i love how i can just sit here and procrastinate... but i guess i did get a pretty good talk out of it.

if i could take the past 4 weeks back, would i? probably, actually in a heartbeat. but would it change anything? or would i have just another heartache to get over? if i had known what to do differently would it still change? or did God just make it like this because he knew we weren't meant to be? still, pathetically i want it to be the same as it was 3 weeks ago. i adore his hugs and his lazy grin and the way he made me the happiest i'd been in a really long time.

do i just forget it and move on? true i learned somethings, but it's been a week and i'm still not over it. more than i was a week ago, but it still lingers.

all i can hope for is God's love to get me out of this mess.

"Did you see that mess? Dang!"