Life's pretty much messed up right now. You see, I haven't been with God for a while. I've seen my world becoming a mess, and yet I just kept on with the way I was living. I thank the Lord that I didn't do a certain and devastating action. Last night was the end for me. I was at the lowest I have ever been in my life. I tried to go to bed, but I knew that I needed God. I got up, grabbed the Bible, and began to read. It calmed me, and I prayed that God would help me to sleep. Right after I said those words, I fell into slumber. I had so much on my mind that I would've been up all night. Everything just hit the fan last night. My best friends have left me. They were misinformed, and don't want to continue friendship with me. I guess they weren't really my friends if they would do that. I'm so confused. I've made so many wrong choices lately. I think I will be returning home in the spring, try to fix myself. Right now, I just want my mommy. I'm 19, and I want my mommy. I don't want to talk about anything, I just need her to comfort me. Hold me, tell me everything will be okay. I've lost everything.