do you ever go through and read stuff in your old journals? (yes, i have kept journals--- it is pretty much the best way for me to get all the thoughts out of my head) so i was reading through this random one i started last december. i was going through a lot then, and just need somewhere to write my thoughts out. so i was flipping through and reading ramdom entries. and i was amazed at some of the stuff i wrote. the main theme from december to march-- i was trying desperately to guard my heart. this provoked many thoughts as i read that. then i thought about the months after that... then some more big things popped out at me. and it is amazing to look at where i am now. but, i feel like i am not doing it exactly right. that is the message of my life. but that would be a different story entirely. but going back to the guarding my heart buisness. i am thankful that God helped me in that time to guard my heart. it was a very important time of development for me that has brought me to where i am today. but think about your heart. and how many times throughout that day that we leave it unguarded. and those wounds sure show up later down the road. give God your heart until He is ready to give it to somebody else.

ok. that is all.

i hope everyone has a great night!