Megan Sewak

Social

Relationship Status

Single

College

MTSU

i was thinking

February 04 2007
i dont think it was a right thing to go back out with tyler again... i didnt love him like i did when we first went out... i just feel like i didnt want him and he didnt care... i dont know how to explain it but it's true. i dont feel like i didnt love him and i didnt want to be in a relationship... i dont feel like being lied to again and everything... so now i am going to be single....just for now. and then start to look for someone that i love more.. and someone i can see. and doesnt avoid me. i real do want someone that care for me. and doesnt get on my family and friends bad side. i hated the relationship i was in with tyler cuz i dont know what he could had done to me or anything. this will help me and try to talk to the guy before i go out with them. i cant just go into a relationship and not know the person that i am dating. it's true cuz you need to talk to the person before going out with them and that's what i learned from tyler. i dont need him anyways. i feel happy now i dont feel like someone is lying to me. i feel like i did the right thing for me.. i feel like me again.... so the next time i got to the mall with friends i am going to be looking i feel like i need someone better then tyler and feel like i need someone that cares about me and doesnt plain the future too early. i reither have a guy that wants to work on getting the relationship right  first and then think about other thing after that...not think about having a future at the very begain of a relationship. it's sooo hard to have a relationship like that.... yeah i reither believe my friend and family then the guy that lied to me and havent meet. so yeah. i think i did the right thing and moved on. i was think about it for the past two day and i finally made the decion that i dont need him i need someone that is better. someone who is like me and who would want to meet my family and gets along with  them and my friends. i reither keep my friend and loose the guy that nearly made me question my friends and family. so i am happy that my friends and family are there for me. i couldnt have went through this with out them. so i am happy that got out of it and now i can see other guys and find someone that is right for me. my friends, i know i'll find the right guy, and i know i might not meet him now. i might meet him later in life. and i can be happy when i meet him.... so i want to find some other guy that i can love... and stay with.