I really don't know what to say. At this particular moment, I'm flooded by every emotion in the spectrum. And a lot hinges on a discussion that I hope will come along tomorrow.

This is sink or swim. Things will either go great or I will lose basically my best friend and their incredible value to me. Everything is a balancing act. And as optimistic as I am, I can't help but wonder if once again something will cause the house of cards to collapse beneath me as it did last night. Record rebuild time, but we shall see.

I need to pray and think and sleep. My final goal would hurt someone. I dont want that, but if the worst case scenario happens, our roles would be swapped, with massive "political" fallout.

I dont know. Prayers always.

I hope that song doesnt strike again like it seems poised to off and on.