Still husky in the my throat.

i am sorry i could attend the "top of the cloud" any more. one of the reasons is due of my rustiness now. i just feel like keeping silent now. it is increadible. all of my friends say that i am a clubby girl, but not now any more. sometimes i think maybe it is from God's lesson, which requires me to be a quiet and calm person. i don't know. but i am praying for the opening of my voice, hoping God will help me. I just don't like this.