Tonight I had a mini breakdown. I had to fight back tears all day. I hate being lonely and not having anyone to encourage me. I ended up throwing a pity party for myself for the first half of the day. It is really difficult for me to pour out my feeling to complete strangers, and I feel as though I have to hold everything in since I have no alone time. I guess this isn't a good time to become emotional...I have always been pretty sane. So, when I thought that it was settled and I was going to hate Belmont I decided to get coffee with a friend and it turned out to a big group thing that completely encouraged me. And as if that were not enough I stopped by my neighbors room on my way in and had an even better time. Turns out everyone has been having breakdowns...and there are some amazingly sweet people out there. Thank you God. I'm sure that there are still lonely nights to come, but He got me through today, and for that I praise His name. He is all I need and I am learning that. Until today I didn't realize just how little I actually depend on him through the tough times. Reality checks are no fun...but I need them like crazy. Keep changing me Lord, I want to be all yours...through and through!