got my hair cut today 

  went grocery shopping and some fat old lady laughed at me. 

  i'm so sick of people it's not even funny. 

  i'm sick of wasting time and energy on hating them though so i just walked on by whereas a week ago i would have told her to shove it up her fat ass.  at least i don't weigh three hundred pounds. 

  you know what? let them laugh. 

in the end God's the only one that can judge you and he will take care of things. 

  but i will never understand why people are made to be so closed minded. 

  if they don't believe in it then surely it must be wrong. 

  if you don't look or act like everyone else then surely there must be something wrong with you. 

  you know what? 

  I'm so sick of adults trying to force their thoughts, their morals onto me. 

  all while they blow each other up on foriegn soil. 

  as we were told growing up, as we will one day tell our children "don't fight. violence is not the answer". 

  why do they tell us this and then turn around to fight a war? 

  it's the same basic princible. 

  no matter what you say, it's still violence. 

  and i'm not trying to sound like a tree hugger or anything. 

  because i'm not. 

  i don't know what i am. 

  i don't even know where i stand on my thoughts of all this. 

  just stop trying to teach me to be fucking righteous when you can't even control your own pathetic little worlds. 

  i don't want your war.