okay i am extremely annoyed right now.

i don't know why this is annoying me, but there is this one person that keeps speaking for everyone.

i am a blonde, but i can't say, " well with blondes its this way or with blondes its that way."  i'm a girl but i can't very well say,''all girls think this way or all girls think that way''.  because i don't know and neither do they.

and anyway, i'm kinda happy now, but pretty mad.  i'm sick of all this stuff.  i don't want it to get to me.  there's so much i want to say, but for once, i can't.  i can't let my feelings out this time.  it's too hard.

(the battery)So I have found that in life there is one person (in most people's lives) that holds the most power. Ever heard the saying "One person can hold the power of 50"? Maybe not because I think I made it up. Oh well, I think it is true. Maybe it is a mom dad or brother. Maybe it is someone you look up to. IF they were to say "I love you" or "I believe in you, you can do it" that could mean more than the whole world saying it. Maybe it is a wife or a husband. A girlfriend or a boyfriend. I know for guys when they tell someone a problem they are having or going through or the way they delt with something, they are are looking for that person to say "well it is ok I know that if anyone can fix it, it is you." We don't want someone to help us, we tend to want to be the leader and be a strong one. Even if we know we need help we don't ask for it. We just screw up and learn from what we did. It makes us stronger. (Maybe I am just talking for myself) but, I find that in life you are only as strong as you make yourself. 

crazy , my head is spinning.

smiling cause you cant see the truth!

looking straight and seeing things upside down!

seeing color in a gray world,

standing tall , but looking down!

They dont understand...

I know the way,

 but something is telling me to keep running.

im on my way to where God holds out his hands,

but i keep falling in every hole along the way.

gasping for the air thats all around me,

reaching for the sky , but not getting very far.

tears falling from my face ,

 i cant catch them fast enough.

falling off the bed , jumping off the cliff!

i cant go on without you dont believe id ever want to!

hold me tight, turn me around ,  pick me up off on the ground!

but you cant see the hole i am in, so how do you give me wings? i know i dont makes sense , cant you make it for me?

I'm supposed to be doing my geometry homework and my English paper due tomorrow, but I really don't want to. So I'll do this to waste time.

 

. last beverage → milk

2. last phone call → keri

3. last instant message → bi from Claire
4. last cd played → Hannah Montan

5. last time you cried → the other day

6. last text message → um can't really say cause Keri's a bad girl j/k lol but really i can't say

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice? → no,i've never even had a boyfriend

2. been cheated on? → no, like i said i've never had a boyfriend

3. cheated on someone? → no see last two
4. kissed someone & regretted it? → no i've never kissed anyone
5.lost someone special? → yeah.

6. been depressed? → slightly

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. brown

2. black

3. yellow

THIS PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. meet a new friend→ don't think so
2. Fallen out of love → not really cause i've never been in love

3. Laughed 'til tears → oh yes 
4. Met someone who changed your life → not really

5. Found out who your true friends were → i've always known who they are
6. Is there something you want to tell someone → yes lots of things to lots of people
7. Have you kissed anyone on your top friend's list→ no, i've never kissed anyone. gosh. how many more of these am i going to have to answer. 
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? → a few on here.
9. How many kids do you want to have? → 2
10. Do you have any pets? → yes 3
11. Do you want to change your name? → well kind of really just shorten it.
12. What did you do for your last birthday? → sleepover 
13. What time did you wake up today? → 9
14. What were you doing last night at 11:30? → trying to sleep
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for? → europe baby

16. Last time you saw your father? → last night
18. What are you listening to? → TV and radio
19. Have you ever talked to Tom? → no
23. Who's / what's getting on your nerves right now? → no one really 
24. Most visited webpage? → P2P alumni, student ambassador website, this, addicting games.com

About you
001. Whats your real name → megan

002. Nicknames → meg, megaboo, megan root(don't ask)

003. Status → single

004. Zodiac sign → pisces

005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary? → Burns
007. Middle School → DMS

009. Hair color → butt ugly brown

011. Long,Short,Medium → medium

015. Are you health freak? → occasionly for like 5 sec.

016. Height → 5'6''

017. Do you have a crush on someone?→ no
018. Do you like yourself? → most of the time
019. Piercings → 0

020. Tattoos → no
021. Righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS :
022. First surgery → i'm pretty sure never
023. First piercing → second grade
024. First best friend → Emily
026. First sport you joined → cheerleading

027. First pet → dog named buddy
028. First vacation→ florida/disney world
029. First concert: → n'sync when i was like 6
030. First crush → don't know

 

031. What are you? → the most beautiful person ever. lol

049. Eating? --> starburst
050. Drinking → milk

052. I'm about to → start working on my hw
053. Listening to → TV and radio

055. Waiting for → my mom to get home

YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids? → yeah i guess
059. Want to get married? → maybe
060. Careers in mind? → photographer, teacher, dancer, anchor woman

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

068. Lips or eyes → eyes
069. Hugs or kisses → hugs
070. Shorter or taller → taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → either i guess
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → don't really care
074. Sensitive or loud → don't really care
075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship
076 Trouble maker or hesitant → happy medium

HAVE YOU EVER
078. Kissed a stranger → no. once again i've never kissed anyone

080. Lost glasses/contacts → both

081. Ran away from home → no

084. Broken someone's heart → don't guess so

085. Been arrested → no

086. Turned someone down → yes

087. Cried when someone died → yes

088. Liked a guy friend → not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → sometimes

090. Miracles → yes

091. Love at first sight→ no

092. Ghosts → not sure

093. Santa Claus → no

095. Kiss on the first date → no

096. Angels → yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → no, and one more time i've never had one
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? huh? whatever.

This made me smile so much.

I just realized he's not calling anymore.

So this survey helped kill the time I spent wasteing it on waiting.

1. last beverage → milk in my cereal

2. last phone call → megan and keri

3. last instant message → idk?
4. last cd played → the one i tried to burn

5. last time you cried → yesterday

6. last text message → none
SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. dated someone twice? → no
2. been cheated on? → no

3. cheated on someone? → nope
4. kissed someone & regretted it? → no siree
5.lost someone special? → yes in fact...they're still here, but it doesn't seem like them anymore.

6. been depressed? → now. heck yes

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. orange

2. green

3. tye dye

THIS PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
1. meet a new friend→ yes and no

2. Fallen out of love → heck no.

3. Laughed 'til tears → yes

4. Met someone who changed your life → lost someone who changed my life
5. Found out who your true friends were → OH YES

6. Is there something you want to tell someone → yes...very much so

7. Have you kissed anyone on your top friend's list→ no

8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? → don't have a myspace

9. How many kids do you want to have? → i don't know 
10. Do you have any pets? → yes like 6
11. Do you want to change your name? → kinda
12. What did you do for your last birthday? → GYMNASTICS WOOT 
13. What time did you wake up today? → like 8
14. What were you doing last night at 11:30? → i don't know...sleeping maybe?

15. Name something you CANNOT wait for? → when i tell that one person what i know that they don't

16. Last time you saw your father? → like 2 minutes ago

18. What are you listening to? → my mom yelling at me
19. Have you ever talked to Tom? → who?

23. Who's / what's getting on your nerves right now? → my mom and various other humans 

24. Most visited webpage? → this

About you
001. Whats your real name → carmen

002. Nicknames → carmel, carmex, lots of other ones

003. Status → single

004. Zodiac sign → sagittarius

005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary? → huh

007. Middle School → dms
009. Hair color → blondey browney reddy

011. Long,Short,Medium → shortish medium

015. Are you health freak? → sometimes

016. Height → 5'5.5''

017. Do you have a crush on someone?→ not really
018. Do you like yourself? → sometimes
019. Piercings → 2
020. Tattoos → none

021. Righty or lefty → both


FIRSTS :
022. First surgery → like 3 years old
023. First piercing → my ears

024. First best friend → matt tiggle
026. First sport you joined → none
027. First pet → ??

028. First vacation→ canada

029. First concert: → leeland

030. First crush → trevor
031. What are you? → i am awesome.
049. Eating? --> ???  what???  i eat sometimes
050. Drinking → i have no clue how the crap i'm supposed to answer that
052. I'm about to → scream

053. Listening to → my mom

055. Waiting for → him...
YOUR FUTURE :
058. Want kids? → sure why not
059. Want to get married? → sure.

060. Careers in mind? → ?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

068. Lips or eyes → eyes
069. Hugs or kisses → hugs
070. Shorter or taller → taller

072. Romantic or spontaneous → BOTH
073. Nice stomach or nice arms →BOTH

074. Sensitive or loud → ??  don't care

075. Hook-up or relationship → relationship

076 Trouble maker or hesitant → in the middle
HAVE YOU EVER
078. Kissed a stranger → nuh uh never kissed anyone

080. Lost glasses/contacts → yeah

081. Ran away from home → no

(082-083 died.)

 

084. Broken someone's heart → i don't think...hmmm

085. Been arrested → no siree

086. Turned someone down → ...no

087. Cried when someone died → Yes

088. Liked a guy friend → oh yes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → occasionally

090. Miracles → occasionally.

091. Love at first sight→ no...like first words, maybe

092. Ghosts → yes

093. Santa Claus →?? sure

095. Kiss on the first date →no.

096. Angels → yes
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yeah...daniel

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → no

099. Bye Bye Question→ ?
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? i don't know...no

it's woooooooo

"Job 1:20 'The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.' lord willing, he hasn't taken you away too long."

Today me and Keri had to be at the school at 10:30 for student council. I thought it was going to be boring considering we had to pick up trash, but it was suprisingly fun. We played some cool game called bulldogs and beetles. It hurts your knees though ,and it's hard to not get out. We are also doing some pretty dang awesome fun projects and fundraisers. After that I went to Keri's house, and we played some cool game that's extremely addicting and I'm going to buy for like 3 hours. Oh my goodness. We went to see the Bee Movie tonight. It was pretty funny. But I think it should have been rated a little higher than PG, but I guess that goes with any kid movie with hidden messages. And p.s to Keri and Jacob: It could happen. It could. It's a dang kid's movie for goodness sakes. So yeah. lol

 

 

 

I don't like talking abou the way I feel. It makes me feel, well...I don't like to talk about it. Someone once asked me if I thought that guys were more emotional than girls. At first I did the typical guy thing. I said "No." Then I began to think about the conversation I was in. And if my answer was really correct. "No." Guys happen to be very emotional about diffferent things. Playing football if we lose there are some tears sometimes. Silly? Not to us. We played our hardest and we did not deserve to lose. It makes us sad. If our sports team is down in the last few seconds and all we need is a few points you better believe we are on our feet yelling during those few seconds. We are emotional about things that matter to us. If a relationship is important to us then we will tell you we love you and we will mean it. If you end that relationship then it cuts so deep the scar effects everything in us. The way we breath the way we think and see. All the way up to the top. We also show emotion, in different ways though. We don't sit there and cry, but we have the strongest urge to flip over the table we are sitting at. We are on the edge if one person says one thing we don't like they are in a lot of danger of us hitting them. If we care about something then we usually make it number one. Of course we care about somethings more than others, most of the time it goes in this order. relationships, sports, family, and well we kinda stop the list there. That does not mean that we don't care about anything else it just means that we care most about those therefore, if we show emotion about anything you can bet that it will be about those. But still I don't think they are more emotional. How girls (correct me if I am wrong) Tend to care about many things. They are evenly spread out. I think that we probably have more emotion just differently set. Guys put it into 3 main things Girls possibly 20 things. That is why when a guy is asked What do you wanna do, or What do you want to eat. He answers I don't care, mainly because he doesn't. Guys will probably just go along with the flow. Especially when it involves one of three things. If we are in a relationship we don't care what we do together, as long as we are there together. It also bothers the heck out of us to not know something about the girl we like.

I guess that was my little  insight on guys for any girl who really cares, or for any guys that aren't really guys. And remember kids,
I am invincible
As long as I'm alive

Hey guys, I haven't put a thought on here in a LONG time! WOW... So hows it going? A lot is going on with me, but i prefer not to put it all on here. Lets just say,

I'm Happy (at times)
I'm HURT (Big time)

I'm Lost 

I'm Liked (and my mom seems to be FREAKING out about it)

I'm Pushing through (But its hard)
I'm Smiling (B/c it makes me feel better)
Yeah thats how i am.

How are you peoples

So today Gray and I ordered his wedding ring, which I got for a steal of a price. Yay!
We're almost down to 6 months and we have our first pre-marital counseling session in a week. It's kind of early, but I think Britt is spreading the sessions out some since we have a while. wee!!
I have also finalized the bridesmaid dress and location of dress.. now to get those ordered and get a list of pictures for my photographer. It's starting to finally get busy!

So tonight was the Fall Festival/Chili Supper at my sis's school. But before we got there we had to stop because my somebody's dog got ran over. We saw the truck that ran it over leavingj, and they didn't even stop to turn around. How could you just possibly leave a dog there dying. But anyway, so the truck ran over the whole back of the dog. My mom said that if he was hurt to badly that they were just going to put it to sleep. Pray that it's ok. I can't stand seeing an animal suffer.

 

So back to the fall thing. It's usually kind of boring cause I have to walk around with my sis and mom. But I asked Keri to come this year which I'm totally glad I did. We had so much fun. I know it must have been hard for her because of the whole left out/burns thing, but I think she had a lot of fun. We won a lot of cool new finger puppets from games so we are slowly building her puppet collection back up. Curse you, lucky puppy stealer! Keri name her cheetah frisky and her monkey dingo. I named mine Habeeb the Monkey and CW (Crusty Wizard) the Cheetah. lol. So yeah. We went in the haunted house. It was actually really scary. People kept chasing us, and this one guy followed us through the whole thing. Kind of freaky. I got my toe stepped on and punched in the face from somebody. Keri was absolutely terrified. Ahh! We won a easy button. Me and Keri are going to use it in geometry. Although Ms. Post might get mad, but whatever cause it's fun to push. So yeah, I should probably get to bed cause I have to be at school at 10:30 to clean for Student Council. Blah. At least Keri will be there. Talk to you kids later.

well, i decided to use Kaelynn's idea and write a seven day journal thing.  this is my first thought; i thought i would share it with you.

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11-02-07

THE PLEDGE

I was thinking one day about things that are really meaningful and awesome that are taken for granted.  Like faith, love, life, and simply happiness.  But one thing that I noticed that not many people would really much care to think about was the Pledge of Allegiance to our flag.  You know, that pledge means so much!  We are free!  Do you know what that flag stands for or what it really means?  Do you understand that lives are being lost every day in an effort to uphold the meaning of everything the flag stands for?  People every day shrug at the pledge and say it in schools as a routine.  It is one of the only references to God left in our schools and one of the only symbols of patriotism.  It really makes you wonder...why do people do that?  They say that they are happy to be in the Land of the Free and the Home of the Brave, and then...they can't even appreciate what the pledge really means.  We ARE one nation and that flag represents that.  We are one nation UNDER GOD.  The flag stands for that, too.  WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL!  The flag means that, as well.  It's an everyday symbol of unity, as well as patriotism and gratitude.  How amazing is it, that our nation has come so far?  It's absolutely amazing.  This has made me totally look at saying the pledge from a WAY different point of view.  Now, when I say the pledge, I say a prayer as well for all the people (men and women alike) over seas and fighting for this country that doesn't fight for them.  I am ashamed that people don't actually get it.  This is a free country, we are a free people, but freedom isn't free.

"I pledge allegiance, to the flag, of the United States of America.  And, to the republic, for which it stands; one nation, under God, indivisible, with liberty and justice for all."

Jarred is graduating from Alert Academy Basic Training on Friday, November 9th.

 

He will be home on Sunday and is planning on being at Dickson First Assembly for Sunday Night Service.

 

Please pray that all goes well for him during these last days of training.

 

He misses all of you very much! 

I have a lot on my mind so i dont write thoughts because if i did a large mob would come after me becausi i would overload Phusebox. And so i leave with this:

♫♫♫♪♪♪♫♫♫♫♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♪♫♪۩שּׂ

This is "It's Been Awhile" by Staind. I like this song because it makes me think of me. That sounds kina vain lol. Enjoy whether you like it or not.

SO i found out. . . . . i have FAMILY in HAWAII

ha its so friggen awesome. She is like a half cousin but she's super cool. I found out she lives like less than a mile away from me :) :) :)

wooow i am exited 

My life has changed a lot in the last year and some odd months...

 

I had broke off a two year relationship because he didnt give me what I had wanted. Then I hooked up with this guy and we hit it off great until I got pregnant*. We faught and argued almst constantly and he would hit me.

 

I thought that he would change and he did until we would fight about something stupid and he would hit me again. I would forgive him and we wuld get all lovey again.

 

But after I had my son, he has changed worse. He goes out to the dance and leaves me at home. And the next weekend he leaves and stayes outside with his amigos and gets drunk and leaves and comes back the next day at eight that morning.

 

I cant stand this anymore. I have decided to leave him. But I need some place to hide because he knos where my friend lives. But I think I will go with her anyway because I can get the police involved. He will try to take my son away from me.

 

He is illegal and has no legal rights to him but I kno him and he will take him to Mexico and I will never see him again.

 

So I think that the police are the best option* because they can put him in jail and possibly deport him.. And that might give me time to move before he comes back. He has told me many times when I would ask him about immagration* that he would just sneak back over the border.

 

Im scared. Very scared for my son.

"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months." -Oscar Wilde

 

So this may seem shallow and stupid, but today's post is about clothes and fashion. Lucky is still a chick at heart and sometimes she feels the need to let it show. I've noticed that recently the new fashion for girls my age is ridiculously familiar, and it really annoys me. Why, you ask. Allow me to explain myself.

 

I was out shopping the other day and came to the sudden realization that all the things I used to wear in high school are now cool and stylish. Now these are the things I used to wear and get made fun of for wearing them. I used to wear kimono sleeve shirts, and I was ridiculed because I looked like I had wings on my arms. Now they are cool and considered cute. Too bad I tossed most of mine when I got tired of them. I'm pretty sure I could still wear some of them. I used to wear zip up sweatshirts all the time. And even pushed the sleeves up. That got me picked on for looking like a grungy dork. I still wore them for the sheer comfort factor. Now they are in style and people think I wear them because I want to be cool and trendy. I'm not a trend follower at all, but that's my label if I keep dressing the way I do.

 

No, Nicole isn't going to change her look because style dictates it. She'll just face facts and be herself.

 

While on this subject I have another topic that gets to me. Again this is brought on by some experiences I had with shopping. I was in the store and noticed these two little girls, maybe eleven or so, and was appalled that their parents let them leave the house dressed the way they were dressed. They were wearing clothes that I've seen on my fellow college students and even then I find them unattractive. Tiny mini skirts with leggings under them, by tiny I mean so short that one false move shows everything. Shorts so short that they might as well not have them on at all and tank tops that showed most of their mid drifts. And I actually saw one of them putting on bright red lipstick. Clearly the message we are sending kids is way off kilter somewhere. They want clothes that say things like 'juicy', '2 hot 4 U', 'your boyfriend thinks I'm cute', and various other phrases that ten to eleven year old girls should not even know. Why don't people think for a change. I want to scream and then start smacking people when I see these little girls dressed in clothes a high school or college girl would wear. It's just ridiculous.

 

And a final note which may or may not be offensive to some one who reads this blog. What it so sexy about a guy wearing girl's pants? Honestly, I don't find the fact a guy can squeeze himself into a pair of tiny girl's jeans remotely attractive. In fact it disturbs me in a few ways. Serious damage could be done to the human body if you do that to it. Does that even occur to them? Or is that what makes them so hardcore? Me, I just want to look at them and shout 'hey, get the hell out of my pants' at the top of my lungs. It is not flattering in the least on a guy to see him shoved into clothes that are way too tight. It's slightly repulsive.

 

Well thats the end of my little rant on clothing and style. If you were in any way offended, oh well, I do not write my blog to be politically correct or fuzzy. I tell the truth.

i got to see my pickin' banjo, fiddlin' player tonight.  yay!  see, a few weeks ago (2) i told him that i knew something he didn't know.  figuring he'd blow it off and forget about it, i forgot about it.  (well, actually i didn't, i still know it.  [someone might know what and who i'm talking about, if not, don't fret.])  and so tonight, he said "okay...so you know something I don't know"  I said,  YEP!  and he said to me...just like this..."You know that's been bugging the crap out of me for two weeks now, do you realize that?"  i know, small thing, but it made me feel all special.  woo.  he actually does remember stuff i say woo!...well, that's my happy little gung-ho moment.  so he asked me when I would tell him and I told him "A LONG TIME...a LLLLOOOONNNNGGG time."  he said, "How long, like a year??"  I laughed and said..."more like 10 years."  but....I think i'll tell him before then.  considering...welll......nevermind.

LOVE HIM

-Carmen-

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!

Garrett and I were walking together on campus earlier when we overheard a guy talking to one of his friends:

 

"I was wondering why so many people were dressed up today... and then I remembered that it was Halloween!"

 

We both started laughing out loud at the same time. It was priceless.

 

Patrick, I hope you have a good day!  

Ha Ha. I am not allowed completely to say what I did but I will laugh at it. Ha Ha *taunting mean laugh* Ha Ha. I did not do something bad just something worth laughing about. Ha Ha. I can't talk about it because it is like Top Secret Vietnam stuff. But I would enjoy it if you laughed with me. So please remark with your own laughter. (trust me you would laugh) Ha Ha. I will use the code "the cat lost his foot" to describe what happend. Ha Ha.

OK so basically, i need a lot of prayer right now. I want to make a decision but i dont know if it is the right won ya know. Its like killing me inside right now so uhm. please pray for me

so i thought i would be really productive tonight and come to the library to work on my homework. bad idea. i've seen 4 people that i know so far and i've spent the whole time talking to the them. but thats ok.

 

and i like to people watch. which is really bad when there is literally like 500 people here in the compute lab.

 

a couple of the guys from the team called me today and we went to the pizza buffett down on the strip. that was a bad idea. i literally ate like 2000 calories at lunch. i was sick. i havent eaten that bad at once in a long time. oh well. it was some good stuff. and it was only 5 bucks.

 

i'm sad, i just now looked to see if my headphones were in my bag, which they normally are, but they arent. it's probably a good thing. i get some work done now.

 

i've really got to get this paper written. i hate not being productive. but i got my literature test back today and i made a 95. i was pretty excited cause when i took it i felt like i hadnt made and A, which was my goal.

 

Amy, i'm pretty sure your the only one that reads this anymore. haha, hope you had a good day!

 

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okay so...i wanna play paintball at the next paintball war and we got everything all worked out with my party and the war and i am so happy cuz i get to play and then, it hits me,

I DON'T HAVE A GUN.

lol...haha.

well, i guess i'll wait...AGAIN.

i havent been as productive as i should of been these past couple of weeks. that includes this current week. i didnt take advantage of this past weekend. but i had a good time hanging out with friends.

 

i'm going to write a paper tomorow. i'll spend the day in the library. i'm just more productive there. i cant help it. i saw my advisor today. i didnt have to, but i wanna make sure i'm doing things right. oh man, i just remembered i have an appointment tomorow to see my business department advisor. hmm, wonder what time that is. i think i have an email, but i dont know.

 

i got to watch a movie tonight so that i can compare the book of huck finn to the movie. the movie was nothing like it. so i have alot to write about. so no problem. i have alot to do this week though. i need to be productive. i may not have time to go to the corn maze wensday night. oh well.  school comes first.

 

i wanna write more, but i got other stuff to do right now, so, another time.

 

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Jesus' response when asked about the signs of the end times...

Luke 21:7-19 

7"Teacher," they asked, "when will these things happen? And what will be the sign that they are about to take place?"

 8He replied: "Watch out that you are not deceived. For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am he,' and, 'The time is near.' Do not follow them. 9When you hear of wars and revolutions, do not be frightened. These things must happen first, but the end will not come right away."

 10Then he said to them: "Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. 11There will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.

 12"But before all this, they will lay hands on you and persecute you. They will deliver you to synagogues and prisons, and you will be brought before kings and governors, and all on account of my name. 13This will result in your being witnesses to them. 14But make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. 15For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict. 16You will be betrayed even by parents, brothers, relatives and friends, and they will put some of you to death. 17All men will hate you because of me. 18But not a hair of your head will perish. 19By standing firm you will gain life.

 

Ok, so why do I post this passage of Scripture and what am I not concerned about? Well, I'm not concerned about global warming. Period. It does not frighten me in the least bit. There is scientific reasoning for this (check out this article) but as you see above, there is also Biblical reasoning. As I read that passage last night it made me think...

 

It really isn't all that uncommon to hear outcries about the end of the world coming. Whether it's a religious group declaring a prophecy or Al Gore claiming global warming is going to get us all, you hear outcries that our time is short. And that's true, it is. However, no one predict when exactly the end is coming and we can have assurance that it's all in God's hands. 

 

There are lot of things that will be happening before this time comes. There will be wars and natural disasters, which we do see now. We are not given any indication of how long we must endure these, just that "the end will not come right away". But it does note severe persecution is also on the horizon before the end times. In my opinion, that's a little bit scarier than a few ice caps melting. 

 

But there is hope: "By standing firm you will gain life."Now that is a promise I can stand on, unlike the claims of men. 

Tonight I went to Cracker Barrell's to eat with my

grandparents. Over the past few years I've really started to notice how much I really like being with my grandparents. You would think that seeing them every day after school since like as long as I can remmeber, I would have realized that sooner, but I like being with them just me and them. I love hearing about all their crazy stories and all the stuff my grandfather has gotten into. (Mostly because he's really noisy.) We were talking about what I want to most do in Europe (since they've been to London), what I liked best in Australia (since they've also been there), and just about all their vacations. So I've decided I want to write a book about all their past experiences. I don't want to forget any of it after they're gone. Some of their stories are so funny, and we always end up talking about them whenever family gets together, which is pretty much every day of my life. So yeah, how has your weekend been?

 

Oh yeah! I got my Student Amabassador book for Europe yesterday. They are kind of different then last year, but I like it. I'm so excited I can't wait. At least I have something to look forward to to get me through freshman year. Me and Keri are giong to have so much fun. Yay! I just wish Carmen and Sydnee were going. THEN ... it would a total blast!

Yeah...totally.

i'm extremely ticked right now.  i have not been this mad in a while, let me tell you.  Last year, I had my birthday party hoping that it would be fun and everyone could come.  BUT there was a stupid retarded paintball war on the same day, 'coincedentally'.  Well, HOW IS IT ON MY DANG PARTY DAY AGAIN???  I don't know if any of you will really care about this thought since I don't think I'm inviting anyone on here that's going to the war anyway...but...I'm mad.  (Well, If grace goes, that's someone...)  BUT I don't think It's fair that I have had to work around everyone else's schedules for stupid paintball when there is a whole year that you can play (except when it's freezing.) BUT a birthday comes once a year.  It's not cool with me and I am sick of that!  CHANGE THE STUPID WAR.  I have no other options, and it's making me really mad.  It's a very frustrating thing when there is a month (less than, actually) until your bday and you have to re arrange your schedule because SOMEONE ELSE'S plan interferes with your own.  GRR.  okay i'm done.  not really but o well.

okay for all those people that say that i will never play paintball.  you WERE wrong.  YOU ARE WRONG.  they got me to play yesterday, but we were short on stuff like CO2 and ammo...so...then mr. Steve-man got there and I had to leave.  I just thought it would be fun to tell you people (one in particular...Austin) that all it took was one time of Deven and Chandler asking me (Chandler's so cute I couldn't say no.) and I said sure why not sounds fun.  So i'm gonna.  WOOO GO ME. 

P.S. They didn't have to shoot themselves in the foot either.  lol ha

"Give up, give in, surrender, forfeit, they all mean the same. It shows weakness, and lack of hope. Keep your head strong, and fight for what you want if its worth fighting for."

It was awesome talking to you tonight!!! It made me think of the good old days! :)  I'm praying for you and I love you. And miss you. : ) And we are totally going to play on tractors on when you come and take a bunch of pictures too.

 

To the rest of you, call tyler. period. end of subject. no arguing.  

I am back from camp!!!  wow that was a lot of fun :).

Im pretty tired now though, i got soccer try outs in a couple hours. i hope i make it

 

well i  found out,

i am sad a lot of the time. . . or well people think i am. at least 20 times a day people would come up to me and ask why i am sad???

i really dont know the answer. I do its just im not sure that is why i REALLY am sad. . . if you know what i mean.

i think i am turning emo and im not joking about that. im acting it i guess 

I've been so tired lately. I never get any sleep because I'm always doing homework or projects. The crappy thing is that after you finish one thing, another thing comes up so you don't have anytime to recoup. But I guess I would be tired anyway because I'm always tired. I would sleep all the time if I could. My mom thinks I might have diabetes, but I will not take shots no matter what. I don't care if I get sick. I hate needles. They scare the heck out of me. I don't really know if I'm going to the game. I want to, but I also don't feel like leaving home. I think my parents might be getting divorced soon. This morning my dad was being really mean to my mom, and she started crying. She said that one of them has to go cause she can't handle it anymore. Please just pray that everything works out. I mean I love my dad, but I honeslty think if they do get divorced everything will be better. At least I have God, my friends, and dance to help me. So yeah, I think things wil get better. Hopefully.

Ok well this has been on myspace for a few days just tell me what you think.

Why is it that I am having trouble swallowing?

Why is it that I am having trouble breathing?

I know why I don't want to.

Why is it that I am having trouble thinking of You.&Me. as just that?

Why is it that I am having trouble thinking of not saying those three words to you everyday?

I know why I want to.

Why is it that I am having trouble understanding why it is this way?

Why is it that I am having trouble when only ten minutes separate our voices? 

I know I need help.

Why must I be so terrified of everything? 

Why must I screw things up?

I have no clue

Is there anyway I have the strength to pull You.&Me. Out of this? God knows I want to.  

Is it those three words that got us in that deep?
Or was it that one action of just that?

Is it your blue eyes that drug me in too deep and drowned me?

Is it the fact that I have no clue what to do?

Is it the fact that you were the warmth in my bones that pushed me?

Is it the fact that I screwed up everything else in my past that it was only natural for me to do it now?

Is it the fact that there is only one thing I dream of when I finally go to the hell I call sleep, and that one thing is what saves me from the monster I call myself?

Or maybe is it just the fact that those three words are I love you?

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness;

and to goodness,

knowledge;

 and to knowledge,

self-control;

 and to self-control,

perseverance;

and to perseverance,

godliness;

 

this is really amazing verse, i get a verse of the day in my email inbox, they are really good, if anyone wants to sign up for it its free, & its really amazing how much it can impact your day!!! :)

I have no Idea what to do on this site....anyone?

I heard this on the radio yesterday, & i thought it really applied to the situations i get in, & the situations im still trying to get out of,  God mustve knew i needed it! :)

its really good....

 

 

It takes a little time sometimes

 To get your feet back on the ground

 It takes a little time sometimes

 To get the titanic turned back around

 It takes a little time sometimes

But baby youre not going down

It takes more than youve got right now

Give it time

Whats this walking thru my door

I know Ive seen the look before

 Sometimes in faces on the street

Sometimes in the mirror looking back at me

 You cant fix this pain with money

You cant rush a weary soul

 You cant sweep it under the rug,

now honey It dont take a lot to know

 (chorus)

 Now it may not be over by morning

But rome wasnt built in a day

You can name this thing a thousand times

 But it wont make it go away

 Let me put my arms around you

 And hold you while you weep

Weve been talking and talking Im sick of this talk

 And its nothing that wont keep

 (chorus)

No you cant fix this pain with money

 You cant rush a weary soul

You cant sweep it under the rug

now honey It dont take a lot to know

 (chorus)

I think you will like this.

ON HYPOCRICY and BEING HYPERCRITICAL:

The definition of being hypercritical is criticizing much (too much).  It's telling others what they should be doing and what they aren't doing well.

Hypocricy is criticizing or saying something that you yourself don't do. 

So, I came up with a quote today.  Here it is:

"Being hypercritical often leads to being hypocritical."

What I mean is that if you go around criticizing every little thing wrong with every person, eventually you will find something about you that you tried to fix on someone else that you need to first fix on yourself.

Sorry if I confused you, but that was my smart thought for the week.  LOL

MOOD: HAPPY :)

Life has taken a way different course then I thought it would. Ha its kinda craZy to think about it, everything I thought would happen has changed. (And I think it might be for the better) I’m still trying to figure it all out and when this whole 3 month thing is up, a LOT will be different.

I’m happy for once. Its not like a happiness for a few minutes...or a day...I’ve been happy pretty much all week. Yeah I’ve had my ups and downs (who doesn’t?) But things seem to be looking up for once. I might not have many friends (other then you peoples that I talk to on the computer) and my life might be falling apart slowly. But I have found some new peoples I like hanging out with at youth (they might be Seth’s friends but they hang out with me and they seem to like me..they make me laugh so that’s all that matters) I’ve learned to wake up with a smile and forgive and forget. Its something I have wanted for so long....and now that I have it, it seems unreal.

~Ace~

Sometimes I wonder when I'm ever going to get off this roller coaster. It's like one of those rides that fool you - it slows down enough for you to think it's over and just when you begin to relax it starts up again. Up the hills, down the hills, around the circles you go... again. You want so bad to get off but there's no emergency exit - just the long fall down. You either stay on the seemingly never ending, nauseating, terrifying ride or you get off - falling to your inevitable death.

I don't want to fall, but I want so badly off this ride - is there not some other option??

As of now I simply wait - ride it out holding on to my Support, white knuckled knowing I'm safer the more I hold onto my Protection.

Until the day the ride stops. It's over. You look back and realize you did it. Satisfied.

going to camp for freshman at our school for the next 3 days. so i wont be on at all. i know this isnt a big thing but i thought i should tell you people. For real though. people that are going do like drugs-n-stuff so uhm i need some prayers this weekend :) that would be great!!! uhm i guess i will talk to you people later

I figure since this is the second time its happened(& second time its been a false alarm) its time i figure out a game plan!

      Since i live right in the middle of nowhere, and im also often left to babysit, and since i also have a wild imagination..... i need to think of a plan if someone was to try and break in the house, & im with the kids what to do.....

last night we heard someone bang on our door

Where i messed up::

*instead of checking to see what it was , i stayed in my room, and brought the kids in there

* instead of thinking logically i thought like a mad woman!

*instead of getting out of the house , and getting away i locked us all in one room

* instead of reassuring the litle kids its okay, i was like " We are All gonna die!!!!!  & if you touch my stuff , ill kill you before the person that kills us all will."

 Heres the Plan!!!!

 if there is any reason to assume someone outside in trying to get in , or someone is the house with me! 

i can

A. check it out, and figure out why i think that

b. or go straight to next procedure

which is ....

A. get the kids, and slip outside the opposite way i assume the other person is

b. Grab the phone and get the kids lock them in the bathroom

and  next step is

 Get me and the second oldest child with me( the first oldest besides me must watch the kids) and check around the house , in the house!!

& if everything is okay we go back to what we all go back to what we were doing!

 but if there is reason to believe someone is there ,but i dont see them personally  we will stay hidden & call the parents

If i see them , we call 911!:) and i find some useful weapons!

  hmm.... thats the plan , we might have to practice a little ... if anyone else has any pointers that might be useful feel free to share...

& id like for everyone to think up a plan for there benefit too.

So, I went to the dentist today because my teeth are shifting from clenching them and because my mouth is so small. And she said that I will probably have to get braces. : (

 This makes me sad. I don't want braces. But I guess I will join Tyler and Grace and whoever else have braces. Oh drats.

  

What do a wooden key, a squash, and a cubed ottoman have in common?

 

Well, they're all going to be in my next video project: a music video, Michael Johnson style. 

 

My group has to use an excerpt of a song called "Sunset Passion", recorded by some RIM students. It's pretty cool, but it sounds sort of like African tribal music. Not that there is anything wrong with that, but now that's all I can think of. I need to think outside of the box... but thankfully I have two creative guys on my team with me. I'm excited about working on this project...

When I get sad, I stop being sad, and be awesome instead. True story.

Just when you think you've got it all figured out, there's always a twist in the plot.

 

i've been having problems with my roommates. we havent been getting along. in reality, they just dont like how laid back i am. but all thats for another post. we've been getting along lately.

 

well one of my roommates told us this morning that his mother is dying of brain cancer. she might die within 2 weeks, or if the radiation works she could live for another 6 months. ya, we havent been getting along, but, we're still good friends. we're all on the rowing team. we're pretty much a big family. you should of seen the look on the guys' faces this morning at practice when he told us about it. it came as a shock.

 

please keep his family in your prayers. i know that his family isn't really religious. i know my roommate isnt anyways. i dont know how i'd make it through a time like this if i couldnt turn to God.

 

other than that, things are going good. School and all. please keep me in your prayers as well. not having alot of christian friends around me is hard for me at times.

 

-piece

Yeah I have a lot of songs that I want to share with you guys so I think I am going to pick one a week and that will be my song of the week for you to enjoy.

Nathan and I just moved to Nashville on Saturday. We are getting all settled in. I am way closer to work and everything is going very well. Today I was trying to get some more stuff put away. I went down to the basement to put something away and came back upstairs and noticed little Sophia eating something. It was blue and smelled sweet. I had no idea what this was and neither did Nathan. I was dreading the worst and looked online and confirmed that fear. It was indeed rat poison. The owner must have left some and of course Sophia had to find it. I immediately took her to the vet right down the road which is only about 2 minutes away. I took her in, and the lady was on the phone. I waited patiently-- but was screaming on the inside. I pulled out the rat poison explaining she had eaten some. She told me the vet was too busy to see me. Yes. You read that right. "Too Busy" to see my dog that had ingested RAT POISON- that really bad stuff that can make your animal bleed to death. She recommened that I go to the vet down the road. Hmmmm. Whereas I appreciated her recommendation, I did NOT appreciate them not seeing my dog. This to me was ridiculous and extremely rude. Being new to Nashville, I do not know my way around very well yet. I drove about 10 minutes in the wrong direction. I was stressing out. Time seemed to be flying pass me. I finally arrived at this other vet clinic. Thankfully they saw me immediately. They indused vomiting. Poor little Sophia. She looked utterly pitiful. They gave her a shot and told me to keep an eye on her. We are back home, and she is resting and seems to be ok. I talked to my mom that works at a vet clinic back in Murfreesboro and said that it sounds like Sophia will be ok. Time felt like it was moving so fast and so slow at the same time. I was so scared. I am so thankful that I saw her eating it and was able to get care rather quickly. I can only pray that God will keep her well. I don't know what I would do without my best friend. She is so wonderful. 
Whew. I just want to curl up and rest. This afternoon has been crazy. I hope that everyone else is doing very well! I hope you have a wonderful night!  

What if...I said to him I've loved him all along?

What if...I said to him he was the only reason I believe in love at first sight?

What if...I said to him I that I think he's amazing?

What if...I said to him "I love you"?

What if...he said it back...

the less you say the more powerful your words are,

the more you say the easier to understand!

the less you say the wiser you may sound,

the more you say may make you look effecient in conversation

but one word can mean a lot more than sixty.....

the world's problem many times is not speaking up, its shutting up! :)

 

How are you? Check this out.

 

 

www.myyearbook.com/steven_ambrose

ok I have a video on my page its under my favorite music. . . you can

only see like half of the picture but i dont really care about the video the song is friggen awesome lol

well enjoy :) 

Your Guy Side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt[sometimes].
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own/ed an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[x] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to high school football games
[ ] You used to/do collect football cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x]Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth/ sometimes with out known
[x] Sleep with your socks on at night/ sometime if it's cold

Total: 15

Your Girl Side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss/stick.
[x] You love to shop/ sometimes
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You wear the color pink/ sometimes
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry/ sometimes
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] Were u in gymnastics/dance?
[ ](minus make up and hair)sometimes It takes you around/ more one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[x] You love the movies.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
[ ] Like being the star of everything.

Total: 10
Repost this as I have ___ guy traits and ___ girl traits

Current mood: curious

This can't be the same thing I have done before. But it feels the same. It does not look the same or really there is another sense that is not one of the six ones. Another special one. I am not sure what it is. But that one sense that is the same as everything I have ever done before. I hate it. I am almost scared. I think that is the reason I feel it. Maybe this time when I was going I got over my head, or maybe it is that feeling that you know you have never been here before but everything looks so familiar. Then you get kinda dizzy. I am lost right in that feeling. Spinning in circles not know what to do.

Your Guy Side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt[sometimes].
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own/ed an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to high school football games
[ ] You used to/do collect football cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] I like green and blue.

[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth/ sometimes with out known
[ ] Sleep with your socks on at night/ sometime if it's cold

Total: 11

Your Girl Side:

[x] You wear lip gloss/stick.
[x] You love to shop/ sometimes
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You wear the color pink/ sometimes
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry
[x] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] Were u in gymnastics/dance?
[x] Sometimes It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[x] You love the movies.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
[x] Like being the star of everything.

Total: 22

 

 

 

Your Guy Side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[x] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt[sometimes].
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[x] Shopping is torture.
[x] Sad movies suck.
[x] You own/ed an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
[x] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to high school football games
[ ] You used to/do collect football cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x- i like green and blue...]Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth/ sometimes with out known
[ ] Sleep with your socks on at night/ sometime if it's cold

Total: 14

Your Girl Side:

[x] You wear lip gloss/stick.
[ ] You love to shop/ sometimes
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[ ] You wear the color pink/ sometimes
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] Were u in gymnastics/dance?
[ ]sometimes It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[ ] You care about what you look like
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[x] You love the movies.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[x] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
[ ] Like being the star of everything.

Total: haha 7

 

WOW thats sad...i only got 7 on the Girl side ! haha

So yeah my camera doesn't take amaZing videos BUT hey Carmen did AmaZing

you guys ready, ha ha only 7 and a half weeks until i get to come home. Yeeaahh i am so ready. i made it 3 months already

just two more

WOO :) Tennessee here i come 

So I went to my sister's game tonight. They ended the real season undefeated, and only 2 people have scored against them and those two were only 6 points. The cheerleaders won third place at competition, but they got disqualified because they didn't have backspots for PONY-SITS. But whatever. I'm still proud of my sister. She's becoming the little cheerleader I was. Hopefully she'll make the team though when she is in middle school, unlike me. :-(

 

I also had my interview for Europe today. For some reason I was a little nervous, unlike last year. Maybe because being an alumni, I have something to live up to, and I don't really feel like I do. I just can't wait till next summer. Me and Keri are going to have so much fun. Yay! I just wish Carmen was coming. And mabye Sydnee. Yeah, deff Syd. She's so much fun and so HILARIOUS! So yeah, I should get some sleep. I didn't get to sleep till like 1 last night. My little sis had a sleepover for her b-day. There was like 7 little kids running around all night. At least it's better than last year. There was like 12 last year. I had my homecoming shirt on, so all the girls were like Megabella come do a build with me, come make up a cheer, show us your dance, blah blah blah. But yeah.

so...tonight was SOOOO fun!  for like, the first whole half of the farm fest, me and Grace were SO bored.  so, we sat on the fence and called people.  Then, I went up and sang and that was when all the fun started.  We went downstairs to this theather thing (in these people's house) it was so fun!  we played pool (by we i mean me and Grace and Chandler and Ross) and we just kinda hung out.  Then, we went BACK outside to the pumpkin carving table and we met my NEW fave set of twins EVER!!!  (Dallas and...er...Dontana.  Well, his real name is Dakota but I like Dontana better.)  They are kick-flippin-awesome.  They play golf and they were making me laugh so hard!  I haven't laughed like that in a long time.  I told them all my friends were mean and none of them were funny.  Well, tyler and grace and keri are funny.  Some of the rest are just cool.  But most of you are mean people.  And YOU KNOW IT.  BUUUUT anyway, I love singing.  and that's about all.  I love carving pumpkins and I love beans and ribs.  YUM.

  Well homecoming was fun! but we lost. 14-21 they took a touchdown away from us too.. or something like that/ i escourted someone on the football field.. which was fun and cold. and i took soooo many pictures.. the sophomores came in third in everything our float was way better than the others... shrek was cool.. in the skit i was lord farquar it was fun! our skit got messed up.. :9 ill put a video of it up here later and some pictures of me and my girlfriend allison... yeah life is great..

 

                    CLASS OF 2010

Have you had one of those feelings that everything is going so right that it can't be really true. You just wait for it to end and then it does and you realize why it seemed so good. Or you were just fooled and believed it was good until you were crushed and devestated?  There is something going on that seems so good that tastes like a lolly pop flavored like a mirical. The taste it leaves in my mouth and that lingers on my lips is indescribable. I have been a fool too long to change my ways. I have already accepted that it must be true, even though countless times I was proven wrong. Must I fall into the same trap again? Or is this time for real. I find me pinching myself sometimes just to check. I don't wake up and I feel the pain. So it must be right?  Even if it was not real I don't think I would change a thing. Like I said I have been a fool too long to change my foolish ways. Maybe this time the fool will be proven to be a genius. Just for taking one risk. Is that what it takes to be considered a genius? Making so many mistakes and risks that finally one turns out the way you want it and everyone remembers you for it? Or is it just not giving a crap what anyone thinks and following your dreams. It seems that I have done both. So I must come out as something this time.

My parachute didn't open
and when my back up failed
the pixie dust prevailed
and i woke up next to you
all i wanted was to hold you

a reminder every once in a while. its hard

Ok, so i went to Triple F last night. It was pretty fun. I felt a little out of place b/c i haven't been to BHSE for like 2 years. But we had a hay ride..that was pretty fun. (although quite cold) And i lost my voice at the end of the night. But yeah that was my fun thing for the past few days.

So i'm happy :) :P :) :P :)

Its going to be a FANTASTIC saturday :)

Well you know those things that you really think are right then you turn around and are so glad that you didn't make that move? well Yeah that happend to me. I was so sure that there was something up. Something I had to say. When I should have realized to sit down and don't say a thing. Even if you do something that is too late, at least you did it. I think. Right? Well I learned to hold my tounge and I am glad I know how and when now. Pray that I use it.

here's a song about our winged friends.  i was rolling on the floor with laughter (well not really, but close) when i heard this song.  it has really made me see owls through new eyes.  i respect the wonderful creatures

(no really this is just to annoy grace and make you laugh)

so....if there's one little thing i'm excited about in my life, i would have to say it would be...the farm fest tomorrow!  I get to hang out with one of my bestest friends everer...(Grace) and i get to carve pumpkins.  plus i get to see Chandler...i can't look at that kid without smiling!!!  he makes life fun.  oh and i might be singing. 

 

but anyway.  this guy wrote me a note today that said "do you like brown guys" (William Darden) and i had to say...sure, but not like that.  sorry.  THEN him and his little fun friend Joe had to sit with us today and THEY CRACK ME UP!!!  BUT they embarrassed me.  Austin Marlow said hi to me and i said HE IS SO HOT (directed toward Hallie) and they over heard so they said "HEY AUSTIN Carmen says you're really hot!" and I turned SOOOOO red!  Then, they said, "Carmen, do you think chase is hot?" and i said no so they said (actually yelled...both times) "Hey CHASE Carmen thinks you're ugly!!!!".  but i laughed anyway.  i hope he doesn't think i think he's ugly.  he's not.  not saying he's hot.  but he's not ugly.  THEN (yes, there's more.) they were asking like everyone if they thought me and hallie were pretty.  and almost everyone said yes.  there was this one guy that gave this whole speech about how his opinions didn't matter and he thought he didn't know and blah blah blah.  but yes, for the most part, people think i'm pretty.  which makes me feel good because most of the time i don't think people think that.  and i don't think that.  so yeah i had a little ego trip.  but it's over...:)

HOW WAS YOUR DAY

(it's my pet peeve if you don't answer....answer me.  thanks luv ya much)

~Pooch E.A.~

Okay today I approached a man at our school who had a booth, a "service" booth. I asked him how his day was and we got ti talking, and he was telling me about his Life in the NAVY.  And we talked about the benefits for college, and about how you can build a type of courage and strength. So I've figured I should join the NAVY. So I'm thinking about it, and it would fit into my future, that and I have alot of plans that this could benifit from. So I'm a bit exicted. Alright then. That's what I figured you should know, and I can start training at 16. Which will be my Senior year. Yay! : )

Oh yeah! I go to AMK (Academy of My Kitchen) haha yeah so i made a swet-shirt! Now people dont have to ask me where i go to school :) haha well it makes me happy :)

The Bassist 

 

you are high strung due to a sensory overload: from flashing lights, the touch of the crowd around you, the smell of pyrotechnics, and an all out assault upon the eardrums by a carefully orchestrated combination of crashing instruments. You can hear the high pitch solo of the lead guitar as the guitarists nimble fingers fly up and down the fretboard, the synthesizer of the keyboard as the pianist walks back and forth with a precise melody, the crash of the cymbals and the roll of the toms as the drummers arms wave about in seemingly reckless manner along with the 1 2 punch of the kick drum emphasizing each and every roll of the song. You can hear the dirty tone of the rhythm guitar as it moves throughout the crowd. However, with the exception of the kick drum, all of these sounds are exclusively heard. The other sound that you are experiencing is mostly better felt than heard. You can feel it filling your chest as well as any surrounding void with an incredible beat, a beat that almost seems to be exclusively driving your heart, pumping adrenaline throughout your entire body till you can't stand to think that it will stop. This is the Bassist

 

Im going to cwood homecoming tonight!:) & im meeeting Austin up there. I cant wait to see all my friends..... i see angela a lot more than him,but i still even cant wait to see her, and i hope more than anything i can see Raleigh & Brett! & woody & Darren & Travis & Hannah & Laura & Natilee & OH kristin & EVERY body else! lol.Court says its packed so, i mean ..... what if i cant find them at all! that will be sad.

im pretty excited right now!:)

lastnight i went to youth group at my church (DFA) for the first time.  i have to say even though the music needed much work, i could tell that the people up there had a heart for God and just wanted others to see it and follow.  Then when the pastor's wife, Janet came onto the stage, i felt as though she were talking to me.  she said that there were people there lastnight that have a need that needed to be met.  i'm praying God will meet it soon...before I go crazy.  i've been hurt pretty bad this last little bit of my life and i need prayers pretty dang badly.  this is not a "he doesn't like me" hurt, it's deep.  i NEED healing.  that's my need.  please pray

Yeah so right now I am kinda pissed off and I don't really have a reason I have just been kinda on the edge lately. Just ready to jump at whatever I need to. There was a fightish thing in the lunch room. Someone said my best friend was talking about their mom so he shoved him onto the table and my friend came back and pushed and cocked back his fist then I jumped in and stopped it. I was worried that he would get in the fight and if he did I would jump in and then a lot of our friends would and I don't want a bunch of people getting kicked off the football team so I just  stopped the fight. But then at football Our coach took Jordan Wood to the side and asked him about the fight. Coach was like what happend. Jordan said the guy pushed me. Then coach was like "Well did you push him back" Jordan said "yeah I pushed him back" then coach said good cause I don't want no pu**y as* line backers on my team." But I really don't post things like this saying how I feel I really don't like talking about how I feel. Not like I don't cry or nothing because there are times that I do, I just don't like talking about my feelings but this is whats going on. I just thought the coach was funny

You know i feel when you dont know how i feel that i know she knows, but you dont , and you cant , but you want to know, but you dont know that i know,but we both know you dont know that we know, or do u know that we know ? hmm. i think you think i am tlking about you but you dont know that i know i am not making any sense ... but HEY its just whatever.

<3

Well, I knew it was coming. I knew that Michael Johnson would rip my first project to shreds, which he did. I guess I can be comforted that most everyone in my class was in the same boat as me and we all took some hard hits.

 

And...

 

After two semesters of making these videos, we haven't improved much. 

 

And it makes me wonder...

 

If we ever will.

 

...

 

I guess it's awfully pessimistic of me to think this way. Of course we're improving, and will continue to do so. It's just much slower than I want it to be.

 

And I don't understand how these big names got there. How long did it take them? Were their first projects as crappy as mine? I don't need to be a big name, I just want to make a professional looking video.

 

I don't want to be like all those guys on YouTube. I want to do better.

 

I don't mind being criticized for things I could control, like camera shots and such. But just one thing I wish MJ would consider...

 

I don't have a professional crew.

 

Or sets designed for me.

 

Or professional actors.

 

Nor very much time.

 

But I am determined that by the end of the semester, I can turn in a project with confidence, and that he could find more good in it than bad... something I can be truly proud of. And I guess that's exactly where he wants us to be.   

The Alert Academy unit that Jarred is in will be starting a 24 hour hike today at 6:30 A.M. They will hike 50 miles carrying a backpack with 40 pounds in it. Please pray for the Recruits to gain tha strength that they need from The Lord and for safety, good weather conditions and a safe trip back to the campus.

Yes, my sister is now engaged. It actually wasn't that big of a shocked that she did. But still, I'm not sure that I like it. I am going to be in the wedding. I just think it's strange that my big sister is actually going to get married. Wow! She is getting married. Her ring is really pretty! But yeah, I'm going to put pictures at the end of this if it will work. : )

 His name is Jason. I haven't actually met him yet. But, will probably sometime soon. I have talked to him one time on the phone. He seems nice and ray says that he treats her good. Which makes me happy. 

photo from a_shining_star


photo from a_shining_star

I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.
Is it over yet, in my head?
I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.
Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.

This will be all over soon.
Pour salt into the open wound.

Is it over yet? Let me in.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you.


I'm waiting, I'm praying, realize, start hating.


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you

Ok, so i took this whole slide-show thing from Megan but hey its fun to put together so..i did :)

of the apathy of here......you really dont care & your blogs are ALL Pretty much how bored you are, & how you have nothing better to do.... it takes a boring person to be bored!! i just thought you guys should know ..... yall are really DEPRESSING! me! not tlking to everybody or anybody in particular .. just saying. ....... ......

i backed into a telephone poll tonight. i cant even begin to say how mad i was at myself. but i'm good now. i was ok with it like 5 minutes after it happened. but it still sucks big time. oh well. i throw some pics up here later.

 

hope everyone is doing great out there.

 

i was just thinking.  I havent heard from Nathan in a while. Or his fabulous wife Rachel. where are ya'll two?

 

piece

1. Honestly, how many people have you had strong feelings for?
like uh 1 really strong feelings, the others were just like crushes

2.Honestly, what color is your underwear?
green (and i prefer to call them boxers)

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
uh this thingy and Grace and school

 

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
nope not any more, i just tell myself that i am

 

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
ha yeah my World History teacher was like yes Alexander the Graat thought he was a god yet he died at the age of 33. I shouted but Jesus died at the age of 33. then he said well i guess everyone dies. I said what about Enoch, he never died. My teacher kinda shut up lol

 

7. Honestly, do you watch THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR ?
. . . no sir

 

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?

I have no reason to be

 

9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
Grace, and well thats about it nowadays

 

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
yes sir

 

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
nothing to hide

 

13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to tesco?
uhm idk

 

14. Honestly, are you mean?
sometimes.

15. Honestly, who did you copy and paste this from?
Carmen.

16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?
hmm Tennessee sounds good to me

 

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
contradictory to Carmen Love is real. idk see why you would say its not. yeah i love someone

 

18. Honestly, what was the last text you got and what it says DO i want to go to a movie from Dalton

 

21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
idk maybe

22. Honestly, do you shower?
uh yeah thats kinda nasty if you dont

 

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
no
25. Honestly, ever made anyone cry?
yes. i hate it but yeah

 

26. Have you ever cried over someone?
yeah

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
uhm a couple of moths ago

28. Honestly, have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeah

29. Honestly, have you kissed someone of the opposite sex this week?
no. lol

30. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged or kissed someone in front of your parents?
i have hugged people but never kissed

 

32. Honestly, are you normally a happy person?
hm not truly

 

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
people. im not gonna say because if i do you people will just do it to annoy me

 

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?uhm yeah

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself?
not all the time

 

36. Honestly, are you annoying to people?
mhm i want to stop

 

37. Honestly, is cheating acceptable?
is this a real question???

 

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
no

 

39. Wish you could have something or someone?
idk i kinda want someone but yet shes already mine. lets say i want to be with her

 

40. Honestly, are you a relationship person?idk what that means

43. Who is the last person you hugged?

Dalton

 

44. Are you lonely right now?
uhh sorta

For some reason I like doing these things when I have nothing else to do. I guess I must have absolutely nothing to do.

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1. Honestly, how many people have you had strong feelings for?
one, but it not who people would think. i'm pretty sure the only 2 people who know live a hour or so away.

2.Honestly, what color is your underwear?

they have dinos on them. j/k lol

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
wanting to see friends from australia trip

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this and thinking.

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?

occasionally i do, but most of the time no.

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
um, well, i don't think.

7. Honestly, do you watch THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR ?
i've watched it once

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
a little possibly

9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
dreaming about stuff that would never happen.

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
yeah, actually about five or so people.

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
yeah, but mostly just embarrsing stuff.

13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to tesco?
um, don't quite know what that is.

14. Honestly, are you mean?
sometimes i guess i am, but i feel bad about it later. it's usually around certain people though.

15. Honestly, who did you copy and paste this from?
carmen.

16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?

in australia this summer having fun.

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
yeah, but once again not who people think it would be.

18. Honestly, what was the last text you got and what did it say?
one from keri, and it said 1 7(best friend and partner in crime.)

21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
i guess.

22. Honestly, do you shower?
no. of course i do. what kind of question is that?

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
i wouldn't say so.

25. Honestly, ever made anyone cry?
yeah, but i felt really bad about it.

26. Have you ever cried over someone?
yeah... a lot.

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
probably a month ago.

28. Honestly, have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeah...a lot.

29. Honestly, have you kissed someone of the opposite sex this week?

oh yeah you know it. lol

30. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged or kissed someone in front of your parents?
um, never. well i guess you could say a friend.

32. Honestly, are you normally a happy person?
um, i guess.

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
when people are talking about something, then they won't tell you.

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
yeah.

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself?
half the time.

36. Honestly, are you annoying to people?
yeah, i would say so.

37. Honestly, is cheating acceptable?
no, but that doesn't mean it's hard not to do it.

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
my sis.

39. Wish you could have something or someone?
yeah, a few things.

40. Honestly, are you a relationship person?
i wish.

seems to be no question 41.

43. Who is the last person you hugged?
my mom.

44. Are you lonely right now?
no...maybe a little lonely cause no one's in my room.

i got nothing to do...so here goes nothing.

 

1. Honestly, how many people have you had strong feelings for?
i would have to say 2

2.Honestly, what color is your underwear?
haha i'm pretty sure you dont need to know that

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
School, School, and some more School

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
taking this

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?

thats what i'm told. But i'm not vain about it

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
How could i? I have been doing school since i got out of bed

7. Honestly, do you watch THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR ?
No

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
nope

9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
Well its a close race for that one.... its between Tyler and my horses. Ha

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
Doesn't every one

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
nope...i dont like secrets

13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to tesco?
who-co?

14. Honestly, are you mean?
when its needed. but i mostly just mess around

15. Honestly, who did you copy and paste this from?
Carmen Pooch E.A

16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?
I would have to say, riding my horses or at the beach

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
i would have to say .. "yes" ..

18. Honestly, what was the last text you got and what did it say?
it was from my mom and it said "Call me when your done riding"


21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
Yeah

22. Honestly, do you shower?
YES! thats just nasty if you dont.

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
no, why should i be...

25. Honestly, ever made anyone cry?
sadly to say..yes

26. Have you ever cried over someone?
yeah

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
...probably March 28th

28. Honestly, have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yep

29. Honestly, have you kissed someone of the opposite sex this week?
ha no

30. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged or kissed someone in front of your parents?
lol never

32. Honestly, are you normally a happy person?
yeah..well i try to be

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
..people that talk bad about you behind your back

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
yeah

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself?
Yep Yep

36. Honestly, are you annoying to people?
probably so...but no one has told me *yet*

37. Honestly, is cheating acceptable?
No

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
yeah

39. Wish you could have something or someone?
no not really. I've got everything i need, at the moment that is

40. Honestly, are you a relationship person?
..uhmmm .. i'm not sure what the question is but hey i'm gona say sure b/c i feel like it...so  SURE

(question 41 was stupid so I erased it! mwa ha ha ha!)

43. Who is the last person you hugged?
i think it was ..... Sarah ... i could be wrong

44. Are you lonely right now?
not really...at lest not at the moment

 

i'm really bored!  so here goes nothing.

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1. Honestly, how many people have you had strong feelings for?
like 3...but loved one and one only

2.Honestly, what color is your underwear?
you need not know that, thank you!

3. Honestly, what's on your mind?
Austin and school and my birthday

4. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
this...and supposed to be doing homework..but i don't want to.

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?
negatory

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
yes...hehe

7. Honestly, do you watch THE GIRLS NEXT DOOR ?
UH no...no thanks

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
no, not jealous.  not quite...more of a...well, i don't know how to describe it

9. Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
my friends...and austin...and horses

11. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?
UH DUH

12. Honestly, do you have deep secrets?
no i'm cool

13. Honestly, when is the last time you have been to tesco?
who-co?

14. Honestly, are you mean?
well i guess i can be...we'll just call me honest.  (thanks kaelynn)

15. Honestly, who did you copy and paste this from?
Kaelynn the Kidd..lol

16. Honestly, where would you rather be right now?
anywhere but here...like maybe...out in some big field sleeping under the stars

17. Honestly, do you like someone?
love, yes...well, if love is real, and this is real, then it's love.

18. Honestly, what was the last text you got and what did it say?
I DO NOT GET TEXTS...grr


21. Honestly, have you gone out of your way to make a new friend?
not out of my way...but i might push someone out of my way and make a new enemy?  lol

22. Honestly, do you shower?
um...yeshh...who doesn't.   oh wait,  i know the answer to that question.  lol.  i won't say any names!  ;)

23. Honestly, are you desperate?
no i am most certainly not

25. Honestly, ever made anyone cry?
yeah i have...they cry with joy when they see me cuz i'm so cool like that

26. Have you ever cried over someone?
oh yes every single day

27. Honestly, when was the last time you REALLY cried your heart out?
um...like yesterday

28. Honestly, have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes in fact i have...

29. Honestly, have you kissed someone of the opposite sex this week?
no me no kissy

30. Honestly, when was the last time you hugged or kissed someone in front of your parents?
well...um never.

32. Honestly, are you normally a happy person?
um not really...used to me...not any more.  but i'm kinda happy.  mostly in the middle

33. Honestly, what makes you mad?
people that are RUDELY opinionated.  I respect opinions.  but when somone wants to come back at me on every little thing, it get's pretty freakin annoying.

34. Honestly, does being with your friends make you happy?
most of the time yes.  except ...nevermind.

35. Honestly, do you believe in yourself?
um.  i guess i do...i believe in myself, yes.

36. Honestly, are you annoying to people?
yeah prolly...BUT WHO CARES WHAT PEOPLE THINK

37. Honestly, is cheating acceptable?
no it's lying.  and sometimes stealing...either way it's not cool

38. Honestly, have you hugged a girl this week?
yeah.

39. Wish you could have something or someone?
SOMEONE WAY TOTALLY

40. Honestly, are you a relationship person?
uh i'm confuse-ed

(question 41 was stupid so I erased it! mwa ha ha ha!)

43. Who is the last person you hugged?
i don't member....oh MY SARAH!!!

44. Are you lonely right now?
sorta.  but i'm kinda at my house with my geometry book...so i am lonely

but there's strength in numbers hahahahaha...okay that was really corny.  lol

Do you ever really get over something or someone? Does it ever get any easier? I feel like even though I say I'm over something, I'm really not. Maybe it's not quite as a big a part of me as before, but I just wish it wasn't a part of me at all anymore. But it just seems like if I give up on it, everything good that went with it will go away too. I don't know. Maybe it's just me, but I hate being sad over nothing.

this might be a tad bit depressing.  prepare yourselves.

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"Time...moves like a snail with our impatience.  And races like a gazelle when you can't catch your breath."

-From the incredible movie, Simon Birch

 

I was once asked what the thing I treasured most in life was.  I had no answer...my answer now would be Time.  When I want it to go by, it creeps so slowly it feels like the world is standing still and when I wish that for one second it would slow down, it moves too fast for me to even think.  I try to grasp the moments in time that mean the most to me, to hold on to them forever.  But, in time, they slip away and I can't seem to stop them from doing so.  I try to regain consiousness while the whole time my mind is spinning in a whirlwhind so fast I couldn't stop it if I wanted to.  I wish to go back in time...to that one moment I know I'll never see again.  That one moment when I was in your arms...that one time I said I loved you...and that one time you weren't who you are now.  I wish to go back in time and change who I feel like I made you become...even if I had to relive all this.  Sometimes I wish I had more time, to maybe stop all this before it goes way too far.  But I know that I can't change destiny.  If this is destiny...I wish to be out of time.  Time is the most precious thing...worth the most...coveted the most.  Missed the most, and taken for granted the most.  I took our time for granted.  I wish, I so wish, for them again.  I want you to hold me one last time.  I want to hold your hand if only for 2 more seconds.  I want to see you look at me through sincere eyes.  I want more time...more time with you.

      

K, so i got a layout. It's really weird and rather scary, but I love it. Something about the eyes.......it just seems me, witch showes once and for all how strange I am. The words are kinda hard to read. It says:

Open my grave and let the sun shine in.

I am just a lost soul.

Help me to grow, show me the way to your heart.

Oh, can’t you see I’m dying.

I’ve got  no reason to be proud, drink the water around me before I drown.

 

 

Ok, so i officaly love transition to high school cause when we finish our work we can do whatever we want!!!! So I'm here with you kids!!!!!!! Idk what to say. I havent been here 4 so long, there is too much life to catch up with!!!! I started writing in a journal again, i didnt realize until right now that it was my replacement for phusebox. Weird. So now i haf to figure out how to get a layout. i guess ill go have fun with that.

Yeah I am not sure anyone really realizes how boring 2nd block is. LIKE REALLY BORING. But I guess I am having fun just screwing around on the internet. Everone else is playing games or looking at dickson pepe rally pics. I am really thirsty I want a coke even though I hardly ever drink them. Ok well peace. Oh I am not sure why I posted this I never post things like this. It is weird.

so, Pretty much this story Starts off with the hansome Prince who refuses to help a poor old raggedy lady, she pleads with him to help her, but he again refuses, then this helpless raggedy image turns into a beautiful woman, and she cast a spell on this self obsorbed prince, He becomes a Beast, & as we know he has to find someone who love him with his ugliness, and he must learn to love before the last petal on the Rose falls off. not far off ,a beautiful young girl feels lonely and misunderstood:: she reads books, and She daydreams about getting out, getting a better life, & maybe meeting a prince.

     A series of unfortunate circumstances occur, which allow them to meet, she becomes his prisoner.after a few days this beauty starts to see the real person in this Beast, & manages to fall in Love.

    Meanwhile the Beautiful girls Father goes to the local hang out, 2 gather a group, to save his daughter that is trapped with a beast. the ignorant and manly Gaston is upset that the beautiful girl isn't interested in him. When her father claims she trapped with a beast, Gaston sees the opportunity to have him committed to a mental hospital, thereby forcing this girl to marry him.

But the beauty comes riding in, and proves there is a beast, and the townspeople decide to "KILL THE BEAST." of course, it doesnt work out,The beast & his castle wins in the end the Beast becomes beautiful because he learned to love. And they live happily ever after.

    Are You willing to Help others? The handsome Prince's character was tested when he was given the oppurtunity to help someone, and he blew it.So he was made the beast he really was.Our Character determines our real beauty, not our body. the beast was a self obsorbed hansome prince Remember. When he became ugly he became bitter. he was ugly all along, though.

Unlike the Beautiful girl, She saw the beast's outward appearance no doubt she thought he was horrifying. but she saw the beauty from the inside out, not the outside in. Thats how we should look. So Are you the beauty or the beast...?

Smile...

Its Gona Be A Good Day, Naaa Its Gona Be A FANTASTICLY AMAZING Day!

so over the break i put up a picture up on myspace of Grace. . .

funny stuff i tell you.

some of the comments i got on it were funny, but most of all like 5 guys came up to me and they were like ho man your girl is soo hott.

lol i wanted to get mad, but i was like hey they dont "know" her so all i could do was laugh. then later

this girl came to me she was like ho tyler when you gonna break up with her?? gosh its been like what 2 years. dont you get tired of her

 

i say NOPE lol :)

i love you Grace 

 well last night i got back from south carolina and georgia for a family gathering this.. but it was an experience b/c i didnt know that side of the family well my step dads side..

 

    Homecoming...

     wow im soo stress out on the float and the skit.. the sophomores theme is shrek.. but idk its gonna be good if we can pull it off.. which we will.. my hands hurt soo bad from rolling all that paper.... huhhhhhhh but yall come down and see the floats on homecoming night.. lol