It's kinda cool to have a blog that no one ever reads.

It's like I can vent without the worry of being judged.

It's kind of a relief, you know? 

Life gets hard sometimes.  And you just feel like you're so close... but every time you reach out and try to grab what you're chasing after,  it just slips through your fingers...

I guess I'm in one of those spots...

It's even harder when you don't know why you feel so empty.

It's like you've been working so hard to get all of these things, but somewhere along the way, you lose the one thing that is most precious to you.

So, who ever is listening,

I don't know where I went wrong.

Or how I ended up here.

I almost feel stupid for pouring out my feelings to a computer screen.

But, right now, this is the closest I can get to a best friend.

This city is full of people, but none of them are my best friend.

I guess that might be a huge chunk of why I feel empty right now.

I'm missing that intimacy with a person.

One person.

Any person.

It's just finding that person who is willing to listen without discrimination

and to love without reservation.

That's the hard part.

And I honestly don't think that anyone could replace my best friend in the world, who is currently halfway across the world from where I am right now.

And I miss her.