Iono lately I have been feeling like I need something to take care of. To have something to depend on me. And no don’t think about me getting a pet. This feeling is bigger than taking care of a cat (that’s what I have). For a while I have thinking about a baby. I know I’m crazy for wanting on so young. But I’m thinking about me in the long run. I’m pretty close to ugly. I just don’t consider myself attractive due to the experiences I have with men/ boys.

I attract users. Maybe I am too trusting. Then I think I should have never left Super F. At first he made me feel like I was one of the skinny girls. I guess at things got comfortable he started to change. Then I decided it was time to leave (which my mother said was a bad decision and I semi agree). Then I met Osita (ß not the real name . I gave him that cuz he acts like a pussy sometimes). I think I took to him because I had Super F for so long and I don’t like sleeping alone L . Osita in a way was giving me all the things that I was getting from Super F. Osita is how Super F was in the beginning x2. Then the pussy was getting to me so I had to cut off Osita. I met Kricket (this boy looks like he‘s about 12 but he’s 21 and ripped as hell -drools- ). I don’t think I should even count him cuz we just fucked around.

_____________________***will ***finish***later***_______________________

Peace and heart

<3 Keele

Date: 11-28-06   Time: 1:51 pm