But then again where would all the excitement come in? I guess I am just to the point where I see my life right now and then I see where I am going and I just want to get there. I want to be able to say that I made it. I want high school to be out of the way and get to where I really want to go....but God is holding me back telling me that there are so many more lessons I have yet to learn. I see so much potential for the people around me but wonder if they have the same desire I do...do they just want to stay put where they are or do they actually want to go somewhere? I wonder if they see the world outside their own lives - outside the doors of high school... this makes me want to be a grown-up and a kid all at the same time. There are times when my thoughts seem so simple but come out so complicated.

God has thrown a lot of decisions at me lately and i guess thats why there are so many thoughts bouncing around inside my head right now...i think music/praying/friends are keeping me in good shape ...So here's a song I wrote that might explain me a little better...

What am I

Wakin up with the sunrise hitting my face...

You arms are peace that fill the space...

Rocking me to the sound of your lullaby ...

Wondering why I ever said, "Good-bye..."

What am I but a piece of your endless flow

Of love and saving grace?

What am I but a moment in the grains

Of sand that you have placed?

What am I but a portrait of your love

You painted on the cross?

What am I but a sinful heartknowing

Yo u bled to fill the cost?

What am I?

+ML+

Edit: i made a big mess this time...its time to clean it up...