ok so im doing crappy at the whole updating thing, sorry bout that for whoever reads these. i talked to presto a few days ago!!! that was like the awesomest thing ever. hes visiting for thanksgiving break and im so glad cuz i miss him like crazy. it sucks having a best friend but not being able to talk to him when you just need someone to talk to so i basically filled him in on an entire month of spillage lol. yea, i told him a lot in emails but still...so yay, prestos visiting in a month! sandra, you're hanging with us too:-P lol, you dont have a choice. and meka is gonna make sure she gets her booty down here as well!! and you better not try and make excuses to get out of it lol. we're gonna all go do something. maybe john...:-/ i might as well give into that one if meka and presto insist...even tho the very thought of speaking to him again makes me cringe. its amazing how much i dont miss him but...do miss him at the same time. i mean i know our friendship was just...completely and utterly a disaster and that it probably never even was a friendship ever...but its like...he was in my life for 2 years, we were inseperable for one of them and then it just goes from inseperable to totally ignoring eachother and saying crap behind eachothers backs. and yea he really hated me especially when i starting going out with anthony cuz of certain reasons but then we got over it but then...it was just never the same again. i guess what i miss were the moments we had. like the special things, me, john, and cam in the suburban and cam ripping off all his clothes in the backseat and throwing them up to us lol. or like...our special brownie cake that we totally fucked up. and john is still probably the best hugger ever. but hes changed so much, its unbelievable. i guess thats what a relationship does to someone...yea, this is so confusing to everyone who doesnt know what happened but i know there are people reading this knowing EXACTLY what im talking about so i dont really care about those of you that have no clue.

last weekend was nice mostly. just some ups and downs. friday i had a weird phone convo with anthony, yea it was just very...awkward lol. saturday we fought most of the day until he got to my house to pick me up. once he came to my house to pick me up i was just like "alright, im gonna act like it didnt happen and hope he gets the idea" so it worked. i basically wanted to drop the fight cuz it wouldtn be resolved in any way. but it was resolved yesterday actually which was nice, i guess i needed it more than i thought i did. so we went and met his family up at the restaurant green garden and ate there. lol "you like to be the center of attention in groups" "its the KKK" "shes the only chinese lady with a butt" hehe yea, i could go on but whatever. then anthony drove the whole family home except his dad cuz his dad went to the football game. so we went back to his house and i had to show him this website bout jessican simpson and nick lachey splitting lol "im sure this weekend ashlee simpson will mouth an appropriately sad song on SNL for us" lol so then i told him we needed to go to my brothers house so we went there, anthonys a genius and got us lost cuz he went a different way than i know lol. so we parked the car next to the creek and went on one side of it...realized it was the wrong side and my brothers house was on the other side...so we crossed the creek. ok let me set the scene for yall...it was very dark, like 830pm or something, the creek is empty except for the bottom where theres this big muddy puddle thing all the way down it. basically like a haven for snakes and frogs. where we went down i was thinking "ok so theres tons of frogs right here, there couldnt possible be a bunch of snakes" it was really funny cuz anthony was freaking out!! i mean like...whoa, i could not calm him down cuz hes freaked out by snakes lol. i was like whatever and ran ahead of him. lol and then from behind me he goes "OMG!!!! THERES SOMETHING ON MY FOOT!!" lol i turn around and im like "omg, its a frog" lol it was funny. my shoe got stuck tho so anthony had to fish it out for me. and while he was going "omg omg omg" i was running ahead cuz i had already crossed the mud and was like "im outta here" lol hehe no i didnt leave him, no worries. but yea once we got to my brothers house our pants were all muddy and our shoes were covered in mud as well. lol. so we took off our shoes and rolled up our pants and walked in lol. we had to go over there to figure out something with my brothers computer but werent able to. i dont know if he figured it out yet or not, my mom hasnt heard anything. so yep we left there, no we didnt cross the creek again, that was dumb lol. but anthony did momentarily lose his keys and they were in his lap the whole time...i think hes losing it or something. so then we went back to his house. stayed there for a couple minutes then i had to go back to my dads house. so yep, that was my awesome saturday. then sunday sucked, i worked the whole time. and this weekend will suck, i have to work that whole time too. and saturday morning is ACT. blah. so anyway yep! just letting yall know i didnt die. byez