so today...was...boring.

i havent been feeling too well for a few days and today i really wasnt feeling good. ohh well..

hmm pretty sure he confuses the heck outta me. one day..he's super amazing..and saying the sweetest things..but then the next day..its just like.."oh hey..its you.." idk whats going on..but i wish i knew...

Sometimes it feels like he doesnt care at all...like im just there..then other times..its as if..im the only thing that is in his life..i dont understand whats going on..and i dont think he knows either. but if he doesnt figure out what he is gonna do soon...idk what im gonna do... :(

maybe i should just give up and go on..itsnotlikeanythingisgonnahappen. it hasnt so why keep putting myself through all this confusion...maybe its just me...maybe im too impatient...but maybe if i move on w/ things he might finally realize that he should have been paying attention...maybe what jimmy said was right... im too high
maintenance...maybe thats whats holding him back...idk..but i really wana know whats going on.

there are so many maybe's and what-ifs going through my head right now. I have no idea what is the best thing to do. I could talk to him, but then he might get mad. idk. im lost..

have you ever just gone outside and layed on the ground and looked up at the stars??..its so amazing and sometimes i just wish that everything was that peaceful instead of all the drama of "boyfriend stealers" and "back-stabbing friends"..stars are my love

so today was DBS...it was like forever long...ive got so much stuff to do...Genna's box, chris' poster and kelly's poster...charity..mtsu games...so yeah..there's my life...DBS, school, dance, dance team,

so i guess im done..i love you..

_kels