new jason mraz =

it was an okay day. life is good.

didnt do much except school..the psat was pretty hard..i thought..

well kids..ive got about two tons of homework so ..bye bye-kels

so thanks to elaine, i have one more site ot be addicted to, only...i dont see much of a point in this one. im a bit confused. anyone wanna help me? i mean, am i missing something here? is there more that i need to uncover? ...lost in thoughts

Rowdy

So I have been thinking about changing my major to. . .fashion. . .but not designing clothes but something along the lines of entreprenuership*sp* fashion...I want to own my own boutique that specializes in purses, jewerly, and shoes!!!!!!!!!! And then minor in business---Too bad today this is what I want to do but next month Im sure it will change! I dont know what I want to do! what do you think--leave me some comments. . .Well Im out to write an English paper--funfun--have a great rest of the week and an awesome weekend--because MONDAY and Tuesday is FALL BREAK!!!!!!!
whitney

I'm having a DANCE PARTY for my bday!!
When: October 21st from 6:30 to 10pm
Where: Carriage Lane Reception House, 337 E Burton Street, M'boro TN 37130
Who: my friends and guests
What: techno only. snacks, drink, and glow stix provided. don't bring drugs.

SEE YOU THERE - bring a guest or two, but PLEASE RSVP as soon as you can!

 

call or email me if you need to: HierSoir88@yahoo.com and my AIM sn is HierSoir88

PLEASE BE CAREFUL WHO YOU INVITE! THERE ARE CERTAIN PEOPLE I DON'T WANT THERE. JUST INVITE PEOPLE YOU THINK I WOULDN'T MIND OR THAT I'D LIKE. IT IS MY BIRTHDAY AFTER ALL.

ahhh im sooo freeckin pissed off right now!!!!!!!
so SOMEONE tells me today that she was telling him happy birthday (his birthday was yesterday) and all of a sudden this ROTC slutty girl kissed him...she has been trying to get him to go out with her for a week now and he has already rejected her.....so anyways...i reallly reallly don't know what i should do...some friends are like maybe he is just wanting to see what your reaction is since you aren't official and is still trying to decide which one to pick....but idk....i wish i knew...i need lots and lots of help....i probably will end up going to him tomorrow and be like whats going on but i still don't know what to do :-( ... i feel like going and crying now sooo bad...this is what that slut wanted to do..get rid of me..but now i will not let that happen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes im sooo mad!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH i wish life did not have drama like this...so much :-(...well please give me some comments...aHHHHHH...ok im going to go...love ALL OF YOU bunches, Rachel

ok so nothing has really gone on...well i went to the retreat and that was good, i just needed to get away from the normal world, but didn't get why we watched movies and the UT GA game b/c we weren't getting away from the world when we did that... but anyways, school is good i only got one grade below a 90 and it was in spanish, and let's face it when you don't have a good spanish one year teacher you aren't going to have a good spanish 2 year, but it is still a b and that is all i care about, well i g2g get out of here...
POLIS

I am currently in 82 groups....

maybe I should make a goal that I am in 200...or something like that.

I am very happy the report that Kelvin won BMOC and Jeff was runner up.. It has been an amazing day.

amor!

cz

It seems to me as if some people are confused. I don't think some of them even realize that they are confused, but I can tell that they are. And I am confused as to why they are confused. I am not confused, and I'm always confused. And these people who are not confused as often as me, are confused. Confused?

Confused is a funny word once you type it out that many times.

By the way, don't become paranoid and think this entry is about you! Don't get confused trying to figure out if I think you're confused. Sometimes I exaggerate things to make cutesy entries... ha ha... or at least I do today.

So yes, I am not confused, not stressed, not worried. Whoa, something must be wrong with me. It must be some hidden pshychological problem that I have repressed that will unearth one night in which I will bawl my eyes out and wonder what is wrong with myself. But I sure hope not! I really like being worried about anything. But it's not like life is all chocolate cake either. In fact, sometimes I wonder if I'm really doing anything worthwhile. It's like that Mercy Me song "In the Blink of an Eye". That line "I know I'm living the good life/ but could my life be something great" really sticks out to me everytime I hear it.

I guess I feel like I'm not being a good witness. I don't feel like I'm being some hypocrite, but it's not exactly like I announce to everyone that I'm a Christian. Shouldn't I be more concerned about the eternity of those around me? Yet I guess I figure what I have to say really won't make a difference. So, I just try to live my life, and if something comes up, then that's great. Is there anyone else who can totally relate to this?

So I wasn't confused, and now I am a little bit. Just great. But I'm not going to worry about it... I guess it has been in the back of my mind, and as I began to type I felt like I should let it out and see what y'all thought about it.

So, many have heard already that Apple finally released a video
iPod today as a part of their "One More Thing..." special
event...

Make sure you check out a special
edition of the Spark* podcast tomorrow for a
complete rundown of all the Apple announcments today.





Basically, Apple is offering these iPod in BLACK or WHITE... 30 GB (7,500 songs) or 60 GB (15,000) songs... $299 and $399, respectively.

You will now also be able to download music videos from the iTunes music store for $1.99.

Another amazing thing is that ABC is now going to be offering shows including the hit series LOST on iTunes... I am sure more networks will get onboard soon.

That's all for now. There were several otehr announcements, but these were the major ones. Be sure to check our podcast tomorrow for the complete recap.

I think things are going a little bit better, now. I took my best friend to see Serenity last night. I thought it was pretty good, but she hated it. She complained the entire time. It was kinda hard to follow, but I liked it. It had a very original story. There was almost too much action, but by the time it was over, most of it made sense. One thing I liked about it is the good guys aren't invincible. Only one of them doesn't get shot. It's pretty realistic for a sci-fi movie.

Not too much info for now except this blogged live from the Apple "One More Thing..." Event:


- iMac: faster, larger disk, built in iSight. Includes FrontRow (app)

- iPod: 30GB/60GB with Video - realtime decoding of MPEG4 and H.264. 260,000 colors. Video out.

- FrontRow and PhotoBooth Apps.

- 30GB iPod: $299 - 31% thinner than current 20GB;
- 60GB iPod: $399.

- New iPods avail next week. Comes with case

- iMac: $1299 for 17" model with 1.5GHz, $1799 for 20" model with 2.1GHz

- iTunes 6 to be released

- Front Row - comes with new iMacs. Lets you enjoy video/music/pictures from sofa. Everything still
displayed on iMac screen. iPod-like remote. 6 button remote.

- Photobooth - appears to be slide show application.

- Music Videos. 2000 available to buy. $1.99 each.

- Can "gift" music to other people. Peer reviews and recommendation service.

- Videos have Digital Rights Management built in. Can play on up to 5 computers.

- You will be able to buy TV shows from iTunes Music Store. $1.99 per episode. ABC on board (Desperate
Housewives, Lost)

My heros: my mom, Bruce Gilley, Carly, Beck, Raffie...

My parents: Barbie and Ron Donnell

My dreams: to become an accomplished artist and to get out of this town.

My true home: heaven

My religion: christian. no particular denomination. right now i go to a baptist church, though..

My belief(s): being a girl is pretty dang cool, God is awesome, Music is amazing, and live by the golden rule: treat others the way you would like to be treated

ho-hum... there are plenty of new pictures, kids. i'd enjoy remarks on them

Remeber to SMILE!!!!

Anyone who thinks sunshine is happiness has never danced in the rain.
-unknown

so yeah. I saw that quote yesterday and really liked it, and thought i would share it...

in other news, cameron made a mistake. and a pretty big one. cameron's not sure if he can fix it, either... let's hope so. that'd be grand.

and for the first time in over two months, i'm having a bad day.
c'est la vie

I set up a meeting with Mark Turner to "discuss my relationship with Linda." I'm a little nervous but it's all good...

Peace out

I am not sure what day of rain this is but i know its been close to a week if not more of straight rain and we are expecting a few more days... till sunday I believe. New York CIty in the rain is FUN... we get to walk through puddles of who knows what... subways shut down... You get your eyes poked out by umbrellas... Oh so much fun...



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photo from kimkmcil

So yeah, I'm wearing my really cool hat from Africa today, it's fun.

If this ends,
There goes my life.

Today's post will be purely for enjoyment.

In the past twenty-four hoursish, I have...
Consolidated my music library... finally.
Backed up my important files to DVD... finally.
Downloaded the FC4 x86_64 and i386 DVD isos... finally.
Possibly found a viable solution for using iTunes on *nix... finally.

The reason:
For about the last seven months, I have been out of my element. I've been stuck in the forever crappy Microsoft world. This is due partially to my increased use of iTunes (love it!). However, the main reason is that since I upgraded to my nice 64 bit Athlon, I haven't taken the time to install the 64 bit kernel for linux. I will probably have to dual boot between the 32 and 64 bit until 64 gets to be a little more stable/usable. With all the moving/working/school, I haven't had the time to devote to getting back to my true home, Linux! I run most efficiently in my native environment (Linux core, Enlightenment window manager, sourceforge galore). I have been lacking this in my life for too long. It's time to plunge... again. It's time to reformat. Goodbye cruel world! Hopefully, my next post will be from my new old OS.

I feel a sense of peace and security right now.

My heros: George Harrison, John Lennon, Bob Dylan, Johnny Cash

My parents: Dianne Myers, Maurice Myers, Dennis Harper.

My dreams: To study the arts and explore the world.

My true home: Murfreesboro

My religion: Self Practiced Christianity (though I do occasionally enjoy visiting my friends' churches)

My belief: Live life to its fullest, love your fellow man, and don't get to wrapped up in the small stuff.

hmm ok so im new to this.
and i have no clue what to do.

and its 2 a.m. on a school night
so why the heck am i still up?
oh well.

peace&&love

well, i'm back. it was a nice trip, it was good to get away for a few days, though i have to admit i did kind of miss everyone. so it's good to be back. see everyone tomorrow at church!

-glad to be home!

So ... I think I'm gettin the hang of this thing ... BUT I need more help ... like backgrounds and all the other good shit ... so ANYONE ... please help!!!

1. Your name spelled backwards? Yelhsa

2. Where were your parents born? Memphis and Gore Springs...I think?

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?mix of songs...

4. What's your favorite restaurant? Kyoto's

5. Last time you swam in a pool? bout 2 weeks ago...going again Friday!!!! So excited....

6. Have you ever been in a school play? In elementary school

7. How many kids do you want? 3...2 boys and a girl....Didja hear that, God? =)

8. Type of music you dislike most? Elevator music and anything with words I can't understand....spork me to death....

9. Are you registered to vote? Absolutely

10. Do you have cable? of course...

11. Have you ever ridden on a moped? Nope, motorcycle though!!!

12. Ever prank-called anybody? Who hasn't?!?

13. Best friends? too many to name....LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving? Umm...not by myself...but sounds like fun, rather sky dive than bungee jump...

15. Furthest place you ever traveled? Hawaii

16. Do you have a garden? No, dorm room...kinda hard...at home, yes...love my roses and gerber daisy's

17. What's your favorite comic strip? Garfield and Peanuts

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem? Of course, want me to sing it? I can, and will...here I go...maybe later...

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night? Shower in the morning, Bath at night.

20. Best movie you've seen in the past month? Monster in Law or Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

21. Favorite pizza topping? Pepperoni and Onions...it's good, leave me alone

22. Chips or popcorn? yes please

23. What color lipstick do you usually wear? sheer with a pale tint/gloss

24. Have you ever smoked peanut shells? Not that I know of...

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant? no....don't go there

26. Orange juice or apple? Apple

27. Who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where? Group: me, Misty, Amy, and Burd....Applebee's

28. Favorite type chocolate bar? hahaha, any....love me some reeses though

29. When was the last time you voted at the polls? The last time...presidential election...

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato? A few weeks ago

31. Have you ever won a trophy? Yes...softball, dancing, singing

32. Are you a good cook? yes, and love to!!!

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas? ummmm...duh!!!

34. Ever ordered from an infomercial? No

35. Sprite or 7-up? Sprite

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to work? no

37. Last thing you bought at a Walgreens? wow, have no idea...hardly ever go there

38. Ever thrown up in public? yes, long time ago...sad day

39. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love? True love

40. Do you believe in love at first sight? No...lust at first sight

41. Can ex's be just friends? Yes, just not best friends.

42. Who was the last person you visited in a hospital? My brother

43. Did you have a lot of hair as a baby? Yep...

44. What message is on your answering machine? right now it is someone else's name and voice from last year...haven't changed it this year yet(room phone)

45. Where would you like to go? Australia, Ireland, Scotland, Italy, France (might be going this summer), back to Hawaii, Africa, Egypt, parts of Russia and the middle East...etc...I love to travel

46. What was the name of your first pet? Rags

47. What kinda backpack do u have, and what's in it? LLBEAN forest green...books, notebooks, pen's/pencil's, and chapstick

48. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? Burd or Thomas

49. What is one thing you are grateful for today? That God woke me up and gave me another beautiful day!!!

50. What do you think about most? The future...

photo from love_is_forever

Isnt God awesome........He gives us wonderfuls beautiful sunsets and yet we pass right by them. We need to stop and be in awe of how awesome our God is....

Artist: Kutless
Album: Strong Tower
Song: Take Me In

Take me past the outer courts
Into the Holy Place
Past the brazen altar
Lord I want to see your face
Pass me by the crowds of people
And the Priests who sing your praise
I hunger and thirst for your righteousness
But it's only found in one place

Chorus:
Take me into the holy of holies
Take me in by the blood of the lamb
Take me into the holy of holies
Take the coal, touch my lips, here I am

So let's be serious here: is it really cool to hate on Katrina victims for the name of the UT Vols? Well, I guess so...If that makes you feel good about yourself. I came across a nice little phrase tonight on an MTSU message board, that goes a little something like this...

A UT fan writes: "Maybe those LSU fans should move to a little higher ground so they dont get washed away, somewhere like ROCKY TOP!!! GO VOLS!!!"

You know, some people's families from Louisiana were displaced (ahem) by Katrina. Please check yourself. Yeah. Thanks.

-John

P.S. And may I ask, why do you go to MTSU anyway? If you're such a vols fan, shouldn't you just go there?

if you read this...
the least you could do, is c o m m e n t.

So wow...
Fall break.. was fairly boring.

Not much is new, other than the fact that
I got a new job. YAY..

Um.

And, I have a new bestfriend.. well not new, but he's still my bestfriend.

OH, what else..
OH yeah, the main cause of my frustration and emo-mood....
b o y s
yeah.. urg.
I don't understand them at all.
I mean, first he's interested and whatnot, then you talk for a while, and then he apparently thinks that you don't like him at all, when you do.... and so they just give up...
just like that... over.
and you're left there wondering wtf you did wrong to make him do that.
and then you just lose all hope
because apparently you're not good enough or whatever for him, or for that matter
any other guy.

yeah, i relate to that, partly because its a true story... as in it happened to me. erg.

whatever.

i don't really care anymore.
wait... i lied, i do care.
i just hate having to wait for that special guy to come along.

yeah, well that concludes a portion of my thoughts.
© k a r l a

i need to saysomething and get it out there.

lately i... hav felt like wat i do is never good enough. it just seems like there is always someone standing there ready to knock me down again. please dont feel like i want sympathy this isnt y im doing this. i know this isnt true but it seems that everywhere i go i feel very unwanted. i feel like im not meant to be anywhere. and i dont know y this is. i know i hav friends and family who care about me but i ges that my stubberness is getting to me. idk? all i know is that it sucks to feel this way. i feel like too many people are asking to much of me. i try to put on a good face around other people because... i ges i hate people seeing me like this. me being depressed or wat ever makes the people that im around depressed because i rub off on them. and i hate seeing people like that. im just really confused right now. so if u could just pray for me so that everything works out like god wants it to. and if u could leave me some advice or hints if u will to y i feel like this -forrest

Fall break - Thursday and Friday
4 day trip home.

I'm a very random person. I'm also a very odd person. I can be messy and throw trash everywhere and 3 days later clean a whole house to where it's spotless. I'll be careless and carefree while later I'll be so cautious you'd think I was a 15 year old being put behind the wheel for the first time. I can be happy, mad, and sad all within an hour. I probably have some kind of disorder but..I really don't care. I don't like 'stupid' people, which, if you know me, you know what I mean by that. I love recneck comedy. I am a redneck by heritage. I wear Hollister, Abercrombie, and American Eagle. I drive a Nissan Pathfinder, I would be more comfortable in a muscle car. I love most sports. My dream is to work at ESPN. I've yelled myself hoarse at almost every sporting event I've been to. I was born into Alabama football, raised on Tennessee football, and love both like a religion. I believe in God. I am a Baptist. I need to start going to church again. I love college life for the sheer fact I can sleep in during the week, nap whenever I want, and live by my own rules. I believe that I can do whatever I set my mind to. I am thankful my parent's only expectations of me were to be happy. I am thankful for my wonderful family. I hold them very high in my life and in my heart. I believe that home is where the heart is. I thrive under pressure. I do my best when I tell myself I can't do the task given to me. I always think I have something to prove. I never feel like I am a success. I hold grudges, though I know I shouldn't. I have put alot into things that give nothing in return. I have mushroom like hair and obnixiously large sideburns. I am getting a haircut in 2 days to remove said mushroom for a long time. I have always and probably will always out everyone else before myself. I don't think I should have fun if other people aren't. I never 'do' anything for myself first and others second. I try not to judge people before I know them. I can be very closed-minded about alot of things. I have alot of pride. I have a girlfriend who I love very much. I want to own my own production company when I get older and get out of my first career. I have a camera phone and an iPod. I feel blessed to have lived the life I've led. I am not perfect. I will never be perfect. I have made many mistakes in my life. I think that if you've read this far you should get a cookie. I am not very good at backing up what I believe. I should learn how to backup what I believe. I don't work out and I need to. I am not a very jealous person. I have lied, cheated, and manipulated people in the past. I will never lie, cheat, or manipulate people because of the hurt it causes myself and others. I like to follow the rules. I am a momma's boy and I see nothing wrong with that. I believe I am better than people who start rumors, lie, and dramatize life. I usually don't cae what other people think about me. I speak my mind about what is going on. I try to be blunt and to the point to show the reality of the situation. I am 18 years old. I am in college. I am majoring in Journalism and Electronic Media. I was born in Huntsville, Alabama. I have lived in Fayetteville, Tennessee , Murfreesboro, Tennessee , Valparaiso, Indiana , Bowling Green, Kentucky , and Knoxville, Tennessee. I love to drive. I love life. I am content with life...

My name is Kyle Cantrell.
I am me.

Who are you?

I have been thinking alot lately about this week and the reason that I am going. I am so excited about going, and I know that there is a reason that I am going. I am going to miss everyone terribly but I think that this is what I am supposed to be doing. I finished training tonight at the BCM on disaster relief and I am now part of the Disaster Relief Team of Tn under the SBC. I think that I am going to continue training, and do work when other things happen.

Just let anybody know that was wondering, I found out that Lisa is going on the trip also, but is going to Miss. insteed of Alabama like I am. I am really happy about this, because I know that she is there for a reason also. She and I are going to the Walmart tommarow then heading over to Central Beaden Baptist to leave. I will be back on sunday around 4 or 5 pm.

I am super excited, not only about the trip but I also get to make a video of the conditions and the work we will do down there. I will make a copy for anyone that wants one.

****Very Important.....I wanted to see if anyone out there would pray for me while I am on this trip from Wednesday to Sunday. and for the group that I am going with. This place that we are going needs to hear about our Lord Jesus Christ. Please also pray for the people that we are going to come in contact with while down there. Thank you....in advance, you are making more of a difference than you think.



Love in Him,
Jason


PS I got AIM so IM me sometime and I will add you to my buddies.....my name is jthuc87



Unreached Peoples Fact
India has 2,099 least-reached groups, followed by Pakistan (469) and China (406).


Missions Scripture
"See, I will beckon to the Gentiles, I will lift up my banner to the peoples."
Isa 49:22

pretty uneventful.
oh well.
- J4(()8

i really hope i can focus tomorrow. i haven't really been able to focus on anything for more than a minute (or two if i'm really lucky) since like two weeks before the break. my mind has been everywhere. and i don't really want to sit still or be quiet for very long. like... it's not possible. and that psat thing is tomorrow. it would really suck if i got there and couldn't concentrate...

i got an amazing picture tonight. i will try to put it on here. later. but my computer is stupid, so maybe not.

have u ever been so busy doing things for God, that u have no time with God. ive been so busy lately, just doing everything, and it seems like im just about to lose it. hopefully, it should only be like this for another couple of weeks. after judgement house is over, i should have time to rest. my friend asked me to be apart of judgement house, and really i didnt want to, but i was the only person that could do it. so i said ok, then i said no, then i said ok. so now im stuck doing it. and yea, its good, but it is just another thing im cramming into my schedule. yea i know, im just a teen, but im soooooooo busy. i have no free time to give to God at all. its driving me crazy. so keep me in your prayers. and if u need anything im here for u, just call me or something and we can talk. on a lighter note, my birthday was good, but i cant have a party now, because im so busy. so my mom just pretty much said were prob not going to have a party. i had everything planned out, even the date. and my mom was all happy about it. and now i have dress rehearsal for judgement house that night, so i cant have my birthday party. it really stinks, and im committed to it already, so i cant just say no. o well, life cant be easy, that would just be to hard. guess its making me stronger. but i def need to find some spare time, and spend it with jesus. i feel terrible for just blowing him off. it sux. ive been trying to wake up early, and do a quiet time, but i just seem to fall back asleep. so then i tried it once i finally got to bed, and its been late, so then i just fall asleep, in the middle of my prayer. but other than that, everything is going pretty good, well other than school, lol and a couple other things. well nvm, not everything is going good, but a few things are. so im out. this was the one time i had freetime, and it feels great. God bless.

edit- our girls soccer team is going to the district championship. way to go. keep working hard, it will pay off. hopefully i can come and see yall play one last time.

sooo i have 2 cousins that go to tha Unviersity of Georgia and one of them plays football!!! lol!!! crazy! and im a UT fan!!!

Love Through Christ!
~Rachel~

So I think Emily has a boyfriend...sweeeet!

tired!

This is reaaaaaly coooooooool

Lol, yeah, so all that's really crazy, but Nathan gave me the privledge of testing out GREENbox before it's unleashed out to you fine folk, and I'm just having some fun with it, lol.

Things. . . things are definitely getting better. Mom wound up talking to one of my bosses about it today ((in short-- he's also a plumber and was at our house fixing the hot water heater, which is another story)), and he agrees that I don't need to be working so much.

I cried Out last night. Very nice. Jesus = comfort.

. . . yeah, and our hot water heater has like, kicked the bucket. Now THAT'S interesting.

So long ago, I don't remember when. That's when they say I lost my only friend. They said she died easy of a broken heart disease...

This week sucks....

Biology is just one of those pointless things that...I don't know....

"What man is a man who does not make the world better?"

my life is gibberish
everything is so confusing...
school is getting unbearable
friends are... strange sometimes
my girlfriend acted more like we were a couple when we werent goin out

i dont know...

its been really stressful for me lately....

i went to young life monday... it was... interesting... i met a lot of new, cool people... shultzie drove me home... hes really cool... and um yeh... that about all...

my mom got her new job... im gettin my new phone... stephens gotten like 98465786398456 new things... yeh... i think im spoiled.... but its cool....

corn maze this saturday... off of 96... a lot of people are goin... call me for details... call me at my house now... but ill have my new cell in a few days most likely... 9049502....

hasta luego

this just in
Me and Elaine are only friends now... but shes still here... so im happy

"I believe in everything until it's disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it's in your mind. Who's to say that dreams and nightmares aren't as real as the here and now?"
- - John Lennon

once again...tomorrow is almost here.

Conversation with God

So you had a conversation with God.
Well what did the old man say?
Did he smile and promise
to take all your sorrows away?
Did he comfort you in your lonliness
and take you in his arms?
Did he convince you that he would
Protect you from worldly harm?
This world has grown cold
and become far too unfair
to those of us upon it
who honestly do care.
They often say I lost the faith
In the spirits above.
That I care not anymore
of romance and love.
How untrue, these thoughts.
I still do hold on
to all of these silly beliefs
from which my sorrow is spawned.
In the most recent days, however
It would apparently seem
the opposite occurance
These beliefs have lost faith in me.
I've never felt so lonely
abandoned by myself.
I cannot look even inward
In my cry for help.
I tried to talk to God this night
I tried to make him see.
But the Lord Allmighty made no response
For he'd lost his faith in me.
So I ask you of you dear reader
I do hate to put you on the spot.
But I have heard a rumor
that you've had a conversation with God.
Is it true, that you spoke with God?
Well just what did that old man say?
Did he smile gently and promise
to just take all those sorrows away?
Was he with you in your lonliness
and did he take you in his arms?
If you happen to speak to him again
Ask him please for life to spare me harm
and ask him why there is no room left for me
to be wrapped up in his arms.

-Daniel Austin 2005

Well over fall break I went to the Bahamas and I had an AWESOME! time I meet so many cool people. And the ship that we were on was MASIVE! it had a rock wall,ice skating rink,basketball,court,put-put corse. One Nikki,Tes and I desided that we wanted to ice skating it was I fell 2 and so did Tes the first time that i fell was i trying to skate backwards and whne I tryed to turn around I fell on my FACE it was pretty funny and then the 2nd time that i fell we were all swing each and these little kids got in our so we let go and some how I fell On my face agian it sucked and then Tes fell twice to the first time Nikki pushed her but she didntn some little kid got in her way to and she fell but on her face it was alot fun but most o f the time we hung out by the hot tube cause there nothing better to do unless u wanted to ride the elevator that was fun we got in troble few times doing that we would push the all the buttons and when some would get on we would run off and meet them at the next floor it was funny. One time we got 20 people in there it was great. Man let me tell u what I never seen so many little people in my life ther were bout 50 of them I meet one his name was chris he was a nice guy very nice guy. I got me a curze b/f as nikki would say he was a sweet. well my hand is starting to hurt so if u want hear more bout the trip u could go look on my xanga www.xanga.com/bubbly_1 ill get some pics up later

Wow it has been over a month since i posted, and alot has happened, it has litterally been an emotional rollercoaster. With the guy that i liked ( ok who am i kidding, i still kinda like him) dating another girl, and snubbing me, and just me thinking that i am superwoman ( burning the candle at both ends) and me feeling like blah!! i had a horrible dream last week, and it involved two different guys that i go to church with, ....... lets not go there, it is that bad!!! Idk i just don't know what is going on with me i feel so lost, in every aspect, i just don't feel like i am me any more. It is just mush right now!!!

1st period(Biology) 79
2nd period(English II Honors) 93
3rd period(Choir)98
4th period(Geometry honors)86
5th period(Speech)90
6th period(Spanish)89

2a's 3b's and a c.....not to bad

well there's my grades for you guys.
heh...Variety show is next THrusday
everyone should come!!

Homecoming game/dance on Friday.
good fun there.
welps i'm out

well i feel better, i dont feel sick any more. i did at one point, but it went away. i think amy a. was right, i think its from stress. i faild another chem quiz today, that blows majorly. honestly guys..................., well, never mind.

jamie sent me a txt message today, i got it after i failed the quiz, it cheered me up. thanks jamie!!!

i cant wait till 8:30 tommorow night, thats when it'll officially be fall break for me. i'm goin to love it.

i'm goin to go eat.

piece

Today I did stuff.

Hooray for my third post of the day. Looks like I have a few addictions myself. Anyway, here are some links to some music videos. Right click to download them, or just click on them to watch them in a new window. Enjoy.

Anberlin - A Day Late

Mae - Suspension

Underoath - Reinventing Your Exit

Showbread - Mouth Like a Magazine

I crumble at Your kiss and grace
I'm a weakling in the dust
Teach me how to cling to You
With all my life and all my love

Father come to me, hold me up 'cause I can barely stand
My strength is gone and my breath is short, I can't reach out my hands
But my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain

You're my portion in this life
You're my strength now in my fight
And to You I pledge my heart
In the pain and in the dark I'll love You
I'll love You, I'll love You

I'll love You...

And my heart is set on a pilgrimage to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory I will always sing

I love You
I love You
I love You

-charlie hall

i am in love with a man who can give me everything that i need and He loves me more then anything of this world. i can't live without Him.

how is everyone??? i hope wonderful!!!

im really sleepy!

i think im supposed to be a stay home mom! its tha only thing that looks appealing right now!

off to class!

Love through Christ!
~Rachel~

Last night we played our 2nd tournament game against Our Lady of Lords.  Durning the game they came in and scored one goal fast so we were down by one.  Then we came in and scored one goal.  After that they scored again in the last period with 7 minutes to go we had to score again or we knew we would lose the game.  So with two minutes left we finally scored!  Tieing the game and causeing us to go into over time.  We played 7 on 7 and no one scored so we had a flick off.  4 players had gone from each team and no one had scored.  So our 5 and last player went up and didn't score.  We watched  as there 5 player came up to flick and she scored.  We were heart broken but we played our best and we had a great season!  

yeah, so the whole book of psalms is incredible. here's a good'en.... psalms 27
1The LORD is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
2 When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
3 Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident.

4 One thing I have desired of the LORD,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the LORD
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the LORD,
And to inquire in His temple.
5 For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.

6 And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
8 When You said, “Seek My face,”
My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.”
9 Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.
10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the LORD will take care of me.

11 Teach me Your way, O LORD,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
12 Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!

So freakin' tired...bored too. Haven't been sleeping well at all. I did somethin that I never do...take a nap. I always talk about it, but I never do it. *sigh* I think I'm going to make a few appointments soon...

I've not been a very nice person lately. In fact, I know I've not been very nice. I'm sorry to those that I have hurt or offended these past few days. My life has flipped upside down, and I don't know how to deal with it.

Not much else to say....

This web site is pretty amazing - they actually have photographs of almost
every School in the World.

Unless you went to School when cameras weren't invented, you will find a photo of yourself or at least your classmates.

Click on the link below: Enter the name of your school and Year that you were there....

http://www.worldschoolphotographs.com

Midterms are horrible. I have one in Age of Enlightenment and I'm so scared about it. It makes me really nervous. It's all about philosphy and stuff like that and then I have an advertising test so pray for me please!!!

...to anything. Well, I challenge you. try playing this game and see if you can quit.

So...I put up a few pictures that I took for Leslie Dudney recently. I am working on her album artwork, and took these photos for it. Leave some comments...criticism welcome.

so I havn't written in a while.... fall break....was well Fall break, it was good to just lay around a relax. new picture in my little picture box... I upload a picture I edited in art class. well anyway thats all I have to say right now...other than I got all As and a C...thats pretty crappy...pretty sure I am going to go to honors algebra 2.... all depends on the test grade....


amor!


cz

so im in the libary right now and theres nothing to do im really should be T.A. ing for my teacher but thats even lamer. so im really happy that this is my last year here cuze i really cant take a bunch of wack jobs complaining how much their day sucked cuze they had a bad hair day. i say we shoot them all right. i guess this day sucked just becouse i just started my own drama when i started to talke ish behined this girls back to her best friend. how stupid was that. its actually really funny. lets all just have a big laugh about it right now...okay stop. so yeah

So Josh and I are getting married in FOUR days! Crazy huh!

well as usual, reading justin vance's blog hit me right where i needed to be hit. he wrote,

"I’ve accepted the fact that I don’t need to know what will happen along the way, only what direction I am pointing. For I am sure of my destination, and I rest in that peace, but the planning, human side of me wants to talkback in question. He wants to ask for a plan, for answers, for just a little more light on the situation than I’ve been given at this moment."

this is a brick wall i keep hitting. if you know me, you know i am agressive in everything i do and will take charge in any situation. this summer God forcefully reminded me that i am not in control of my life no matter how much i try to be. i gave it to God, but every now and then, i stumble, become insecure, and grapple hopelessly and helplessly for the security i find in the control i don't really have. I know that He is in control. I know that His way is sooooooo much better than mine. perhaps its me that i don't trust, perhaps its everyone else. I don't really know, but i guess i don't have to. I just have to let go- and just be .

so yesterday was monday. not only monday but the first day back from that oh-so-needed week off. "fall break" was alright.. i think we shouldve gotten another week. (or... 12) but y'know.. whatev'

i'm currently at school as i type this...
nothing too thrilling happening, i must admit.

the cold-ness is my friend =]
looooves it.

birthday count: 35 days O_O
i need to be planning a par-tay....

lind-z's suggestion was a good-n.
a decade themed partry.
i think i'm going to have it to where everyone chooses their own generation and comes dressed as if they were from that era. y'like???

it's not official. but i'm pondering it.

well.. i think that's it for updating for now.

abbs
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

(ps: you guys stink at remarking) =P

Rachel isn't here...:tear:

so yeah got my 1st english paper back today. i wasnt disappointed. i was freakin myself out a lot though. she talked for like an hour and what we all needed to improve on so i was in high anticipation of getting my paper back and it be ripped to shreds. but surprisingly enough it wasnt. i needed a few more commas and to change a couple pronouns and that was about it. she even commented that she thought it was well put together. how do u like them apples from a homeschooler lol. j/m. but anyway so yeah i made and A lol case u didnt guess. but anyway, i have my mid-term in english on thursday, a Stats test 2morrow and Bio and Psy tests on friday, so please pray for me for the next few days. the break is long overdue. in more ways than one. well hope to receive some comments, i love you all! ttyl!

Episode 03 is out.
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The run time is a little over 30 minutes, so give it a listen...


photo from matt

it's almost eben 2 weeks since i've written on here. wow.

disneyland was amazing, as well as arizona, and my birthday!!! i got an iPod, a letter jacket, a really pretty necklace and watch, and a slew of pink jewelry from my grandparents.

look at the pics i downloaded!!

I'm wearing 2 coats. It's so cold. Would someone like to come keep me warm?

A sin is a sin no matter how big or small it is.We all sin everyday and we need to relize that and as christians or as us people we shouldnt judge others cause we all make mistakes.I mean thats what make's us human cause no one is perfect but the one and only heavenly father.

My heart is heavy.

i think we've really misunderstood repentance. we talk about it being a 180-degree turn or a change in thinking that results in a change of action. i myself prefer to think of repentance in terms of story -- i recognize that all the stories of this world are false, and that God's story is the only true story. i then turn my back on every story i've been living, and i participate exclusively in the story of God.

really, any of these definitions is pretty fair, but we're leaving out a crucial ingredient -- the crucial ingredient. where do we place the power of God and the work of the Holy Spirit in our definitions of repentance? we hold on tight to our own stories of repentance, because this allows us to salvage a portion of our pride. "if i can't contribute at all to my salvation, then surely i can at least be the one who puts myself in the position in which i'm 'saveable.'" we like to look back on our lives and talk about how we had the intelligence to figure out the path we were heading down was a poor one; and so we finally came to our senses and turned our lives around.

in luke 15, the lost son "came to his senses." that's even how the niv renders it. and once in his senses he devised a plan to make himself right. he would go to his father and ask to be a hired worker. i understand that he recognized the poor life he was living -- but he was not truly responsible for the change in his life. when HE came to HIS senses, HE devised HIS OWN plan to make HIMSELF right. he attempted to do all this on his own. the lost son was not truly found, i believe, until his father embraced him. it was then that the change in his life truly came about; his father received him as a son.

God's power must be present in repentance. i cannot bring about the change in my life that occurs in salvation. i can no more change my life by decision and discipline than i can provide my own sacrifice for sins. i pray that the Holy Spirit continues to transform me, changing me, making me into the man he desires for me to be. and my prayer is the same for you. may he bless us both with truly changed lives.

OK DO NOT READ THIS IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO LOL I KNOW IT IS EXTREMLY LONG> IT IS MY SKETCH DRAFT OF THE SERMON I WAS ASKING ADVIE ABOUT EARLIER> IT STILL NEEDS A LITTLE WORK BUT I WOULD LIKE ANY ADVICE YOU HAVE LIKE PARTS THAT SHOULD BE MORE DESCRIBTIVE TO BE MORE EFFECTIVE OR VERSES THAT GO ALONG WITH WHAT I AM SAYING ECT> I THINK YOU GET THE POINT> THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE FOR THE ADVICE EARLIER!

Living outside the city walls being shunned by your family and friends you once counted as your closest relationships. The pain that went along with the sores on your skin is almost as bad as the pain of being exiled. Picture this with me…… You are sitting around a table with your family and closest friends. To your right are your best friends that you have grown up with and to your left are your wife and two wonderful children. You are all eating, laughing, and joking and you sit back and think to yourself nothing could go wrong. You are surrounded by the people you love the most and nothing could make this life God has blessed you with any better or any worse. You are completely content. While you are sitting at the table, realizing how blessed you are you notice a sore that has formed on your wrist you haven’t in the past. You don’t think much of it and you finish your meal and enjoy spending time afterward with the people you count closest to you and love so much. Later that night when your friends have left and the children are in bed you re-examine the sore on your wrist. You wonder what the sore could be but don’t think much of it and go ahead to sleep. Little did you know that little sore was going to be the beginning of what would change your life forever. Over the next couple of weeks it increasingly gets worse. You try to hide the ever growing sore from the people around you by covering it up hoping no one notices it. After you realize the sore isn’t getting any better you decide to go secretly to visit a priest and see if he could help or even heal you some how. When you get to the priest and he begins to examine your sore you wonder if he can heal it. Stories of men with leprosy pop into your head but you quickly push them out saying that could never happen to you. When you look back up from the priest hands examining you wrist you notice the grim look on his face. As he slowly backs up you ask him – “well, is there anything you can do?” The priest the answers you “well….. according to the law of Moses you are unclean. We will put you in carotene for seven days and then we will re-examine the sore and see if it has gotten better. Your heart is broken yet hopeful that your arm could get better over the next week. So through the next week you keep you hope high that your arm will heal. On the fifth day you begin to really worry because the sore has only gotten worse! You begin to pray to God knowing that if you sore doesn’t heal in the next two day you will be permanently exiled. You pray and pray that he will heal you. You search your life for any sins that may have brought this disease upon you. Each day closer to the priest examination is torture to you knowing what is immanent unless God decides to do a miracle. With no avail on the last day, the priest comes to re-examine you arm one more time. When he ask you to pull your sleeve up you do so slowly and painfully. As you sleeve slides further and further up your arm the priest retreats further from you. He quickly explains that you are unclean and must go to a camp outside of the city where you will stay until God sees it fit to heal you from this disease.WOW you whole world comes crashing down! The news you feared has come true. You can’t believe it. You don’t know how to take it…. You quickly go to your house and with tears in your eyes, try to explain to you children why you have to go away. Your wife doesn’t even touch you for fear of contracting the disease herself. While she is crying she says to you “Please don’t touch me. We can’t. What will happen if both of us contract the disease? What will happen to the kids?” Those words pierce straight through your heart like a burning sword. If leaving everyone you know isn’t enough pain you can’t even give your family a hug goodbye! As you leave you tell your wife to explain to you friends what has happened. You cry as you walk towards the gate of the city knowing everything you have loved and cared for is going to be left behind. No matter how bad you want it back you have to wait until you heal and are clean. All you can do is pray and hope that your disease will not be permanent and you will heal soon. Years pass while you are in this colony. The sore has now spread all over your body. It is more painful now than ever. You have long given up on God. Every day you can’t help but think about your wife and kids and your friends you left behind and haven’t seen since. No one has come to visit you and you can’t visit them for fear of what they would say. Also for fear you would spread the disease to them. The words of your wife still ring in your ear. You can still see the confusion in your children’s eyes when you told them you had to leave. You think to yourself what your children are doing. You wonder how they have grown up. Are they happy? Is someone providing for them? What if they are in pain? All of these questions torture you mind to the point that you can barley bare it sometimes to the point that you have thought of killing yourself to get it over with. You ask questions like – Why would God let this happen to me? What is the meaning behind all of this? Why won’t God heal me? – If all of the problems you have are not enough, you have friends in the colony that have succumbed to taking their own life. You have to deal with those deaths. You have to also deal with the natural deaths of you new friends in the colony. You just can’t see how God can be behind this… It feels like you are living in a constant hell.One of the things that keep you taking steps forward is the thoughts of how life used to be. How life could be if God decided to heal you. You think of what you would do if you were healed. You think of the things you would do differently. You think of the love you would show to the people around you that you haven’t seen for many years. But as each torturous day goes by you loose little by little the hope in God healing you.One day while you were sitting around with some of you friends, one ask if anyone in the group had heard of the man they call Jesus of Nazareth. You have heard stories of this man but you didn’t know you could believe them as true or if they were just rumors. You had heard things like this Jesus was the messiah the prophets talked about. You had heard many stories of his compassion and of him healing people. Again you can’t know for sure if these stories are true. Your friend goes on to tell the group that this Jesus that everyone speaks so much about is in the city right now. He has been teaching and healing in the Synagogue. Most of the men dismiss the thought saying it is just a rumor and this man Jesus isn’t even real. They ask the man if he had ever seen Jesus. If not how can he validate his story. Some of the men even make fun of the man telling about Jesus. The thought ends up sticking in you head though. You go home and lay awake in bed that night wondering if what they say is true. Is this Jesus who they say he is? Is he even in the city? For all you know the guy who told you he was heard it from a dishonest man trying to deceive him and give him false hope. Who knows? You fight back and forth wondering if what you heard is true. You can’t help but wonder if this Jesus of Nazareth could heal your painful disease and give you back your normal life again.Well the next day you start thinking about going into the city to see if you can be healed by this Jesus of Nazareth. You ask one of you friends what he thinks about the idea and he is quick to exclaim “Are you crazy?! Look at you. You would be risking your life going into that city! People might have you killed before you even get to Jesus. Even if they don’t kill you, they will mock and ridicule you for even thinking you could enter the city. Let’s just say you get to Jesus, what’s to say he will heal you? He is a Jewish man, he will probably want nothing to do with you because you are unclean. If Jesus is as powerful as people say he is, he might even have you killed for coming too close to him! You have to be crazy to think you could be healed!” You are silent because you are thinking of what he has said. You both part ways and you go to a place where you can really weigh the pros and cons of what you are planning on doing. You finally decide that whether Jesus decides to heal you or not, you don’t have much to loose. You have heard stories of Jesus being a merciful man and you believe if only you get to him, he can heal you. The next day you wake up early in the morning and you cover as much of you skin as you can conceal. You sneak out of the colony and head towards those city gates you exited years earlier that you were never to re-enter. You make your way slowly up to the fates and walk through them to make you way to the synagogue where you heard Jesus was preaching. As you walk through the streets memories of your earlier life flood your mind. You on the right you see the building that you had your first job at. Then you see the market you used to come to get food at. The emotions of these memories overcome you and you begin to cry. As you pull your veil off you face to wipe your eyes a person catches a glimpse of what you look like underneath. He exclaims “Oh what is wrong with you! Are you supposed to be here?” That draws the attention of men and women around you in the street. You hear someone yell “he’s a leper!” Men and women then try their hardest to get as far away from you as they can. You hear mumbles and mockery. Men and women yell at you to go back to where you came from. On man yells “Why have you come in here and put the whole city in danger? Leave and go back to where you came from or I will call for help!” You try to explain to him you are only trying to find Jesus but no one wants to hear anything of it. The fear of you has quickly grown into anger. People begin to yell even louder as you try to proceed to the temple. The taunt you and spit on you saying things like you are a dirty sinner. You are unclean and Jesus wouldn’t want anything to do with you! Their were people who ran ahead of you and warned others that you were coming. There were people yelling and saying you have no right to be in the city! Suddenly in the middle of the taunting and yelling you here a faint voice say your name. When you look toward the direction the voice came from you see your wife standing their in amazement with tears in her eyes. You could tell you presence made her uncomfortable so you suppress the longing to talk and hold her and proceed past her so she would not be embarrassed by you. You continue to proceed to the synagogue as you are ridiculed and mocked. The people you once knew as friends standing off to the side looking at you like they have seen a ghost terrified of what you might do. The best way to describe the way people were treating you is in a way that you are not human anymore. People didn’t realize you were human and you still hurt from what they were saying and doing. When you finally reached the synagogue there is a crowd of people flowing our of the door. You hear a voice that sounds so loving and gentle. Everyone else was completely silent. You try to catch a glimpse of the man who was preaching. You hang your head low and push your way quietly through the crowd hoping no one would notice your leprosy. To no avail, about half way through the crowd a man catches a glimpse of the sores on your face. He quickly pushes backward to get away from you. In doing this he pushes the people behind and around him. You know what happened in the streets and you fear what is coming next. All the attention was drawn to you and as people pushed away from you. The only person that was unwavering was the man at the front of the crowd. He stood there looking strait at you in silence. His eyes were so inviting and almost attracted you to him. A religious man steps up and say “ How dare you come here to the house of God! How dare you defile all of us and interrupt Jesus.” You hear the mumbles and gasp of everyone in the room as you just push right on by the religious leader and fall on your face before Jesus’ feet. Everything up unto this point seemed minute. You had thought about what you might say to Jesus when you got to him but you could only say one thing… You humbly say to him “If you are willing, you can heal me.” You can hear a few smug chuckles from the crowd but it doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is what this man Jesus will do next. It surprises you when you feel the warmth of his hand on your shoulder. Then he says “I am willing, be healed!” Immediately you feel no more pain from the sores rubbing against you clothing. You can’t help but glance down at you hand and realize your sores are gone! You rise up to your knees and pull your sleeves back realizing all the sores were gone. You then feel your face for sores but find none. You look around at the crowd that has now completely become silent and see mouths open and eyes wide open and some people are ever shaking their head in disbelief. It was then you realized what you hoped and prayed for has really come true! You raise to you feet and filled with joy give the man who just healed you the biggest hug you could possibly give. Oh how long is has been since you had embraced another individual! Jesus tells you to not tell anyone how you were healed and go show yourself to the priest. But overwhelmed with joy you run to seen the people you loved and missed so much! As you run through the streets the same people who were mocking and yelling at you are now staring in disbelief wondering if you are the same person the saw earlier. You run into your house and give you wife a huge hug and tell her and your kids the great thing that had happened. Then you send a servant to go gather your best friends and bring them back so you could celebrate and tell them what had happened. That day and night you celebrate and share time with your friends and family once again. You wake up the next morning a new creation because of Jesus. You decide to go see Jesus again and tell him how happy and thankful you are but when you get to the synagogue you realize Jesus isn’t there……

For this leper his life was forever changed by a disease that God could have prevented. He was unclean in the eyes of the world and in the eyes of God. He probably thought his disease was due to some sin he had committed and never fully repented of. So just that fact people probably viewed him as a horrible unrepentful sinner. Though the cards were stacked against him he decided to have faith that Jesus could heal him of this disease. Because he had faith Jesus had compassion on him and healed him. We are also unclean. We are filthy sinners and it is not until we have faith in God’s unfailing forgiveness and his ability to cleanse us we are cleansed. We some times try to work to show God how sorry were are for sinning. We try to buy our way back into God’s love and grace. It is like we think Gad says “oh you did that, get back to me in a week, or month, or however long and maybe I will completely forgive you.” This is a wrong view of God’s grace. God can cleanse us no matter how much we have sinned and when he forgives and cleanses us, that is it. It is immediate. Just like the leper we are immediately forgiven of our sins. We bare them no more. If we ask forgiveness God will forgive us and forget our transgressions. We need to take heart in this promise. David describes this promise in Psalm 103 – as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. Once we have come humbly before God and repented and asked forgiveness of God we are immediately forgiven and we can live in hope and with an indescribable joy. Like the leper who was cleansed we also have been cleansed of any dark spot we have that keeps us in a colony outside of God’s presence. Therefore we also should have the joy and passion the leper had to show and tell what God has done in our lives. In Jeremiah 20:9 Jeremiah expresses this concept like this - But if I say, "I will not mention him or speak any more in his name,” his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot. We are so excited and joyful that we can’t help but tell others about what God has done for us. It would be selfish and wrong to hold it in. We as Christians are called to share the gospel with other.

nothing new
went to the firing range today. they pulled my M16 and issued me a SAW (squad automatic weapon). i'm not sure why, but i'm not altogether happy about it. more firepower is always a bonus but it's like lugging aroung a sack of bricks. when something happens next i'm sure i'll be glad i got it. qualified sharpshooter at the range if that means anything to anyone reading this. kind of disappointing becuz i've always qualified expert but of course that was w/ a different weapon.
this must be so boring for somebody to read. it's hard not being able to relate to society. i fear any shred of social skills i once had have gone from me completely. now i'm just rambling. after i got back i found out i had 12 hours of guard duty which i just finished so i guess it's normal to ramble some after being up for that long. i'm gonna cut it short here and do us all a favor. i wish all of you the best. i'll wish u double the best if u send me an email. they're few and far between these days.

don't think i'm complaining or anything...it's just all around me. it rained for the full 48 hours we were at lake pinacle this weekend. although i wasn't fond of the rain at the camp, i sure was glad i wasn't having to endure it in the city. and cuz of the fog i wasn't really able to see too much of nature. but it was refreshing, nonetheless.

so the yankees and red sox are out. i'd like to see the cardinals and white sox in the world series...we'll know the two teams in just a few short days.

oh, i enjoyed my first real holiday off today. went to target and picked up some items, such as food and a bag and snow boots :)

and it's back to work tomorrow! can't wait for the weekend-church retreat...

starbucks

this makes me laugh every time. especially when the mascot does the centipede. maybe i'm simple minded :)

Its Back!
Ridiculous amounts of homework from my latin teacher.
Oh well.

Today was okay I guess.
I hung out with Matt and Jessica.
Jessica was really grouchy and incredibly snappy though.

I worked on coding and got a background.
finally...
I need music now.

Yall like the background?
give me some comments!
- J4(()8

Tonight was REALLY crappy.

I could use some prayer.

. . . yeah, and my parents too.

We're all pretty wigged out over here for one thing or another.

I can't handle working 23/15 hours every other week on top of 16 hours of school and studying for that. I have to cut back severely. I'm talking to Taevan tomorrow. Hopefully it will go well, and we can work something out.

hey this thing is pointless and the person i love andcare about told me tonighttehy dont want to b close so yea later

He's THE pilot, Jesus is the plane, and I'm just a flight attendant.

Gloria Patri

This is going to be a long night. I think i'm about to go and have one of the hardest conversations I will ever have. Pray for me. Thats all I can ask.

But they suck because they have to to survive.
And Mississippi and Arkansas suck because they feel like it.
I got a myspace and I don't like it that much, the layout is too confusing. It's not very user friendly!

Sorry I have not been on here in a long time. I hope that everyone is doing well. Me and TJ are officially a couple. We saw each other at K-mart today. I have so much fun when I am with him. Well, I am going to go. Love you all!!

i don't enjoy most people on here.

not you johnathon ;-)

info for myspace peeps.
it's at 337 E Burton St, M'boro. (carriage lane reception house) on OCT 21st from 6:30-10pm
bring guests if you want!! no drugs please
i'm providing drinks, food, music, and glow stix

OH AND IT'S A DANCE PARTY!!! SO DANCE!!!

While I avoid my accounting homework, I thought that I'd blog a bit. I can breathe easy for a while now in most of my classes. No papers, tests, or major assignments for at least a week or so. And I'm enjoying this break from the stress. I'm getting used to life w/o my car again. My dad took it away on Saturday. After he attached it to his truck I just wanted to end our conversation as soon as possible so I wouldn't have to look at it anymore. He told me that I might not have this car the next time I come home. So I've prepared myself never to drive my 960 again. I'm asking for rides again So if I know you have a car you are fair game! J/k, but seriously I think I'm just learning to be dependent again. My nature I'm very independnet and a little recluse so asking for help, or rides in this case, presents a challenge for me. I can be this way with God as well sometimes too, and it's never good. I really do pray everyday to surrender my will to God's, even if it isn't fun. Since I'm a "glass 1/2 full" kind of guy I'm going to look at my immobility as a learning experience.

-James

HeY BeAuTiFuLs!
WeLl fall break was GREAT..i didnt really go anywhere but it was GREAT! haha lol tanners party was fun fun! lOl..well comming back to skool was good to cuz it was a gReAt day at skool..lOl..ahhahaha everyone is HilariouS! hA..n then later on today playground..hahah jacob..OrEo..he likes you..hahah lol well t2yl kiddos..muah hugs n kisses..i love you like WoaH!

well it hasn't been my best week ever in the MLB. First of all, the red sox are out, so that sux. My other team, the braves, lost yesterday in an 18 inning game to the astros. So that stinks. All I care about now is that the yankees lose! Go Angels *Runs around the room and flaps arms*