I really dont like being the somewhat paranoid type. Every little thing always seems at first glance like something aimed at spiting me, and I respond accordingly, moments later realizing that I'm an idiot.

I dont always like being the emotional type. It means that I tend to blow things out of proportion when my feelings get hurt. That combined with the first one make that pretty darn difficult to deal.

I dont like having been raised to understand a chain of command. Sometimes it goes against my conscience and better judgement to do what comes from above. And that is pretty stressful, especially when I know the right thing. Or when both choices are the right thing but they directly conflict.

Relationships aren't easy. There are times where both parties get a bit ticked off at eachother. Or hurt eachothers' feelings. And that kinda is sad. But ya know what the thing of it is?

I think it is worth every bit of it. At least mine is.

One option is to shut out emotion. But, you see, that is retarded. The other option is to learn to deal. And I think that is what helps us grow up. Growth usually hurts. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger.

You, my dear Kiddo, make me stronger indeed.

You, dear Lord, make me stronger still.

All of you give strength to carry on.