dreams, worries, and countdowns...

August 10 2005
Wow, things are getting crazy here lately....

The past few nights I have been having these insane dreams. Couple nights ago I had a dream that everyone left for college and no one told me bye, and I was stuck here all by myself!!! thats soo not cool. Then last night I had a dream that well I will keep this one to myself, but I dont think I liked it and so yeah freaked me out. Then I just woke up from a dream tonight that invovled Stephen and Alex and Stephens sister getting in a FATAL car wreck on the way home from Indianapolis! Yeah pretty sure I dont like waking up crying... creepy much?!

Ok also going along with all this I am kinda freakin out about college... I know I will be fine once I get there and get settled in, but right now I am nothing but a million nerves flying around. Im afraid of losing my best friend who is going to UT. Im afraid of actually having to work for my grades for once (yes I know I am lazy and pathetic but eh, I do what I can). Im afraid I will be insanely shy for some reason and not meet anyone... Im just a worrier (sp?) right now... Luckily I have my Rachel :-)

Sooo Many countdowns right now. Stephen gets in in 4 days (well in 40 mins it will be 4 days!)!!! Sarah and everyone else going to UT leaves in 7 days. I leave in 13 days!!!! Ahhh life is just soo crazy sometimes...

Rachel Tenpenny

August 11 2005
well even if you are a total loser and make no friends and we order little caesars pizza all the time, you'll still have me, so it'll be a-ok!!