it has been raining for days.

it is ok for me, cause my operation for throat needs such cool weather.

in two or three days, i may be put to the operation table for the first time in my life. to tell the truth, i do feel a little scared. never expecting that i would handle all these staff alone, however, that's the way it is.

     only in such kind of time do i found that i am this wicked person, cause it seems that only in this lonely and helpless time can i concentrate on God more.

    too many difficulties and failures and attacks have been passed,  too many tears have been presented before God, now i understand that" God cares those who are broken hearted".  anyway, i know there will be some tough difficulties ahead , i know strongly now, God is watching me, and will handle all this. thanks be to God.