When you get a wound, you are usually involved in some activity that is risky in some manner. Your first scratch hurt when you were young and inexperienced. But since you are young, you don't really learn from that mistake. You continue to make the same mistake repeatedly, and after a couple scratches, you do learn from that mistake. You grow older, you get riskier--with more potential to get hurt. You get that first deep wound. You notice that it lasts much longer than the scratches you obtained when you were a child. It takes more time to heal. To protect the open wound, you place bandages over it. After a short amount of time, you decide to take the bandage off. To you, the quicker healing process is worth the risk of jeopardizing the wound...making it vulnerable to infection or more damage. But you continue to find joy in the activity that caused the wound, and it does get hurt again, even worse. Once again the bandage goes on...this time for a longer period of time. After hard times, you see that the wound is almost healed and you are ready to try the same activity once again. The bandage comes off...and everything seems wonderful, as if it may finally be getting better...for good. But a quick end this feeling comes to...for a quick fall you take. Hitting the same part of you, creating a large and very damaged wound. The bandage returns to its residence protecting the wound. At this point you aren't sure as to how much more this wound can take...

I don't know if i can take the bandage off this time...


With all the aspirations for success and prosperity that I have, I have understood that it is specualtion...dreams if you will. Hopes for the future.

One thing that I am certain about is that I know that I can be fulfilled...be successful. Loving another with all my heart will fulfill any desire that I have for success.

That is and always will be enough.

"I am no one special, just
a common man with common thoughts. I've led a
common life.
There are no monuments dedicated
to me. And my name will soon be forgotten. But in
one respect. I've succeeded as gloriously as anyone
who ever lived.
I've loved
another with all my heart and soul and for me that
has always been enough."

::ben