I had an upsetting and somewhat startling revelation last evening. Michael and I were discussing Christmas plans. I recently found out it will work wonderful this year b/c my whole family has to work on Christmas so we're doing it early in Ga at Grans. Which leaves me to have Christmas Eve and Day w/the Fisher family and its extensions. However when I lay thinking about that last night I realized this will be the first time in my entire life, 21 years, that I won't wake up early at home with my family on Christmas morning. I've never woken up alone on Christmas before. It made me cry thinking about it. I mean I'm glad that things won't be so difficult and rushed that day but I guess I hadn't realized this meant being alone on Christmas day. Anyway, not sure how I'm going to handle that, keep me in your prayers please.

MEW