"The river of the Spirit of God overcomes all obstacles. Never focus your eyes on the obstacle or the dificulty. The obstacle will be a matter of total indifference to the river that will flow steadily through you if you simply remember to stay focused on the Source. Never allow anything to come between you and Jesus Christ- not emotion nor experience- nothing msut keep you from the one great sovereign Source" -Oswald Chambers

i think for most people it is a battle not to look at a trial that they are going through. i think it is difficult to surrender those emotions, questions, and attempts to control over to God. God definitely spoke to me through that passage last night. with tears streaming down my face because of the emotions that have been flooding my heart and my mind, i felt God telling me to keep going, give it to Him, and look only to Him. so what if i have been feeling lonely? so what if i have been sad? instead of wallowing in my emotions and self-pity, i should turn to Him FULLY. not just sometimes when it hurts really bad. but all the time. no emotion should come between God and i. nothing should. i just have to remeber that He is in control. there is a reason behind everything that i have been going through. He is the only one to fill me up, when i feel empty. He is the only who will NEVER disappoint me. He will always be there whispering things i long to hear. He will always tell me i am beautiful, loved and needed. He always pursues me. i am passionately desired by Him. so knowing that, i am confident that He is a Sovereign and loving Father and will take care of me.

"God has been opening up wonderful truths to our minds, and every point He has opened up is another indication of the wider power of the river that He will flow through us." -Oswald Chambers

so i hope everyone has a great night!!!

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i love God

::dances::

AO was awesome. loved the worship. loved the message. i'm starting to see clearly that God truly desires for me to have an intimate relationship with Him. think about a relationship. you put your time and effort into it. you hopefully talk to that person daily, you get to know their heart, they get to know yours, you think and care about them... that is what God desires. not just a platonic love... He wants you to be IN LOVE with Him. a deep unhindered, passionate, love. a relationship.

so God is great in many ways... i also received two messages of coldplay playing in NYC. so that was just topped off my great night. yay for an awesome boyfriend, coldplay, and a big yay for God!

so i hope everyone has a great night!