate those who are dishonest, and the wicked hate those who are honest." Proverbs 29:23-27 (NCV)

"A man's pride brings him low, but a man of lowly spirit gains honor.  The accomplice of a thief is his own enemy; he is put under oath and dare not testify.  Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.  Many seek an audience with a ruler, but it is from the Lord that man gets justice.  The righteous detest the dishonest;the wicked detest the upright." Proverbs 29:23-27 (NIV)

I like that word detest.  The Lord DETESTS pride.  He hates it.  Sometimes we let our pride get to us...and we don't let GO and let GOD.  God will be there, day and night, year after year, sometimes we just don't see him standing right in front of us.  It's as simple as saying, "God, I'm sorry.  I've sinned, been prideful, and I didn't give everything to you.  I know I can't hide anything from you, so here it is!"...That's all there is to it.  LET GO AND LET GOD.

"Whomever the Son sets free, he will be free indeed!" John 8:36

LOVE YOU ALL

If you really knew me you would know.....

1. I hate big crowds

2. I'm really kinda shy

3. I have a hard time talking front of a group

4. My form releasing my frustration is listening to music

5. I'm not very open

6. I don't like when people judge me.

7. I can't stand the smell of smoke

8. I'm really not that friendly

9. I can fake happiness...don't ask

10. I'm usually very lonely.

there it's done...don't use it against me.

 

         I stand here crying for help and no one come b/c they hate b/c the belive the other half.. :( i sorry for everything ive done.. ive herad rumor that everyone on the mime team hates me now b/c of this deal.. im sorry for hurting you elizabeth i didnt do anything to you.. w/e i did i apolozie.. but please tell me were i can fix it.. im also sorry for missing the saturday performance at the fair frounds.. all my fault .. i had to take cre of family bussines.. but im sorry for the mime team hating me too.. i havent did one thing to them but there must be rumors flying around.. sorry for being upset.. i will still have my differences though. i know w/ my heart mind and soul that i havent did anything to you elizabeth but w/e you are thing ir hurting over im sorry.. there everyone theres the sorrys... god bless

 

        No one belives me... why why why... i havent did ANYTHING to no one.. :( why me...