well, i guess sometimes you don't realize the extend of how important things are in your life until they are gone. i have an aching in my heart to be able to play, laugh with, and help my lil loves. i was looking through a few pictures of them and i just cried and a smile came across my face a couple of times remembering the fun times. being firemen, birthdays, and of course all the fun times with my little "boyfriend". i would tell him i was going to eat his pudding (man that kid loved pudding!) and he would just laugh. i remember the first time i heard him laugh. that made my day. his giggle was something special. i just laugh thinking about it. i was laughing so hard that day, i was crying. his face would light up when he saw me. i never got tired of the little arms that would wrap around me when i came in. i loved being their friend. if that meant playing dress up, building with blocks, sitting next to them, making a band, having an art show, dancing, acting silly, listening to their BIG adventures or maybe even participating in them, or just helping them... man, i miss those kids. but i know God is in control. and everything will be okay and He will help me. it is all for His glory. so i am going to get ready and go search for another job now. i hope everyone has a great day and remember that no matter what happens, good or bad, God is in control...trust Him in every situation.