feeling so bad today when i came back from hospital to reexamine my voice, i just wanted to cry.

    actually i have been well enough to speak, though, i can't help worrying about recrudesence, cause i didnt obey the doctors' advice to keep silent for two weeks. as a matter of fact, i spoke a lot just at the third day of the surgery.  i don't know why i have never been like this, i just worry so much now by thinking about voice is my life-- cause i am a teacher, and if i came back to the hospital for the second time for voice operation, what will i do? if i lost my voice forever, how shall i do?