hmm ..

schools a bore

rents mite know bout him =[

not good

gotta lie low for a while

this weekend ;;

gotta spend time with family

rather go to

my friends birthday party

but i cant go =[

gonna cause more questions bout him =[

everything starting to fuck up once again

why cant i just be happy for once in life ??

was i not suppose to be here?

why am i being punished for everything ?

why am i always doing the wrong thing?

when i do something right why doesnt anyone care?

i just want to get away from all the bullshit life gives you

but whats the point of running

gotta face my problems eventually

i just dont know what to do anymore

i dont want things to turn out like last time ]=

so many people are gonna say they can help ;;

but they really cant ;;

they dont know half of the shit i have to go through everyday ;;

most people think i can go out all the time ;;

not true ;;

most people think i never get in trouble ;;

not true ;;

most people think my parents trust me ;;

definatly not true ;;

it seems like i get everything i want ;;

but i have to work for it ;;

and most people dont realize it ;;

alot of people just think im this rich asian girl who gets everything she wants ;;

just because my parents work at nissan ;;

and that i live in a nice neighborohood ;;

yes i do have my own car thats brand new ;;

yes i do have a mp3 player ;;

yes i do have a computer  and the internet ;;

yes i do have a digital camera ;;

yes i do have my own room ;;

but i work my ass off for all the shit i get ;;

and i want people to realize that ;;

sometimes i dont know why i even bother to explain myself ;;

its not like anyone cares =[ ;;

i should just dissappear ;;

its not like anyone's gonna miss me ......