In A Relationship
September 28 2007
my throat is tight
i can't swallow
all of my emotions seem to have collected in the pit of my stomach and they seem to swell with each tear i hold back
i don't want to cry,
but i don't want to hurt either
yet i can't seem to prevent either
i feel my heartbeat throughout every part of my body
i don't want to think because i don't like my thoughts
anger, hurt, dissappointment
fear floods in bringing with it even worse
those things unnamed by the heart because i don't want to admit
they are there
if little things are impossible, then what of the big things?
what does this mean?
why do i hurt?
is being numb better than feeling pain?