Bleh..... bad night, but it was all made better by talking with my lovely friend Katerina. I  LOVE living in Elam Hall now as compared to Fanning Hall....it's much more uhm nice and plus my two really good friends that I've made are in this dorm so I am loving Elam.

But yeah, my bad night is just me and my silly worries and obsessing about what guys think of me and all....it's just that I wanted so much to be able to meet some nice guys that I could become good friends with as well. I mean I have never really had a close guy friend ever.  And well of course, things are the same as highschool in that part of my life and it's getting me down. It's making me think there's something wrong with me...which of course there has to be. I mean I obviously am doing something wrong to turn guys away from being friends with me.
I mean I understand I'm more shy, but seriously I have plenty of friends and that is no obstacle for them and they have made guy friends and have had great boyfriends easily, no problem. And well me, it's just there are no guy friends, no guys that like me like that that I am interested in and it gets me all depressed. I know I shouldn't worry or focus on this but still, it's a constant struggle.

THAT and I have to do well on my psychology test tomorrow or else I don't know what I'll do...I am doing poorly (and by poorly I mean very poorly) in that class as it is right now, so I DON'T need another bad grade at all. aaaah, all of the stresses and worries college....it stinks!!!

oh well, this too shall pass.....I have to remember that.

-Kaylei