photo from susanrloyd

have you ever seen that show on mtv? sweet sixteen? well i just witnessed one of those type of throw downs myself. (sort of)

we heard about this upcoming party from our youth for about a month before it happened, but i still don't think i was prepared. just check out the photos in the gallery.

it was a girl's birthday who goes to BCI. much fun was had!!! we lined danced and all.

our church knows how to have fun :)

i just don't love some of the people at oakland. i just don't enjoy being made to feel self-conscious or angry over nothing. apparently i'm "rude". but i really don't even care. what am i saying...i do care...but i just hate it when the law applies to me, but not others, and when people are mean just because they can be. but anyways, yes Oakland lost. how sad. we can't talk smack anymore. i think maybe i made jared a little mad, which is funny, because i'm not sure what i did. Thomas is my hero. and Kaitlin as well...kaitlin made me feel much better about the whole encounter. so she gets 5 sunshines. ha. maybe DBS is not right for me after all. maybe i'm not subservient enough. maybe i have too much of a brain...i guess i shouldn't say that. i do like it. but i guess tonight was just a bad experience. but anyways, i'm still in "like" with this person. which is fun. i think i finally came to the realization tonight that nothing is ever going to happen w/ me and this guy, so that was good i guess. it was a little strange, but i'm just glad to be over it. well, i guess that's all for tonight. and by the way, if all of you Siegel people really have class, then don't gloat about your victory so much. be decent winners, and don't offend other people, and most of all, don't forget where you came from...

song du jour: Because I Got High ---j/k.
New Deep --- John Mayer

so im pretty darn sure that siegel won this friday!!!!

sorry to all the oakland kids who read this, but a very wise man, on the oakland side, said, "yeah, those shirts are really mean, something good will happen tonight, and make those shirts a joke!" and pretty sure it did....

we made history....its a night i'll never forget

So I will definately be in NYC to ring in 2006 !

I just have to figure out all the details but Im getting massive help and hookups from Miss Jenny Morgan (i assume).

That should be fun!

Let me know what (and who for that matter) I absolutely HAVE to see!

-eric

so sorry if anyone read the post i recently deleted.

God is good all the time. even if things don't look good, he is working it all out... our minds are just too small to see His big plan.

"satisfy us in the morning with your UNFAILING love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us, for as many years as we have seen trouble" -psalm 90:14-15

i hope everyone has a great night!

20-14, so smoke on your pipe and stick that in.


But...then I was shocked and horrified upon recieiving the most despicable and sickening news ever...in the name of all that is pure and true, no no no no no no no!!!



So tonight was good and bad. Memorable, to be sure.

But it's past my bedtime.

So goodnight.

*Kiss*

I saw Transporter 2 today...
it was pretty awesome...
Numero uno: Devin was there
Numero Dos:Good movie
Numero Tres:I got a slushie!

haha yeah, so pretty good day,
i'm tired now though:(
No school for 3days, i'm pretty siked,
so hmm, anyone up for anything?

It angers me that there are people in this country that have NO respect for what happend in Louisiana, Mississippi, and Alabama with the Hurricane. There was a guy at the pool today that said they don't need our gas and if he were in that situation he'd be canoeing around the streets, or get a boat and dive down for beer and have parties. . .i wanted to hurt him, ,but he was much larger than me.

I've posted pictures of my grandmothers house on the right. and I know that my mom's friend Margo is currently lving in Houston, TX b/c their house is pretty bad.

adding more. . .Pac Sun has a credit card specifically for college students, the credit limit is only $200 and all four of us were immediately approved tonight. but no worries, i just bought a really cheap cute skirt, and really expensive cute shoelaces. . .i'm going to the outlet in the morning

also, it's kinda hard to do school work with so much going on in my apartment. I plan to sit down tomorrow(today) and complete as much as possible. it's so wierd being able to do school on my own schedule. . . :: sigh ::

Riverdale won
WOOT WOOT!
[makes woot noise]
It was a "huge" suprise.
lol
63-0
I hung out with...
The whole world.
It was fun.
After a while I lost my mind from a few weeks without enough sleep.
I asked Carissa, quote - " Who are we looking to?" - unquote.
I felt funny.
I love high school.
Way fun compared to other schools.
cough cough.
CASON LANE
cough.
I dorve on the interstate to Nashville and back today.
GO ME!!!!
Im so overproud.
If thats a word.
'09 baby.
Awesome Pep Rally.
Go Freshmen.
I have sock tan ankle-down.
lol.
Goobye.
- J4(()8

Sometimes i get the feeling that I need to be more... well-rounded. So I go by spells where I exercise a lot, or where I read a lot, or try new things, or crochet, or cook. I never am able to do everything at once, but now that I am working in the library, I am definitely in a reading phase. Charles reads to me in the car to and from Knoxville. He is currently reading me a Dragonlance Chronicles book- the first in the series. On my own I am reading another fantasy book- Magic Kingdom for Sale. I barely got into the latest Harry Potter, but it is a definite must-read, so it will work its way more into prominance when I finish another book. But the other day at work, I didn't have any of my books with me, so I checked out "Lolita" by V.Nabokov. I love it. It is just soooo well written. And I don't normally read a lot, so it is rare for me to get excited about a book. I can't wait to see what happens. But the book DOES sort of freak me out, because the protagonist is sort of a vile person, and a lot of his amoralistic traits are similar to some people I know. A lot of the themes in the book are uncomfortably familiar, not from my own experiences, but they just make me suspect things in people I know. But in any case it is a very enjoyable read. Ok, time for bed. :)

wow, i feel like total and complete crap. got food poisoning from krysal burgers, it feels like i never get a break from work and/or school, and my normal escape from everything (driving) has been shot down by rediculously outrageous gas prices. if i werent so sick, it would make me extremely happy to be hanging out with jamie, but whatever. bye.

We beat OAKLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what? what? YEAH BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE GREATEST SIEGEL GAME EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oakland = po-tayt-OWNED.

"What's tator's, precious?"
"O-H-S?!"

sometimes you just don't know what to write but you want to!!! well i guess i will tell you all about my week. this week has been awesome to say the least. tuesday we were out and i got a whole lot accomplished at church that day. me and kyle mann led worship at one club. its so cool how God can use a small someone like to me to lead people to his throne. Clint did an awesome job speaking. this girl i met a year and had not talked to her in a while and i got to talk to her on tuesday. so this week has been awesome! hope you all have a great weekend and a great labor day weekend!!

Everyone else seems to be putting song lyrics in their subject lines, so I decided to join the fun. Except that my favorite part of "Bittersweet Symphony" by the Verve is the little violinny part. Just start doo-doo-ing to yourself as you read the subject line - I swear, that's what it is.

So anyways, yeah.

Mr. Davis is pretty much my hero [almost.]

He is more than willing to help me find an alternative to the absolutely craptacular honors early day english class I'm in.

*score*

I wonder if any of my SGH band people are doing anything after le' football game. It would be very very nice to hang out with them for a while. Maybe my OHS band people or OHS JROTC people are doing something. Hmmm.

In whichever case, I need to hit an ATM. And seeing as how the game starts in 15 minutes - I should probably do that now or very soon to now.

"My Humps"

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside your trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely little lumps. (Check it out)

I drive these brothers crazy,
I do it on the daily,
They treat me really nicely,
They buy me all these ice-ys.
Dolce & Gabbana,
Fendi and then Donna
Karan, they be sharin’
All their money got me wearin’
Fly gearrr but I ain’t askin,
They say they love my ass ‘n,
Seven Jeans, True Religion's,
I say no, but they keep givin’
So I keep on takin’
And no I ain’t taken
We can keep on datin’
I keep on demonstrating.

My love, my love, my love, my love
You love my lady lumps,
My hump, my hump, my hump,
My humps they got u,
She’s got me spending.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get, you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What u gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’m a make, make, make, make you scream
Make u scream, make you scream.
Cos of my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My hump, my hump, my hump, my lovely lady lumps. (Check it out)

I met a girl down at the disco.
She said hey, hey, hey yea let’s go.
I could be your baby, you can be my honey
Lets spend time not money.
I mix your milk wit my cocoa puff,
Milky, milky cocoa,
Mix your milk with my cocoa puff, milky, milky riiiiiiight.

They say I’m really sexy,
The boys they wanna sex me.
They always standing next to me,
Always dancing next to me,
Tryin’ a feel my hump, hump.
Lookin’ at my lump, lump.
U can look but you can’t touch it,
If u touch it I’ma start some drama,
You don’t want no drama,
No, no drama, no, no, no, no drama
So don’t pull on my hand boy,
You ain’t my man, boy,
I’m just tryn’a dance boy,
And move my hump.

My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump,
My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump, my hump.
My lovely lady lumps x3
In the back and in the front.
My lovin’ got u,
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me and spending time on me.
She’s got me spendin’.
(Oh) Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me.

What you gon’ do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off my hump.
What you gon’ do with all that ass?
All that ass inside them jeans?
I’ma make, make, make, make you scream
Make you scream, make you scream.
What you gon do with all that junk?
All that junk inside that trunk?
I’ma get, get, get, get you drunk,
Get you love drunk off this hump.
What you gon’ do wit all that breast?
All that breast inside that shirt?
I’ma make, make, make, make you work
Make you work, work, make you work.
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin all your money on me and spendin’ time on me
She’s got me spendin’.
Spendin’ all your money on me, on me, on me

Now you know what I was thinking in my race yesterday.. Thank you Nicky!

So, right now I am blogging from the middle of Sheep Meadow in Central Park. It is amazing to me that I can sit in the middle of a HUGE field and have access to the internet... sure I had to pay an independent wireless ISP $9.95 for 10 hours of access, but hey, that is better than paying $20 per month at Starbucks. Anyways, I need to relax like this more often. I usually fill my time with work, PhuseBox stuff, or small side-projects. I find it hard to just sit sometimes. Anyways, I am out, but first some photos of me relaxing evening in the middle of Central Park:




sheep meadow in central park


me relaxing in central park


my powerbook

"I looked out my window, onto the padio to see the damage that had been done. Our house rested 15 feet in the air on stands, and yet the water was shored directly parallel to the padio. I looked over the brush of remaining trees to see that another, more vicious wave was coming. I hurried my wife and myself to the back room. The pressure of the wave hit hard, busting the all the windows out and when the damage had been done in the back, the pressure of the floor boards released and busted through the seems of the planks. In a matter of minutes our bedroom was filled to the ceiling with water. Somehow we were able to make it too the attic. Our attic was less developed as others, only having the framed 2x4 boards to walk along. If you stepped wrong, or tripped, you would fall through the drywall and crash into the water. We sat up there for 2 days."
"A few hours after I had been in the attic, I was able to bust a hole through the vents to the roof. The second day we saw a motor boat rummaging the newly formed lake. I shouted to him, Over here! Help, Please!, but they ignored us. Instead they went into our neighbors house and proceeded to loot the valuables, then left off to another vaccant home."
"On the later of that day, the water level had dropped enough that I could work with my remaining supplies. I discovered that my boat had survived the waves. Conveniently, I prepared for a flooding, but nothing of this magnitude. We could only bring a handful of items, such as medicine, with us. The boat was unstable in the hostile waters, and the motor of the boat was useless, now flooded with salt water. We rowed our way to safety with sigh of an unsettling relief, and a fear of what was to come."

The story my uncle, once stood strong, now a broken man.

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one

^ i LOVE that song

well today was quite grand. the morning, before school was pretty bad, but school itself was good. i blame it all on the pep rally and loading the band trailer.

today in 5th we spent 10 minutes trying to figure out why the piano wasnt working. come to find out because you need speakers for it to work

in other news, game tonight, then steak and shake.

stay cool kids.

I sometimes doubt my faith
but when I look around
I know I can't possibly
put everything I have learned
& everything I believe down the drain.
God has been there with me, always
through the times when no one ever knew I was hurting
through the times when I was gleaming
yet no one seemed to know it
God knows everything about me
& I'm glad He understand me
I might not understand Him sometimes
but whatever He has planned for me,
I'm prepared.
I'm finally ready to go all out for God.
I'm just upset it took this long..

have a good day kiddos. < 3

tgif

i'm so ready for this weekend

yeh not much happened today
one thing ill talk about
women are confusing...
never trust someone if they say they love you
then say they miss you
then say they want to see you
then say they cant
just to have a date with another guy
and never believe any of that from the girl u
would die for
u would cry for
u would miss when u blinked
or hold tight when u meet
or kiss in the rain
or the one that tells u all the time that she wants to be with u forever
forever
always
until our death may we part
the one u think about every day
the one u miss...
even while writing in a pathetic online journal about a squirell named joe
the one
the only one
the unique one
the amazing one
the perfect one
the astounding one
no one else... but her...
i miss her

The Gallery Church of Manhattan has finally launched their website at GalleryChurch.com. The Gallery Church is a church that I will be working with closely as they plant a church in the heart of New York City.




The Gallery Church will be a place for the young creative and artistic community in New York City to come and experience God's glory.

Visit the website and sign up to receive information by e-mail as we progress with the church planning.

The Gallery Church of Manhattan

-Nathan Moore

so the dreaded game is finally here. i hate playing teams in murfreesboro. too much hate, i swear!

lots of fun today. i don't know it was just slow, but enjoyable :)



photo from blue_lips

heck yes, me as the pink ranger when i was like 5. i SOOO miss those days.

i'm a closet power ranger fan :)

woah i've finally heard smoke on the water!

heehee "what if God was one of us" just came on Jack. lol i was singing that all day :)

I think it's the Freshman Negative 15. I bet I've lost a couple pounds this week alone, and the "ULCER" that's developed has kept my appetite down.


Everybody's talking about how much they either "love" or hate college. Me, I'm pretty apathetic. I see it as just a four year wait before I get to do what I want. (except I don't really know what I want to do yet)


A Long weekend, it's a nice way to end the longest week ever.


"Mama always said, 'dying was part of life.' I sure wish it wasn't." - Forrest Gump

ungrounded

Textamerica has just launched a site, Missing Katrina, to allow victims of Hurricane Katrina to post photos to try to find missing friends/family.  If you have a website or blog, please take a few minutes to post a link to Missing Katrina.   

"This site is here to help you try and find your missing friends and relatives from hurricane Katrina. You can post their pictures here by uploading them directly from your PC. You may also enter details like your phone number and email address."

They've also set up a toll-free number if you need help uploading photos and posting information - 1-800-774-0512.


MissingKatrina.com

woot.

*edit*
...and we won...
even more woot.

Gas is so freakin high right now! I really wish that I lived in a city where I could walk anywhere I wanted to go.

well!!! college!! what can i say!! i like it!!! im getting used to all tha work but yeah ill be fine!!!
my classes are great!!! i think my fav is my Math class!!! mrs fisher is a great teacher!!!! im actually learning things that my teachers in high school never taught me!!!! lol!!! which is good i guess!!
college is soo different from High school!!! i went up to blackman today to get something from Mrs Rhome....during a class change!!! i felt old! i was like wow im soo glad im out of here!! soo many memories came back some good and yet some i didnt want to remeber!!! yall ppl in high school dont complain about tha work load....there is more in college!!! soo get used to it!!!
i had to drop a class...and im probably gonna have to cut back on hours at work...i didnt want to drop my class and i really dont want to cut back on hours!!! but i have to keep my grades up and keep my schlorship!!!
im soo happy i see ppl i know everyday!!! i have met some new ppl in each class!!! they are really nice!!
well i have to go to work now! adios!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

This is for everybody on the internet...Taylor saw where I left Laura a message and referred to him as "Tater." This term is demeaning to him, insulting, and erodes the bedrock of his masculinity and ego. Henceforth, he shall only be known as Taylor. He does not need a nickname to strike fear into the hearts of evildoers everywhere. Thank you for your time. Stay tuned for further updates from the Unit 619.

yeah, so i just got back from the doctor. i went cuz my mom thought i mite have diabetes (but i'm pretty sure i don't lol) anyho, so i had to pee in a cup. the lady like lectured me on how to do it! and i couldn't help it, i just laughed! lol it was funny! and they took sum of my blood and it hurt and i had to hold my mommy's hand lol but i'm cool now. anywayz, i just thought u guys would think that was neat! ttul! ciao!

okay, so i know i have been putting up a lot oswald chambers quotes lately...and there is about to be more. i have been reading my utmost for his highest in my quiet times, and i think it is awesome.

"our Lord's teaching was always anti-self-realization. His purpose is not the development of a person- His purpose is to make a person exactly like Himself, and the Son of God is characterized by self-expenditure."

so last night, i put up a post, but deleted it this morning. and reading that quote above is bascially what i was trying to say. i am no where near to being like His Son, i fail many times, but God has patience with this stuborn child, and continues to form me into the likeness of His Son. over the past year and a half, i have learned that a relationship with God is what is important. not just attending church and calling yourself a christian, but an actual relationship. relationships take your time. in order for them to grow you must put your time and energy into them. the same applies to your relationship with God. you must spend time with Him, revealing your heart and getting to know His.

"...not being bound by a particular set of rules, but being totally surrendered to Him. God poured out the life of His Son 'that the world through Him might be saved' (john 3:17). are we perpared to pour out our lives for Him?"

the closer you grow to God, the more you realize it is NOT about you. this life is not about you at all and never will be. it is all about the One who created all this, the One writing this story, the Savior, our God. i like the phrase 'wreckless abandonment'. i like to think that God call us to wrecklessly abandon our foolish ways to follow Him and be formed into the likeness of His Son.

"our spiritual life cannot be measured by success as the world measures it, but only by what God pours through us- and we cannot measure that at all"

the truth is none of us are perfect. we are going to fail, we are going to sin. but we have to keep persevering to the end. the Word says, anything is possible with God. and He WILL form you to be like Christ if you allow Him. it is all a process, one full of ups and downs. and the world may not understand what you are doing, and it will be difficult. but that doesn't matter. what matters and what lasts is your relationship with God. continue to let Him form you.

"my soul clings to you" -psalm 63:8

"you have made known to me the paths of life; you fill me with joy in your presence" -acts 2:28

"you will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you" -isaiah 26:3

"make known among the nations what he has done...tell of all his wonderful acts. glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice. look to the Lord and his strength; seek his face always" -1 chron. 16:8-11

well, God is pretty awesome. despite me, His love, patience, and Grace continues to cover me.

and yay for all of you who just finished your first week of college! once you get used to it things will get easier! hope everone has a great day!

I am so hungry. I had breakfast, and it is only 10:20, but I am sooooooo hungry. I get off work at 11:30 and then I will go home to eat. Probably leftover hamburger helper. Afterall, it makes a great meal.
Bethany, wanna have lunch this weekend with me and Charles? Lemme know. Sat, Sun, Mon are all good.
Char and I thinking of seeing Brothers Grimm soon. Anybody seen it? Is it good?
Well, I guess I'll get back to my book now.

HEy guys. I have a huge favor to ask. I am doing a little topical/self-study on Jesus, the man. I was wondering if any of you had any resources you can recommned on some of the topics below. I am also looking for biblical references for these areas. I have many in mind which is where the ideas came from but I want what you think of when you think of these aspects of Jesus... how you'd approach these areas. I have no expectations just want what you have to offer. DOn't assume I've heard your idea... I want to hear them all.. the more redundant the better. THanks all.

Jesus- THe Man

Jesus the friend, Jesus the Son, Jesus the healer, Jesus the Judge, Jesus the brother, Jesus the Leader, Jesus the Pastor, Jesus the forgiver, Jesus the betrayed, Jesus the Guest, Jesus the accused, Jesus the Prayer, Jesus the tempted, Jesus the suffering, Jesus the teacher, Jesus the rejected, Jesus the Lover

PS- podcasts and sermons count.

sooo...i had my jury yesterday....IT'S OVER!!!!!!!!! my voice sounded real healthy, healthier than it has all summer, so that was good. and i kicked butt on my first song!! but then they asked for my french song...which is the one i wanted them to ask for THE LEAST! well, halfway through i forgot a word which threw me off completely so i stood there and waited for the next phrase to come up and i caught it then. but i let them know i messed up. it was very sad. i don't know my grade yet or any of my comments, but i'll let ya know as soon as i do! have a great day!

strange place this is.

yeah so i dont like phusebox AT ALL so i dont think ill be writing on here anymore

Hey tonight is the big game between Oakland adn Siegel. Im so excited because we are going to WIN!!!!!!!!!!!! So yeah its all about the PATRIOTS.

(lol to any of my Siegel friends/)

anyhow

schools goin great. i hae some awesome classes so that rocks. i have made new friends, well at least 2. but id better go to class.

well thats it for now

love Goali

So, things I've done lately...
Harbored refugees from Hattiesburg on Tuesday and Wednesday, gave blood Wednesday, struggled in class on Thursday because of little sleep (moved a piano at one a.m.) and maybe the heat (I know I ate like I was supposed to after the giving of the blood). Tonite I wrote a paper for History class tomorrow, and it's probably not my best effort, but at least it is done. Looking forward to Friday, probably going to visit Taylor's sister Kelly in her new place, and then my friend Jason is coming to Oxford on Saturday, and Brandon's pool b-day party is Saturday as well. Hopefully I'll get a substantial amount of reading done too...we'll see about that.

heefus!

pretty sure AP stands for Advanced Placement, but it should stand for Angry Popsicle, it would get more respect with a name like that....no? oh whatever...well, if ur comin to the game (siegel vs oakland) watch siegel band and ill be one of the guys with the 5 drums on a carrier. see me, i shall rock you with my solo. ill be center field and you WONT miss me, i promise.
later

*edit*
OAKLAND'S GARBAGE! siegel beat oakland 20-14, freakin awesome

In less than an hour I will be 18!! Hhhmm, I don't feel any different, its amazing how much will change in that one second.

Just thinking about that I will one day, lord willing, be an old man, it gives me a headache thinking of how much life will change. I think about life too much, how fragile it is, but also the magnitude of it, just how many people, how many situations, all the emotion we experience during our lives here on Earth.

I know its practically impossible in today's world, but I would like to do something like Peter Jennings did and walk across the entire country, just taking in the beauty of nature, and getting know different people. Ok, well I could go on all day, and probably take up this entire websites bandwidth if I got off into philosophy, so I'll just stop here.

woot im so pumped about the gam eits gonna be the best ah i cant wait

OAKLAND POWER!!!!

I promise that the smell of muffins, turkey legs, and pretzels is lodged into my nose. I worked launching pad today, and that's what we sold

I also have been trying for 4 days to get cingular to fix my phone, but they just tell me that they can sell me a new one for $150. and that's just not worth it. well, I finally just said, screw it. and called motorola, where they told me I could buy a new faceplate.

screw cingular.

you find your true friends when u go through trials, u also find urself. trials can make friendships and break them, and this time i think its been broken, and i hate that, but whatever happens happens. my true friends are there. and i def gatta go canoeing sometime. its ganna be great, and ill catch a big fish. HA monday ill go canoeing, SO LETS GO!!!!!!!! and we will catch great huge fish!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!! im out, peace

so gas is $3.50 a gallon up here in knoxville, and rising. $3.50 is what i saw today, last night at 12 o'clock i payed $3.01, so just think about that inflation for a minuet. psh.

so my english teacher told us that we wont have a midterm or a final exam. thats really awesome, but i may be wishin we were goin to have it if my grades arent lookin up by that time. it should be alright though.

so thomas called me five times in my chem class today. just to give you an idea. me and jessica decided to sit front row in an auditorium style class room that had around 300 people in it. the seats go up like in a stadium so everyone looks down at me. a little crazy. but it was cool.

piece

AO last night was AMAZING!!!! i cant wait to see everything that God is gonna be doing!!! i met some new ppl!!! im sooo excited...i just cant hide it!!!

well lets see i think im gonna hate Thursday tha most this semster i was on campus all freakin day!!! bored!!! but next week we get to go bowling soo im excited!!!!

i was just walkin to class today listenin to my favorite band Kutless(even though BJ doesnt like them) and God was just showing me things through tha songs!!! wow!!! im just sooo amazed by his works in my life!!!!

Love Through Christ!!!
~Rachel~

game tommrrow
pep ralley tommrrow *that i hope i am throwing my tuck at*
kryz is the best haha
not only because we share homework in mrs carr hahah
kate's and randy & chris & eveyone's else who goes there that i know church is the best

seigel is garbage
nuf said

this is my main choice of thingys

i have a my space but i don;t know how to use it

ask if you want it i will try to make you my friend on it....but as i can see now it is pretty stupid

this is the best

everyone come to the Oakland vs.Siegel game at Oakland tomorrow night at 7:30.....it's going to be awesome..... GO PATS!!!!

well ....
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
GOD BLESS!!
Leah

today was definantly a loooong day. i seriously thought it would never end.

pep rally tomorrow. whoopie. *rolls eyes*

so... i heard we aren't going to hawaii. we are going to washington dc instead... :-(

i love my music theory class. and french is so much fun. mr york is awesome. band... ehh... when i don't suck it's great. when i do i feel stupid. that leaves geometry... eww. and biology... eww. but it's all good. 4 out of 6 classes isn't bad.

so someone neglected to tell grace and me that the eagles were in atlanta. and this makes me sad. :'( now they are all the way in california. and that's far away. and i don't think they are comming near here again.

this was a pointless and probably boring entry. sorry. i'll try and make it more interesting next time.

and my birthday is on wednesday. for those of you who didn't know.

i love you all so very much!!!!

Everyone longs to give himself or herself completely to someone, to have a deep and committed soul relationship with another, to be loved thoroughly & unconditionally. But God says: No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone, with giving yourself totally, unreservedly to Me alone. I love you, My child, and until you discover that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me; exclusively of anyone or anything else; exclusively of any other desires and belongings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing -- one that you can't imagine. I want you to have the very best. Please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep your eyes on Me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing that satisfaction knowing that I AM. Keep learning and listening to the things I tell you. You must be patient. Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others have. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep looking up to Me, or you will miss what I want to give you. And then, when you are ready, I will surprise you with a love far more wonderful than you could ever dream. You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready (I am working even this minute to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I have prepared for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me…and this is perfect love.

***Got that from Michael Dillon's xanga. I thought he proposed a very good and true point! People need to stop falling in love with each other and fall in love with Christ instead!***

God is in control...

As my mom and I were looking at a car that served as a very strong possibility for me, my dad got a flat tire on the way to work.

His car is pretty old and he's pretty sick of it anyways. I know a flat tire has nothing to do with a car falling to pieces, but I'm sure this doesn't make him feel any better about it.

So my dad's car needs a new tire.

And he also needs a cell phone.

And a car.

And I need a car.

Whew.

Craziness.

But life could be a lot worse.

School was awesome today. I thoroughly enjoyed English class. We had a great discussion that Garrett and I agreed was good because no one tried to read too deeply in the stories we discussed, and also that we did not feel stupid when we contributed something. It's gonna be a good class.

Oh... and I switched out my lab so I have a much easier professor... go me! I was going to switch into Lindsey Kittel's lab, but alas, it was full, so I switched to another lab with the professor she has, since she's supposed to be super easy. Yay... I don't have to take the test of doom after all!

GAME TIME! i

"And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know you realize that life goes fast.
It's hard to make the good things last.
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round"

so, jared o'brian's (mrs. salty's son) funeral was probably the saddest thing that hasnt made me cry...i wanted to cry but i couldnt...all i could do was sit, and watch the strongest woman i know, fall to pieces...

mrs. gregory put it really well in choir today, she said to live life to the fullest and to tell someone when you love them, cause you never know when they wont be there the next day, you dont know if you will be there the next day...

heck yeh im still freakin happy
yeh my life rocks
the end
its just amazing
envy me
and ash...
ur forgiven for last night
u had a head ache...
i had a tummy urge for icecream
but ill let it slide

scareface... and alphie
soon to be my favorite movies ever
i know it
it depends on WHO I WATCH THEM WITH *cough cough*

so, i guess it's great and all that Satan hates me and is attacking me with every move i make, butcha know....whatever. that just means i'm doing something right. so i'm glad. actually had a really good/short quiet time this morning. got to sleep in too, because i felt muchos sick-os. migraines = no fun. so i got to miss Biology. then, this whole big dealio happened with Jenny calling the school and posing as my father. weird...i dunno why she did that...it scared me to death and caused mass confusion. but we had fun @ Party City and Target yesterday. i'm loving the whole school thing. had a happy funtime meeting after school. yay for Oakland. i can't wait for the game tomorrow night. so. getting "moo-ed" at in the hallway is not fun. and being called "one of them big girls" make me want to kill things. i just went to english class and cried. this was after being assigned more freakin write-offs by Mrs. Petrone. but at least this time i actually deserved it. and a bunch of other people got them too, so it wasn't as bad. i think certain people i know are very creepy. i also think i'm in love. but what's more, i think Corey sucks sometimes. i hate liars and people with double standards. gosh....anyways, i love you guys. ha. bye for now.

talk (as a verb) is-- 1. a.) to put ideas into, or exchange ideas by, spoken words; speak; converse b.) to express something in words; make a statement 2. to express ideas by speech substitutes 3. to speak emptily or trivially; chatter 4. to gossip 5. to confer; consult 6. to make noises suggestive of speech 7. to reveal secret information; exp. to confess or inform on someone 8. to make a speech, esp. an informal one 9. to put into spoken words; utter 10. to use in speaking 11. to speak about 12. to put into a specified condition, state of mind.
(write-offs are fun...if you're into, like, root canals and the like...)

i were better at updating this and saying what i want.

but im a xanga && myspace fiend.

and im trying. so bare with me.







--ive had a lot of ups and downs lately.
--dont really know what to think
--working on decision making skills
--working on taking a stand

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I got my act together

ladeda. i'm listening to evenessance *sneeze* .

*pancake

I love photography :]
new pictures :]
hehehe

tomorrow is finally friday.
pep rally & the football game
yes :D
then white water rafting!
yay

today was funny.
Chanz is hilarious.
& Greg finally came out with it
that he thinks I am
officially crazy.
hehe

I LOVE YOU GUYSS.

hey guys! thanks so much for praying for HIlton. Prayer makes a difference! anybody who tells you otherwise is WRONG! well Ballard is a lot bigger than i thought it was going to be! Today i was switched into an all sophemore honors biology class. I really disliked that class i was in (Advanced Biology) but im still kindve upset. I sat next to a really cool girl named Emily and there was this really cute guy in that class that i liked to talk to! hahaha! well my day was good. volleyball was cancelled. i dont know how i feel about that. I love volleyball so much but it feels GREAT to have a day off!!!!!!! if yall wanna check up on Hilton click on this. this. well im gonna go do homework. i feel bad cause i did
n o t h i n g
in class today so my homework is going to be CRAP! leave a comment!!!!! xOoX

PRAISE GOD. We finally have offices. after 7 months. The joys of church planting in the city.

College is awesome! i really like living on my own and meeting new ppl has been awesome too. i really like mtsu, i have friends here and in my classes but yet ive been meeting new ppl and so thats been great too! thursday classes are so stupid tho...i have HUGE breaks on those days so i cant work or babysit or anything..so im at ashleys dorm right now, waiting on my next class at 420 bc my 1:00 class only lasted for 5 mins.

Really my life is good, it could be better, but I am happy. I look outside my window at work and see all of murfreesboro, it is truely a blessing. I complain about work and school, but in reality I should be thanking God more and more everyday for everything that I have. I take it all for granted every breath that I have, and every moment spent with loved ones. they all go by way to fast and I dont take the time to enjoy them, and tell God how AWESOME he is every second of the day!

got called into work today after being told yesterday that i wouldnt have to work this week or weekend but now i am workin 4-9 today and 4-9 2morrow, but hey its money, im free so why not. lol but im sure i wont have to work the whole time, i think only once have i actually had to stay the full time i was supposed to. but anyway, guess people all went home for the weekend. oh well ttyl mucho luvies!

cloudy clear
like a curtain
you're so dear
slide that blank look back on

I'm forgotten
once again
tears cradled by the knowledge
that you're my friend

'cause I love you
I love you
and I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm not crying
I'm not crying
I won't cry
I can't cry...
yet...

So I am sitting here in class and thinking about how school is terrible. I hate being here. I hate wasting 7 hours of my day sitting in a class that I will not use any of the skills that I am learning. I could teach my self the same things in like 15 minutes and not 55. I wish I could do that. And since I really have no great Christian friends here it is hard to make it through the day. So its not that much fun. So I live for going to work, goind to church, and seeing my friends. They make me tick. I don't know what I would do without them.
And on another note. GOD is awesome. I love to see how HE can move in lives and change them. And I hope that we can all feel HIS presence in our lives at some time. I can be so selfish and focused on myself. I hope and pray that HE can change me. Because I can't do it on my own.

"It was banned in Austrailia..." lol that just might be my new fav. phrase! lol

Everyone remember to give something to the relief.. even if it's something like tolet paper or some dollar store tooth brushes or just something. It doesn't hit home for alot of people if you didn't know anybody there but for the 30-40 students in my church that were there 3 years ago, the church we helped to re-build or maintain is probley under about 20 feet of water right now and the mission center near the center of New Orleans. I feel soooo bad about all of that. That church was working so hard to stay alive.. they were almost ruined in Allison but i'm sure that this storm just blew them away. If your the praying type then please remember them.

*this time next week i'll be sitting in class. scary... isn't it?

*so today i started my serious packing. i never realized how much stuff i have! i hope it all fits. i'm still pretty calm... so far so good :)

*lately i've been studying Jeremiah in my quiet time. before i really didn't know what it was about. so far it's God calling to His children and just pleading w/ them to turn from their false idols... and He's asking them over and over again what has He done for them to turn away from Him. He asks them if their idols have made them... or if these "gods" can really save them from destruction... or if they show mercy and grace. and you know... as i was reading it i was thinking (like everyone else) ,"how foolish they were.".. but then it hit me. how many time do we do the same thing? we make things... or fame... or praise... or sometimes relationships the focus of what we live for... yeah... maybe we'll keep God in the picture... but He doesn't get top priority... how many times do we take a moment out of our day just to sit w/ Him.. know Him... talk w/ Him. we say a short little pray that's to our benefit... but what about praising Him? God wants to be our greatest love. and it's such ashame that we aren't willing to love Him the way He wants to be love. i mean... never spared anything for us b/c He loves us soo much. He gave His Son for our eternity! THAT'S LOVE!!! so God's call to you and me today is "Love Me." do you? ~Hope

Man, I lost the address for this site. Damn. But funny enough, I found it again when I was linked to a video of a CNN weatherman losing it on air :)

that means: katie is on her way and the start of college football :)

i'm excited but at the same time i don't think it's really sunken in yet. strange

THis is the inspiration for one of Bethany DIllons new songs. Her writing is so close to the way I write... the style that is... i wish i were as eloqant as her... but still. I love her vulnerability here.
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My Love Hasn't Grown Cold
Inspiration for the Song

“‘But then I will lead her back once again. I will lead her out into the desert and speak tenderly to her there. I will return her vineyards to her and transform the Valley of Trouble into a gateway of hope. She will give herself to me there, as she did long ago when she was young, when I freed her from her captivity in Egypt.

“‘In that coming day,’ says the Lord, ‘you will call me “my husband” instead of “my master.”’” (Hosea 2:14-16)

I’m always so afraid to return to God… afraid that He’ll bring up all of my mistakes… afraid that He’ll be tired of being kind and compassionate. I just can’t fathom that God could look past all of my flaws and see the object of His affection completely covered in grace.

“You could steal away in the middle of the night/And hide in the light of day/While you cloak yourself in the darkest lies/But oh, my love swims in the deepest oceans of fear/And as soon as you lower your head/I am here…”

During the season that I wrote this, I was so ashamed of how much I was struggling—embarrassed that I needed so much forgiveness. Passages like this one from Hosea always paint a vivid picture of love in brokenness for me. I love that about Him; that the only reason I love Him is because He first loved me. It’s the eternal mystery of God… that His love for us could never change.
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Ok it is the next morning, and i'll tell you the truth, i didn't sleep well at all. I went to bed around 12:30, right after i blogged for the first time, and i was almost in a deep sleep, when my aim started sounding off, all it really did was scare me a bit bc waking up to it i didn't know what it was. This guy, and this is the one that the friendship has been smugged just a little bit, he wrote to me telling me that everything was going to be ok btwn us, and it was a bit of a relief to know that bc i really needed to hear someting like that, with the state i am in. ( to him i say that i appreciate the message, and i know that in Gods time things btwn us will be normal.) But normal is not what we have right now, and i completely understand. On the other subject it was what i was thinking about as i was going to sleep, so i had this horrible dream about it, the guy i like was being so mean to me, and like a mean that i haven't incountered in my life, he was also rubbing this new found relationship in my face like it wasn't going to hurt me. Oh i was so glad to wake up from it, that would be about the time that one of the many girls in my support group right now text messaged me, so once again i was jerked awake by a shocking noise, The text included the verse Phillipians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me.

Which is a verse that i am going to carry with me through this very exausting trial.

so i went back to sleep only to dram of this horrible dictator, runnung our country, and kicking my gradmother out of her home, in this dream i was running around trying to gather all her stuff for her so he wouldn't kill her, and i was standing right next to this girl that he just decided to shoot in the head, what a random dream i am glad that it was only a dream!!!

so the forcast today, still broken hearted, slowly moving on with my life, trying my best to be strong, putting it all in Gods hands, todays out look :(. ih and i think i am getting SICK, hince the soar throat.

I Thought In My Heart...

Is this called discontent? Like the meaning behind the father's proud and angry stroll into the church with the mother s
traggling behind with the child, they both smiled. When they reached for the door they were happy again. Grim faces mope about (they ask), "How shall we live today?" They walk back-first through the crowds in rooms, looking only for a faster way to advance and pay, throw the deadliest smiles, such things that will never suffice. Their spirits cry, "All I want to hear is that I'm ok. But the light burns me." To these people I owe my greatest apologies, for I have been made aware of their needs but I'm afraid that I might share His disgrace. In these thoughts the truth is stripped away. Peeled and peeled away.But because of His great love, we are not consumed. His compassions never fail. His mercies are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness Lord unto me (Leviticus 3:22-23).

~Anathallo

"Finish this church quote"

God is great all the time and...

Sometimes we may not feel this way. Hard to belive i know, but all kidding aside how can God be great if me and my g/f broke up, or i just lost my job, or i didnt pay my tuition in time, or i didnt get the teacher i wanted so im sure to fail. He is Great all the time. He sent his "Only Begotten Son" Jesus Christ the one and only. Im not perfect ... but Christ is ... and thats the reason one day i will leave my "Earth Suit" ( Brent Gambrell what a great guy) and go Home! Which means this will be gone ( im pointing at everthing in this room) if your sitting at your computer right now goin what is he spouting off about leave me a comment, i'll let u know we can go to lunch some day and and tell you alot of stuff. Heres something alot of people may not agree w/ Christ is coming soon look at the signs of the time, and from my personal testimony but hey thats me ( Lisa sorry i have to steal this from you) "Don't forget to let God bless your day" - and look out for them becasue they are there. L8

so, as i'm sure most of you know, there was a hurricane that struck new orleans, florida, georgia, and alabama a couple of days ago. *gasp* right? well, atlanta had some furious tornadoes that swept through as a result of the back winds. well, gas in atlanta right now is about $6 a gallon. and this is what is known as gauging. you know, "taking advantage" of the situation. some of these people have nothing left, and now they cant afford to leave. also, 10% of the worlds oil is in louisiana, which means 10% of it is gone. so my question is: why arent we as a nation trying to find a way to power cars without using gas? there is solutions to this problem, we just arent taking advantage of it. we are letting the problem get progrssively worse and worse, and we arent doing a thing about it. its rediculous to me that we arent at least trying, instead we are making these people stay in horrible places. taking advantage of the innocent. i just wish i was older so i could try to do something about this, not to mention help with the aftermath of the hurricane. to me those things are more important than learning abot chemistry and algebra. making a difference, even if its a small one, is worth putting that stuff off to wait.

the end, i have to go.

So recently (as in the last several months), I have discovered the world of independent music(ians). Why hasn't anyone told me what I was missing!?!? This stuff makes me want to empty the iPod of all the junk and fill it up with the good stuff.

In other news, tonight (or rather last night) was the first mid-week gathering at AO. It was incredible! I have prayed so hard for so long that God would use AO and everyone in it to accomplish great things. Tonight was a huge answer to prayer! Turnout was great, but more importantly, we were able to connect with many students (both old and new) and make them feel welcome and loved.
My heart is for the student who comes in and knows absolutely no one and feels extremely uncomfortable with the big group of people socializing with itself. This is one area that I feel AO has been lacking in for sometime. I say that because I used to be one of those students. I don't want the "little" people to fall through the cracks because they don't know the right people and don't have the social skills or confidence to approach anyone.
You should see the stack of signup sheets of students interested in J-Groups (small, accountibility groups) and care families. To be honest, the numbers are somewhat daunting, but I know that God has a plan and will bring forth the leaders and families to meet the need as He sees fit.

I have just a few more little things to take care of before the routine schedule finally kicks in and I can abandon the overused run-run-run-with-no-sleep mode. Moving Thursday is one of those tasks. Hopefully, it will be my last move for a while.

Well, I've been home for an hour (left at 1:00AM) and I'm a little tired. I have class at 8:00AM so my alarm is set for 6:45AM. If anyone wants to call me to see if I'm awake ::hint hint::, my number is 615-397-0339.

Perhaps one day,
Should I lay in the shower long enough..
The shower head will rain answers down upon me...

Perhaps one day,
I will no longer stare at my ceiling at night...
I shall only sleep, and do so in peace....

Perhaps one day,
My face will no longer wear such agony...
And the tears will cease to stand upon it...

Perhaps one day,
The pillow to which I hold so tight...
Will become you instead, and I can smile...

Perhaps one day,
My TV will not be an attempted distraction..
But rather entertainment...

Perhaps one day,
I won't have to wonder where your heart lies..
Because I'll know without a doubt...

But right now, you're still just a dream that
Perhaps, one day, will come true...
I just hope you know how much I really care about
you...

So i never knew that i could be going througth so much crap rigth now!!! I know that everything happens for his Glory and that God will carry me through all of it, but man do i need to vent about so much!!!! I am sitting here almost in tears because i am being stretched to my limits. I have made mistake along the course of the last few days, and have endured so much heart ach! Why do we have so much emotion that runs through our body, that makes us feel as if we can't breath anymore? Why do i feel like a horrilble person and a jerk over something that i accidentally let slip? Now i have hurt this amzing friendship over a silly slip! Why do i punish my self over it all. Why is it that i completely still like this Guy, and it has just been revealed that he like this other girl, and i am CRUSHED!!!! He knows or he did know that i liked him, it has been a long summer, and things have changed, but my heart still has these feelings for him, and now the reality of him never really feeling the same has hit, and now i feel hopeless!! why does this always happen to me? ALWAYS IN THIS ORDER/ WILL IT EVER BE MY TURN? Now i have to sit back and watch as this relationship develops and hurt. Why does it hurt? I also have to act like it doesn't hurt like i am ok with it all bc i don't want to weird him out, plus i know that it is all in Gods Plan for him, and i want him to be happy, there i am, always putting others feeling b4 my own!! God i just pray that you will give me strength to get over this carry me through the next couple of months,and help me grow closer to you and Glorify you, Lord, and I hope that you bless this new developing relationship between these two People, Lord, let it all be for your Glory!!!!
And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. 29For God knew his people in advance, and he chose them to become like his Son, so that his Son would be the firstborn, with many brothers and sisters. 30And having chosen them, he called them to come to him. And he gave them right standing with himself, and he promised them his glory.
Romans 8:28-39 (New Living Translation)

Well that is all for now just to let whoever reads this know that my heart hurts so much now, and i can't breath, but i trust that God will lift me up, and take care of me!
GOD BLESS!!
rEnEe

Well I was reading through Bruce Gilley's journal...wow. i have just been blown away. i am almost speechless, but not quite.
Why?
that is my question. why do people care so much that they keep all of their feelings inside. all of their views on things, what they think of people, and their goals. i just cannot believe that after all fo my 16 years on this beautiful, God-made earth, i am just now getting to the point of not putting on a front for people. Actually, this happens most around my family. i think that for so long, i have worried about what people think, want, expect, or know of me, so much to the point that i don't know where to begin. i'm sure someone who reads this will think that i am just in a wierd mood or that i am just going through some awkward phase between adolescence and adulthood. but that's fine..remember, it doesn't matter!. that's it! the only one who really knows you, your thoughts, your past, future, and everything in between is God. (and praise him for that!)...

i guess the reason why people are so fake, essentially, is because of fear. fear of what will or won't happen...or fear of what has. i think that faith grows with time and belief that "life" is only a portion of our exsistence. when we get to heaven, we will worship our father, our creator, our whole reason for everything that we freak out about now, forever. FOREVER...that is a word that my mind cannot comprehend.

sometimes, i just become overwhelmed with what people think or want of me, that i blame God. that's right, i, Rachael Vance, blame God for misfortunes or misunderstandings. wow...grace is the thing that takes away that sin. what would i do without that reassurance? it's like i just dramatacize things so that if everyone is looking at the situation, no one can see through me. what if what i have to offer isn't enough? yes, that's partly human nature. i mean, we take lines from songs and movies, the world's expectations, etc. and we think that we can shape it into a mold of what we want life to be for ourselves or other people. WHY do we think that camouflaging our reality is neccessary? WHY do we constantly care about anything and everything that doesn't involve our Lord and Savior. what would happen if i wasn't afraid people could see through me? then what? how would my life be different? i am at the point in my life, (for those of u who don't know, i am graduating a year early) when i have to make big decisions that no one else can make for me. i think that is why i am just now realizing how i have wasted a lot of my life. i don't want to waste it anymore! i am sick of caring so much about big and little, good and bad, and reality and dreams to a certain extent. look, for anyone who has happend to take the time to read this far, i have a few things to say to you. LIFE IS NOT ABOUT WISHING AND HOPING THAT THINGS WORK OUT. life is about knowing that God, a god bigger than your problems (any and all of them), bigger than what u cannot let go of, and so much more than fire insurance, is ready to set u free of the camouflage that i think we all use from time to time. i just pray that u don't make a habbit of using it daily like i tend to do. PLEASE do not waste your life on thinking that once u get to a certain point, having a better relationship with the Lord will be easier...because that time will never come.

i am just going to have to change out of the world's mask and into who i really am. the way God made me. i may over-dramatacize, under-think and overthink things from time to time, but that will always be a part of me. i just pray that God will brake me from the way i have lived so far that wasn't glorifying to him. most of my life hasn't been God-glorifying. i am ashamed and ready to fall in a hole and bury myself alive. but i won't. (it isn't like God wouldn't dig me out anyways). i will not settle for a life of being whatever i have been thus far. i will not settle for that. look, i am not saying that my whole life has been a pointless waste until now. i am just making a point to not waste your life because of fear that people will see what u don't want them to, because u know what? God has always seen all of that, and he always will.

Things are so different here. I mean don't get me wrong I love College. But I think I am starting to get homesick. But i am coming home this weekend..SO call me if ya wanna do something!!! maybe it is just that I am not seeing some of my best friends everyday anymore. Or that I know in the back of my mind they aren't like 5-10 mins from me. It is starting to really hit home. Ohh well...

I am coming home this weekend for Friday and Saturday..Hopefully I will get to hang out with Rach... then sometime Sunday I am going to Jackson to see Ash!! I can't wait... I need a day with one of my best friends...

Well I am gonna go!! I will write more later!!

So tonight I was driving to RFC ((where True North is held)) to get Laura's calculator from Megan. I couldn't decide whether or not I was going to AO, and it felt like there was some disagreeing going on inside of me. Well, all of a sudden, my phone started vibrating, and when I looked at the caller ID, it was Erica. Okay, WEIRD. Aside from yesterday, she and I hadn't seen each other/spoken since May. I answer, and she asks if I'm going to AO. . . quick decision. . . I tell her yes and that I'll meet her outside Belle Aire. Okay, so I get to RFC, change out of my work clothes, and go outside where Joey, Seth, Megan, and Katie were sitting/standing around. I get the calcuatlor, and Joey and Seth start telling the story of how Joey and his girlfriend started dating and all. . . cute story, lol. Anyway, I hadn't eaten, so I went in and got food from my youth group. . . lol. Came back out, talked some more, ate, yada yada for about twenty more minutes. Welp, it came time to head on over to Belle Aire when I randomly asked Seth if he wanted to go with me to AO, expecting that he'd say no and he needed to get home or something. Turns out, he was up for it, so I drove us over there and we talked with Graham and a buncha other new peoples. Um... we found seats, Erica showed up, and we sang songs we'd never heard of and listened to Clint speak. Ooh, free food and nasty Red Bulls were afterwards, lol.

But yes. . . random night. Actually, work was a little odd too, but that's another story.

I wrote a letter yesterday
trying to explain
couldnt find the words to say
cause your so far away
so far away......

im supposed to be doing my homework in my writting class....i just cant think and want to do it!! i have soo much on my mind right now its crazy!!! God has shown me i havent expected and i didnt know that he wanted that for me!!! but i guess i will listen to him and do what he wants!!!!

i wrote a letter to a friend today...im not gonna send it to him..but it basically tells him how i feel and what he put me through and how it still effects me everyday!!! after writting and putting in all in front of me i feel better about a lot of things!!! im finally over it all and Praise God for that!!!

Love Through Christ!!
~Rachel~

so, i think we're safe...not all the way to st. patrick's day, but at least for a while...

oh and if you are totally lost on what im talking about, its a john mayer song, check it out...

Ok so this is the basics... Jefferson Parish (their counties) can go home in a week get what they NEED and then not come back for 2-3 monthes, and they are right next door to new orleans, so yea burbon street will be out of business for a couple of monthes, to bad, the partiers will live, well anyways my grandmother can't get back to her house, which is 40 minutes north and across the river from new orleans and she can't go back till tuesday, and my mom is flying into baton rouge on sunday so she can help my grandma w/ whatever is there, it might all be gone, but the builders 25 years ago were pretty good, and the sounds of it her house might be the only one around still standing, let's just hope that that it isn't as bad, well just keep the south in your prayers, b/c it isn't just louisiana, and they are saying it's the worst disaster in the USA since 9/11, so that is just showing you...

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Hey yall! I hope everyone is having a good day! I have a prayer request! I hope all yall enjoyed your day off!


My aunt, uncle and cousin all live in Mobile,Alabama. They stayed and rode out the third hurricane of the year. My uncle is a nurse and was called into work and was there for 2 days. My aunt and little cousin stayed at home with no power. Today my aunt went back to work and she found that there was no Air Condition. There is also no gas at all. There grocery stores are empty and they really dont know what they are gonna do. My aunts company emptied the gas tank of there boat and let all the employees fill up there gas tanks and they are working on a split shift. They are coming here for the weekend to get away. So please pray for them.

sup guys. there is alot of info to update about...and not enough time. to put it short, God has been working in my life and in the lives of my friends MAJORLY in the past few days. I had the most intimate bible study ever, and tonight rocked at church. Everybody that goes to Siegel needs to come to one club tomorrow morning because my boy Clint Nadeau is speaking! Its gonna be tight...even though its gonna be EARLY! But praise God for it. Also this weekend hornbaker aka 817 is coming down to the boro. So its gonna be a good week. I wish u guys a great week as well. As Clint would say...fight the good fight of faith!

~G$Muny

Went to church tonight
it was cool...

I miss having a base church,
i've been going to alot of different
ones lately, which is good,
but it sucks being the new kid,
even if i am pretty crazy, and get
along with the people..
if that makes sense.
St. Pauls was cool,
but I don't know...I got weird
maybe i'm just a freak..
haha

I still miss my old friends
&& I haven't seen Devin
since Saturday
Movies Friday night,
not going to Oakland:-(
O well...

anyhoo...I need to make some new friends,
the old ones are good,
but I love meeting people,
I love speech class,
it's helped me already

o soo got hit in the head with the flag today and it wasnt even my own flag it was someone elses! and now i have this massive bump on mt head!
*lauren*

It sucks to not be trusted by people... especially by those who you need to trust you the most.

Rachel comes home for Labor Day weekend!!! I'm happy. I love my sister. I can't wait.

I don't have a whole bunch to say, so, I'm gonna go.

Later.

Hey! Has anyone seen my lost hurricane? I left the door open and she slipped away from me. Sorry about that. Boy, she got away in a hurry, didn't she? Please be careful, Katrina can be a little blunt and get herself into mischief sometimes. Hope she doesn't break any of your stuff!

yes YOU ahaha
today was fun
I love oakland.
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So not only does my brother poop in MY BATHROOM, but so does my stepdad! That so grose. Also very weird and awkard when you have female products in the trash can. Ick!

COLLEGE FOOTBALL: 1 (3) days

I got the job at CVS here! I start the 12th

YAY FOR $$!!

eliz

Well, what a relief today was. First off, I'm back online. I got my new modem in today and just installed it.
Secondly, God spared my stupid stupid stupid stupid uncle's life today. He lives in Waveland Mississippi, roughly 1/2 a mile from the gulf's shore. He decided to wait out the storm. He was lucky enough to get him and his wife on their roof, and were rescued by a motor boat. He should have never risked this in the first place because he has epelepsy and wife has a thyroid tumor. Stupid Stupid man! But a sigh of relief sweeps across the family knowing he is safe. If only this could be said for the thousands of others trapped in that horrible nightmare.