Sometimes I like to pretend nothing's wrong until it all starts oozing out of small crevices like some strange diseased chemical.....

I feel pretty helpless when I can't be there for you... when I can't look into your eyes... when I can't make you smile.
Just know I think of you every minute.

My dad always seems to notice when my mind's elsewhere. I think that's why I like to be with him. And the moment he sees it he hands me the phone and tells me to call whoever it is I'm thinking about. We have that connection. *nods*

Being away from everything for so long really gives me a new perspective. It's easier to know what's best when you're not always "in" it. I can look back at myself and see what's right and wrong, what's real and fake. What REALLY hurt, and what was REAL pleasure. My smiles weren't always as genuine as I thought. And my heart was always in the same place, no matter how far away. Sometimes you just gotta let yourself go. Just fly high and look down on the rest of it.