sooo bored...need to get out....going shopping...face is puffy! so sad!

i spent the whole day with sarah and her family (all of whom i love dearly)

spent the night (saturday)...then woke up at (practically) the crack of down to head to clarksville where her dad now works...at first baptist clarksville...

then the church took us all to Red Lobster (yum yum)

then we went home and it was a celebration of MOORE-RON'S birthday!!! and bethany made a very good cake and jonathan gave a pretty cool present

oh yeah! and jonathan made weird faces every time he looked at me...that only made me a little sad!

love bekah!

this is about love or lust or the lack of both and the presence of something. im not really sure. but i know that nothing is truly for sure, and you are never promised what people say you are. life is about as predictable as nothing...its something you cant even compare it to. life is life and we never know what will happen or who we will meet. we are thrown curve balls everyday...things we have to avoid and times we have to make the choice to catch whatever has been thrown in our direction, and run with it until our heart gives up

this ended as being more vague and less about love or lust...but, in my sordid life, it all makes simple since...

i love you and happy birthday jane miller!



((for a more in depth and personal account, you can visit my xanga...and if you dont know my xanga, you can ask, and i will message it to you...but, i dont feel like everyone on phusebox reading some things...cause yeah...thats just the end of that))

they are so fun and full of joy...hope to see you there!!!

love rebekah

talked to the rep from union today....now, i really really really want to go there....

hurt my elbow yesterday...and today i bruised the other one when i tried to hit braeden....i shouldnt be so violent

having my wisdom teeth sawed out of my body on Tuesday...my fall break, i will be laid up in my bed!!!

i dont know...life is just kind of blah right now, going through the motions of everyday life, but never really soaking it all up...i think im just really sad right now...

though, hopefully, ryan and the startrek and the wedding will cheer me up a bit (ryan is ryan braschler...who moved away when we were little, but we are no longer enemies, but friends, and he's coming down for chris and emily's wedding!!!yay!!!)

the upstairs AC/heat isnt working...i have a feeling its gonna be a coooooollllld night ladies and gentlemen....

_rebekah (sorry, this was a whiny poat)

my elbow hurts....

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God is so cool. Beth Moore is so cool. I went into this weekend feeling really outcast cause i was one of the only high schoolers on the trip, but the people didnt really matter...the only think that mattered was God and his divine plan for my weekend.

I immediately know God was planning something big for me when Beth revealed to us the theme of the weekend....what was it, you say? LOVE! seems trite, i know, but it was exactly what i needed! As women, we, all too often, feel unloved and inadequate...she made me realize that God loves me with His sovereign love and that i love because He loves me...his love allows me to love others...so, my love is an outpour of his godliness. also, if you know me, i have a lot of enemies...no one i hate but people in my life, who i would just not rather associate with. so God taught me through Beth Moore, that i can love all the testy people in my life...i really can!

With all this talk of love and feeling loved, i've come to the realization (with the help of a few amazing women and few much needed conversations) that i am not feeling special...so, i will soon be making a very big move for me...something i am not comfortable with at all...something that will make me cry, before, during an after...something i already feel the pain it will bring. this is the time to be vague, but everyone will find out soon enough...i just hope it turns out for the best...

i love you all so so much...even the people i dont like all that much...im trying!
Rebekah

"you can brush their hair, or you can witness to them, but regardless, love them with all you have" _beth moore

re:title of post
the whole weekend i thought "loving well" meant that i was learning to love the people around me in a better way...but this afternoon, she plainly told me that "He is the Loving Well, the Living Water" its not about how we love someone, but how much we love someone and if we love the way God calls us to love.

**edit**
i have officially made my first attempt to love someone more...someone i dont really like...

ok im better....

leaving for Beth Moore tomorrow....dont really know what to expect...sure it will be good

very sad...

coldplay rocked last night! i loved it! so, yeah, there was definetely weed all around us! sooo hilarious and then...brett and i lost my car so we sat on a hill until i realized where we had parked!!!

seats were AMAZING cause kelsey let us sneak in with her at the front of the lawn..

so tired and about to fall asleep in class...cause 1 AM is not a good time to go to bed..

_bekah

soo...

i randomly got a CHI iron

and rainbows...

but from different people...cause my mom wouldnt buy my two super duper expensive things for nothing...fun fun fun

i just wonder how long it will take for everyone to forget about katrina...

dont by offended, please, but we always forget...

maybe we just forget about the things that are far away...like the tsunami...and many of us dont think about the victims of 9/11 everyday...

how long will it be when we dont think about new orleans every day? when cnn goes back to the normal cnn and not the katrina cnn? when will we stop seeing the number for the red cross on every news cast? troubling isnt it? how easily we all forget about the devastation and how easily we become consumed with our own lives? or "newer news"?

siegel won again...i guess thats pretty cool

my weekend has been SO FUN...

friday (we beat oakland...but everyone knows that)

saturday (spent some time with evan and jake [ie. panera, gap, starbucks, to see jake's "maybe new" house]...jake is weird...but i love him none-the-less)

sunday (church [met nemanja] then nothing special til sunday night at the Labor Day picnic...definetely a bunch of us were rejects and sat at the front of the church and had a private picnic...w/ nemanja)

monday/today (woke up, cleaned for a bit, went to see skeleton key [sarah, ben, brian, aimee, nemanja, and myself] then, we went to Target, then to nemanja's cause his amazing host family has given him his own little bachelor's pad in the basement/downstairs...and lastly, we ended up at sarah's eating the amazing food her mom always cooks up!

i love my friends...and i love foreign exchange students...cause everyone is very cool!

so im pretty darn sure that siegel won this friday!!!!

sorry to all the oakland kids who read this, but a very wise man, on the oakland side, said, "yeah, those shirts are really mean, something good will happen tonight, and make those shirts a joke!" and pretty sure it did....

we made history....its a night i'll never forget

"And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know you realize that life goes fast.
It's hard to make the good things last.
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round"

so, jared o'brian's (mrs. salty's son) funeral was probably the saddest thing that hasnt made me cry...i wanted to cry but i couldnt...all i could do was sit, and watch the strongest woman i know, fall to pieces...

mrs. gregory put it really well in choir today, she said to live life to the fullest and to tell someone when you love them, cause you never know when they wont be there the next day, you dont know if you will be there the next day...

so, i think we're safe...not all the way to st. patrick's day, but at least for a while...

oh and if you are totally lost on what im talking about, its a john mayer song, check it out...

will we really be safe 'til st. patrick's day?

people stop freaking out about me wanting more hurricanes! i accidentally deleted the post! chill homies!

pray for mrs. salty's family cause her son passed away tonight...so pray...hard...please.

no school! woopwoop!

"am i part of the cure or am i part of the disease?"

_coldplay

hey, im at the castle's babysitting little luke...the kid is adorable...kids are fun. so, they also gave me permission to use their computer cause he's asleep at the oh-so-late hour of 7:30 so i will be here for another 3 hours with nothing to do. so yeah, im online...

good news!!!!!! i have someone to go to Coldplay with!!! my favoritest friend in the whole wide world...brett tenpenny...is going to go with me, most likely! its gonna be fun! im excited!

later,
Rebekah dawn Minor

last night, i took a very interesting walk with a 3year old...