I can't really say how i'm feeling cause i can't find the right words. So i was listening to "Fix You" by Coldplay and i guess that is sorta how i feel. (I know that this makes no sense at all but i don't really care at the moment.)                  

         When you try your best but you don't succeed

           when you get what you want but not what you need

           when you feel so tired but you can't sleep

           stuck in reverse

          And the tears come streaming down your face

          when you lose something you can't replace

         when you love someone but it goes to waste

         could it be worse.....

                                 -Coldplay

Yes , i know i'm quoting coldplay but it is really kinda how i feel at the moment and i couldn't think of anything better to say.