I GIVE UP! i have tried everything to make our situation better..but whatever i dont care...

So we have to come a point in phusebox in which the teachers have decided "hey! i dont think i like what those children are saying!" So i guess i need to make sure i dont slip up and say a dirty word..pft. So i might never write on this thing again soo that sux..but,anyways whatever those teachers dont even know who i am...well they probably do now...haha well i hope they like the information they got...haha shyeah well anyways im going to go do something bad muwahahaha (JUST KIDDING!!) dur dur dur!! Well i better go later, -Walker T. Boone jk......Step Rad

I think im sick.. My glands feel like oranges on the side of my neck I took some tylenol last night...but, i woke up and i felt worse..i didnt want to stay home..because my grandma (step-dads mom) passed away last night, and my step dad is flying out today to Minnesota...so i just went to school and hope that i get better.. i think i need some hugs!! Yeah i went to church last night with my best friend Ashlee..I got to see one of my old friends Kenny!!! Yeah it was awesome. But, yeah last night was pretty kick butt but, spending time with one of my best friends is always fun!! I love you Ashlee!! Anyways im going to my dads friday morning and staying there til sunday..so i fend to have a great weekend, and i hope all you guys have a great one too!

Hey people!

So I just read my last entry and obviously i have forgotten how sad i was those couple of weeks..but, im not any more! Shyeah i am back to being me. Haha i laugh at those so called mature kids..or want to be mature.. Why grow up so fast??? Who wants to be old anyways? Anyways im going out with the cool - est guy ever, and im really happy!!

Blink-182 "Dysentary Gary

Got a lotta heart ache
He's a f***en weasel
His issues make my mind ache
Want to make a deal

Cause I love your little motions
You do with your pigtails
What a nice creation
Worth another night in jail

He's a player, diarrhea giver, tried to grow his hair out
When friends were listening to slayer
I would like to find him friday night
Hanging out with mom and trying on his father's tights
Life just sucks, I lost the one, I'm giving up she found someone
There's plenty more, girls are such a drag

So all you little ladies
Be sure to choose the right guys
You'll come back to me maybe
I'll shower you with lies

Got a lotta heart ache
He's a f***en weasel
Decisions make my mind ache
Want to make a deal

Ease away the problems and the pain
The girl chose the one guy who makes you want to kick and scream
All along, you wish that she would stay
f*** the guy who took and ran away

He's a player, diarrhea giver, tried to grow his hair out
When friends were listening to slayer
I would like to find him friday night
Hanging out with mom and trying on his father's tights
f*** this place, I lost the war, I hate you all, your mom's a w****
Where's my dog? girls are such a drag

hmmmmm

i have not wrote on this this thing in a while...i have been quite busy, ive been quite agitated lately too......Valentines day always sux for me and this year it was a slap in the face....i dont know exactly what to do....i should just leave fate take the wheel of my life...i hate everything that has ruined my so called life...but, i can either dwell on everything and be weak..or just get over it and be strong...But, everything that is happening is becoming unexpected....i hate this.....

later Steph

Blink 182
Pathetic






I know I'm pathetic, I knew when she said it
A loser, a bum's what she called me when I drove her home
There's no more waiting and sure no more wasting
I've done all I can but she still wants to be left alone

You got, you got, you got to help me out
And I'll try not to argue
No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out
Mistakes are hard to undo

Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, but I'm the same and I'm wrong
Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, this is where I belong

I think it's disgusting, believing and trusting
If I gave a fuck there would be nothing for me to prove
Although it's amusing, it's slightly confusing
I've done all I can but her ego is still hard to move

You got, you got, you got to help me out
And I'll try not to argue
No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out
Mistakes are hard to undo

Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, but I'm the same and I'm wrong
Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, this is where I belong

Don't pull me down, this is where I belong
I think I'm different, this is where I belong

Box Car Racer

"i feel so"

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I would try
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not i

’cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over
Let’s start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could leave
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

’cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over
Let’s start over

’cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over
Let’s start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let’s start over
Let’s start over

Hey hey hey!

Wow just got done taking two midterms it  sucked ass! Its funny cause in the beginning of the test you try your best but, it starts going down hill from there it seems. But, anywayzzzz i slept with my stereo last night (not in that way you perv!) Because i came home from going to church with my awesome best friend Ashlee F. But, i was too tired to even fix my bed and get all my stuff off of it ummm like Erica haha jk. But, x-mas is coming around the corner and we got the stuppppppidddd x-mas tree down. I hate getting it down from the attic! But, shyeah i will be going to my dads like the day after x-mas and will be staying there for the rest of the break. So yeah the only thing i am stoked about is going to my dads and sleeping on my comfertable bed.. haha yeah..

Dude i am sooo buying this!!

Steph to the rad!

Mark Hoppus!!!!!

Blink 182
Dumpweed

It's understood, I said it many ways
Too scared to run, I'm too scared to stay
I said I'd leave, I could never leave her
And if I did, you know I'd never cheat her


But this I ask, it's what I want to know
How would you feel, if I should choose to go
Another guy, you think it'd be unlikely
Another guy, you think he'd wanna fight me


Chorus :
She's a dove, she's a f*cking nightmare
Unpredictable, it was my mistake to stay here
On the go, it's way too late to play
I need a girl that I can train


I heard it once, I'm sure I heard it twice
My dad used to give me all of his advice
He would say "you gotta turn your back and run now
Come on, son, you haven't got a chance now"


Repeat Chorus 2x


Need a girl that I can train
Need a girl that I can train
Turn your back and run now
You haven't got a chance now


Need a girl that I can train
Need a girl that I can train
Turn your back and run now
You haven't got a chance now

Sup you guys and gals?

Well just sitting in here listening to blink-182 "stay together for the kids" Sad song but, its great. So nothing has happened..umm lately OMG the best song ever by 311 is "beautiful disaster" Heres the lyrics yah this is def my song!

311
Beautiful Disaster

Today seems like a good day to burn a bridge or two
The one with old wood creaking that would burn away right on cue
I try to be not like that but some people really suck
Some people need to get the axing chalk it up to bad luck
I know a drugstore cowgirl so afraid of getting bored
She's always running from something so many things ignored
I might do that stuff if it didn't make me feel like shit
I'm on some old reality tip so many trips in it
Beautiful disaster
Flyin' down the street again
I tried to keep up
You wore me out and left me ate up
Now I wish you all the luck
You're a butterfly in the wind without a care
A pretty train crash to me and I can't care
I do I don't whatever
I know a drugstore cowgirl so afraid of getting bored
She's always running from something so many things ignored
I try to be not like this but I thought it'd make a good song
There's nothing to see shows over people just move along

 

OMG this is the bass that i want!!

Hey people

So this weekend was pretty rad...you could say..Well i am completely ungrounded and i can start using the phone...So a lot of things went on with my sister over the weekend...Lets just say the cops showed up. Right now i have no respect for her and i dont really care all that much for her anymore. She tried getting me in trouble this weekend by bringing up Erica but, i threw the same trash in her face. And she backed off. The new 311 cd is friggen awesome. Thats all i listened to this whole weekend. OMG I saw Jennifer this morning drove up in some big suburban and rolled down the window and said whats up? But, it was really suprising. It was funny cause she spinned her wheels when she drove away..she tried showing off. Haha i sorta miss riding the bus with her on it...just because the ride home was little more exciting. haha but, anyways i made a new song on my guitar. its pretty cool. But, dang i soo want this guitar! Its Tom Delonges signature series!

Yes kick ass!!!!!!!!!!! Its only $2,199,00!!!

I better start saving up!

Steph Rad

Dahm i love them gilmore girls!
So anyways sitting in the library not doing much...supposedly researching haha losers! jk but, anyways today has been good HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!! (My sister) So anyways i am ready for my dad to come get me  soon....i hope he has that job by then!! But, anyways so i guess i do need to do a little more for this person that i cant name....maybe i havent been doing my best..I love them to death though and they should know it...i just wish that they could see it through my eyes ya know? But, wow i am not stupid ERICA!! haha jk so anyways i am going to give a shout out cause i am black like that!

Andrew- you are the bestest friend anyone could ever have and i love you to death!!
Erica- you are soo friggen awesome and you know i wish i could say everything!
Sam-dude your the sister i never wanted haha
Lind-z-i know we dont get along but, i still love you!
Ashlee-Dude you are the killer and you are the cooliest BFFE!!!
Ashley-you need to go to the mall with me!
 
so i didnt write all the people that i wanted to talk about but, i love you guys!!

Steph to the Rad

Hey you losers!

Hey guys so anyways the chair is fixed!!!! Wow today has been good and all but, reall really cold!!!!!! Hmmm i miss some people like really bad even though i will see all them next period! But, i am dying for some coffee right now! But, anyways i couldnt get to sleep last night...i kept falling asleep and then waking up getting pissed cause my dreams were getting good! HaHa anyways so me and Andrew keep getting into quarrels (small fights) because he thinks i am ditching him when in all actuallity i am trying to make sure he doesnt get in trouble by lind-z  by, either talking to him to much or anything else she doesnt like.. But, he knows i love him to death (AS A BEST FRIEND!!!!) So anyways i have got to go do something stupid like dream of coffee.....

 mmmmm haha

Hey guys

Im sitting beside a retard (Ashley Gentry) And she just broke my computer chair and we just fixed it! nevermind she just broke it again! But, anyways while she is fixing the chair i will write about how my days been..hmmmmm so far so good...nothing bad is going on yesterday was horrible everyone obviously wanted to be killed by me...but its all good so far today..but, i am def hungry and need a taco! Anyways i will put some more lyrics on here!!

Blink 182
Mutt

He pauses shaving and he tells himself that he is the bomb.
She has her curlers set,
her credit cards are paying the funds.
He's not that old,
I've been told a strong sexual goal.
He goes out every day,
she goes every way, oh yeah,
And they don't even care at all.

She's open, waiting for more.
And I know he's only looking to score.
And it is way too unhealthy,
often they've typically,
been starved for attention before.

She smokes a dozen,
and he doesn't seem to notice the smell.
He took the seat off his own bike,
because the way that it felt.
He wants to bone,
this I know,
She is ready to blow.
They go out every night,
his pants are super tight, oh yeah,
and they don't even care at all.

She's open, waiting for more.
And I know he's only looking to score.
and it is way too unhealthy,
often they've typically,
been starved for attention before.

Hey!! Guys!!

So thanksgiving was sorta good.. but, i got all my stuff back from being grounded!! Except the phone so please hold.. anyways dude i am soo hungry right now!! I need a taco.. So shyeah i have been having these cravings for tacos ever since this one incident! But, wow i dahm i have been listening to blink 182 all friggen break!!  So shyeah i missed everybody and all that sappy stuff but, ya heres some blink 182 lyrics!!

Blink 182
Anthem

Home show, mom won't know
Run out the back door,
he's passed out on the floor
Third time, been caught twice
Forgive our neighbor Bob, I think he humped the dog


Chorus :
But good things come to those who wait,
'cause she laid me
And mom and dad possess the key,
instant slavery
No need to explain the plan,
no need to even bother
I'll pack my bags, I swear I'll run,
wish my friends were 21


White lies, bloodshot eyes
Breath of alcohol, stole it from the mall
How's Chris marked with lipstick
Better call their fathers,
sleeping with your daughters


Repeat CHORUS


You don't belong, you left the kids to carry on
You planned their fall
Too bad you're wrong,
don't need a mom, dad, slave, drive, song
I time bomb


I time bomb (x4)


Turn low the radio
I think I hear my dad yelling at the band


Repeat CHORUS


You don't belong,
you left the kids to carry on
You planned their fall
Too bad you're wrong,
don't need a mom, dad, slave, drive, song
I time bomb


I time bomb (x8)

Hey

people my weekend was good but, it could of been better. As in:

I could of gone to my dads but, he had to go back to work early

Friday night could of been a little bit better.. like idk

I wanted a taco really really bad!!!

So shyeah sorry i am just a little bit spoiled but, thats me for ya. Anyways i soooo wish i had my blink 182 cds back!!! I am soo drained without them!! Dude thanksgiving is going to suck ass!!!!! I am not doing anything!! Ya well i got to go!! Hmm i miss the mall cause i was with all the people i love a lot Ashley,Bre,Shannon,Erica,C-ray, Jaime, Ashley G, Jeffrey, and Clinton.. But, i wish Andrew and Sammy could of gone.. Because they are the raddest like fa sho!! But 1 g2g!!

Heres some blink-182 lyrics.. This is how i feel right now or have felt for the past months! I changed some of the lyrics just to fit me though..

Blink 182 Lyrics

Dick Lips Lyrics

Please, mom
You ground me all the time
I know that I was right
All along

And I'm hoping
Remember I'm a kid
I know not what I did
Just having fun

You couldn't wait for something new
And yesterday I thought of you
It left me to think as if I couldn't walk away
It's too late, I fell through

Nothing to lose
A girl who went out when she finished all his chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me because I blew it once before

Shit, dad
Please don't kick my ass
I know I've seen you trashed
At least one time

Can I blame it
On one of my dumb friends
It's been awhile
Since I have used that line

You couldn't wait for something new
And yesterday I thought of you
It left me to think as if I couldn't walk away
It's too late, I fell through

Nothing to lose
A girl who went out when she finished all his chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me because I blew it once before

(Alright)

Nothing to lose
A girl who went out when he finished all her chores
Nothing to do
They can't trust me because I blew it once before

Hey

So i am sitting in the library once again and waiting for the 3 lunch bell to ring! And its going to in like 10 minutes... hmmmm so ya 1st is good on days but, i always like 3rd lunch because my whole posse is there and yes i did say posse...dont make fun of me.. just make out with me!! HAHA So ya i just talked to my old best friend Chris.. Dude she came to school high WTF?! Anyways ya today has been good with an exception my sex partner isnt here haha jk once again but, maybe in the near future.....

STEPH TO THE RAD

Hey

So i am sitting in second period just doing nothing. So today is going to be the shit i get to go to the mall with some kiddos shyeah but, anyways last night was so boring all i did was sleep and eat a taco ya a taco.. But its all good in da hood and all that walmart mixed in it.. my compliments to Andrew Sells.. lol But, dang Me, Shannon, ANDREW, and Sammy all need to get together and practice in our band Self-Explanatory..So i figured out what i wanted to do when i get older! A video game designer pretty cool!!!! But, ya heres some pictures and lyrics!!

TOM DELONGE!!

MY FAV SONG IN DA WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!

Blink 182 - Not Now Lyrics

Come here, please hold my hand for now
Help me, I'm scared please show me how to fight this,
God has a master plan
And I guess
I am in his demand
Please save me this time I cannot run
And I'll see you when this is done
And now I have come to realize
That you are the one who's left behind

Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting

I see, a light it feels good
And I'll come back soon just like you would
It's useless, my name has made the list
And I wish, I gave you one last kiss

Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
Waiting

Please stay until I'm gone
I'm here hold on to me I'm right here
Waiting and take
My one last breath, and don't forget
That I will be right here
WaitingSEEYA HOLMESSteph Rad

Hey heres some lyrics for a certain someone about last weekend!

Blink 182
Apple Shampoo

She didn't mean to deceive you, believe me
But sometimes the hardest part is conceiving

The good intentions that you had
Now only came to this
And although she saw the mark
The arrow missed

It isn't exciting reciting the stories
Of kind words turned hurting when routine get boring

Both getting tired of punk rock clubs
And both playing in punk rock bands
The start was something good
But some good things must end

And she said, "It could never survive
With such differing lives
One home, one out on tour again

We may never come back
The strike of a match
The candle's buring at both ends."

And now she knows too much
And I'm too fucked up
It's awkward trying to make my move

I'll pretend that I'm fine
Show up right on time
But I know I'll never be that cool

I never wanted to hold you back
I'm just trying to hold on
But my chance is gone

I know / just where / I stand / a boy
Trapped in the body of a man and

I'll take what you're willing to give
And I'll teach myself to live
With a walk-on part of a background shot
From a movie I'm not in

She's so important
And I'm so retarded

And now I realize
I should have kissed you in L.A.
But I drove home all alone
As if I had a choice, anyway

Where are you coming from?
What are you running from?
Is it so hard to see?

And if you're feeling scared
Remember the time we shared
You know it meant everything (everything)
You know that it meant everything to me

You know that it meant everything to me

Heres some more lyrics for a certain someone about last weekend! Blink 182 Apple Shampoo She didn't mean to deceive you, believe me But sometimes the hardest part is conceiving The good intentions that you had Now only came to this And although she saw the mark The arrow missed It isn't exciting reciting the stories Of kind words turned hurting when routine get boring Both getting tired of punk rock clubs And both playing in punk rock bands The start was something good But some good things must end And she said, "It could never survive With such differing lives One home, one out on tour again We may never come back The strike of a match The candle's buring at both ends." And now she knows too much And I'm too fucked up It's awkward trying to make my move I'll pretend that I'm fine Show up right on time But I know I'll never be that cool I never wanted to hold you back I'm just trying to hold on But my chance is gone I know / just where / I stand / a boy Trapped in the body of a man and I'll take what you're willing to give And I'll teach myself to live With a walk-on part of a background shot From a movie I'm not in She's so important And I'm so retarded And now I realize I should have kissed you in L.A. But I drove home all alone As if I had a choice, anyway Where are you coming from? What are you running from? Is it so hard to see? And if you're feeling scared Remember the time we shared You know it meant everything (everything) You know that it meant everything to me You know that it meant everything to me

Hey

People nothing much has happened lately.. still grounded... And friday and saturday i am going to have a lot of fun again.. I will probably come back to school complaining that my leg hurts from Skateboarding!! But, oh well its worth it!

So heres some lyrics!

These lyrics are for someone i know and they know who they are!

Blink 182
Voyeur

And when the day ends I'm sure she feels sorrow
The lonely guy I am I wait for her to change
I've been here two days I'll sure be here tomorrow
I'd eat her all if she were on my dinner plate
I'd wish she'd be more kind now
I'm out of luck cause the shades are pulled down
I've seen everything there is to be shown
I followed her all the way home
I can't be too cool in a tree with my pants down
The air is cold and I've got splinters in my feet
She caught me once but I don't think that she cares now
Unlike before her view is now blocked by a leaf
I'd wish she'd be more kind now
I'm out of luck cause the shades are pulled down
I've seen everything there is to be shown
I followed her all the way home
I bet this last times the one time to many
The rush of waiting is burning through my head
Right after supper her brother showers twice a week
He kicks my ass so much that filthy white inbred
I've made mistakes by looking in the wrong window
Her dad is big and I've never seen his face
I've been here two days I'll sure be here tomorrow
My lady's so sweet she likes to entertain
I'd wish she'd be more kind now
I'm out of luck cause the shades are pulled down
I've seen everything there is to be shown
I followed her all the way home
I bet this last times the one time to many
The rush of waiting is burning through my head
Right after supper her brother showers twice a week
He kicks my ass so much that filthy white inbred

Funny eh?