Save the date! Save the date! Make no plans on January 5th, cause I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!

So what makes a Christmas the best Christmas ever?  Getting engaged!!!!!  WOOHOOOO!!!!!  Merry Christmas to everyone :)

So Carla totally put this up and I figured I'd do it too.  What the heck, right?  I have plenty of tunes on iTunes, so I guess I'm a good candidate.  Check her blog for the rules.  Basically, you just start you iTunes on shuffle and hit next after each category.  Here goes...

Opening Credits
My Love--Justin Timberlake (don't laugh)

Waking Up
Little Sister--Queens of the Stone Age

First Day at School
Blue Orchid--The White Stripes

Breaking up
Lose Control--Missy Elliot

Happiness
Let Forever Be--The Chemical Brothers

Life's Okay
Misfit--Elefant

Mental Breakdown
Wandering Stars--Portishead

Driving
Dollars & Cents--Radiohead

Flashback
Something in the Way--Nirvana

Getting Back Together
Get Up--Ciara

Wedding
She Blinded Me with Science--Thomas Dolby (will not be played during my own wedding, I assure you...maybe at the reception, though)

Birth of a Child
Kid A--Radiohead

Final Battle
Where's Your Head At--Basement Jaxx

Death Scene
Novacane--Beck

Funeral Song
Our Faces Split the Coast in Half--Broken Social Scene

So Long  
Date with the Night--Yeahyeahyeahs

So I should totally be working on my 10-15 page research paper right now, but alas...I am not.  My brain is just about fried after spending 4 hours searching online for research articles and getting...you guessed it...no results.  My eyes are blurry.  My back hurts.  So I said to myself...what do I never do?  I never write a blog.  So what am I going to do?  Write a blog, of course.  My life has never been as crazy as it is right now.  From family crap to working at the hospital with a ridiculous amount of responsibility to studying my freakin' butt off...it just doesn't get much crazier than this.  I guess I shouldn't say that or I will have more thrown my way.  All in all, my life is pretty excellent.  Even though I just made it sound like total crap.  I really feel good about where I am right now.  I'll feel a little better when I'm walking across the stage receiving my degree at graduation.  My one beef for the day?  Thinking about the friends that I used to have that don't care to talk to me anymore...and for what reason?  Quick survey...how many people find it incredibly rude when someone replies to your email...that you sent personally to them...in a blog entry.  Well, I find it incredibly rude.  Nothing screams "why would I want to talk to you?!" more clearly.  That's my one vent for the day.  So, I guess I better get back to this research junk that I've got going on.  We are at t-minus 40 hours to deadline, folks.  Later gaters.

So generally...we all know I'm not a blogger.  Take a look.  I haven't blogged since christmas and none of my blogs have been more than like 5 words.  Actually 4.  Sad, but true.  The truth is, I don't blog because I typically don't feel like I have anything to say to anyone that I haven't already said.  Or what I have to say is not something I want you people to know.  No offense.  Well, now I finally have something I want to say to everyone because I am so excited about it.  I recently finished the book "Blue Like Jazz" by Donald Miller.  When I finished, I felt like the 500 pounds I have been carrying around for so many years were lifted.  I'm not gonna try to give you my favorite quotes from the book because I would just be basically copying and pasting at least 75% of it, and let's face it.  You can go buy it yourself.  I just want to say that I am so glad I read it because there are so many things that so many people have always made me feel guilty about feeling, in regards to christianity.  And it's like God gave me the urge to read this book I don't know anything about because I was letting everybody else convict me of things I was allowed to feel.  God wants me to question him.  I am allowed to doubt.  True belief cannot come until you have raised the question "But does it really exist?  What if it's not true?"  Disbelief makes you realize why you believe the things you believe.  It becomes personal and not just philosophy.  To be honest, I feel Jesus removed all the dirt from my eyes that either I had placed there or that others had put there for me.  I can see better and that feels good.  I'm not going to go into it, but the person who is reading it now is the person who needs to read it the most.  And I can already feel the winds changing.  I have an excitement built up in me that I can't explain.  And when he is done, I will pass it on to someone else so that God can use it to lift their load, whatever it may be, as well.  I am forever greatful to God for Donald Miller, and when I get to heaven, maybe we'll have a meet and greet luncheon and I can find him and we can talk.  And that's all I have to say about that.

Christmas time is here...merry christmas everybody :)

i am sad.