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November 11 2005
So honestly, I'm struggling tonight. I have a major self-worth problem to tell the truth. Somedays I just really hate who I am and I really hate that I try to be someone else. I don't typically bring this on myself, it is typically brought on by my friends. Because somedays I love my friends, and other days I wonder if they just pretend to be my friends for my sake. So yeah I'm struggling tonight. I just want to feel loved. And this would be one of the nights that I don't.
Lord, teach me to not desire the world's approval and affection, but only Yours. Because You love me like no one else ever can, and in my heart, I know that's good enough for me. Just help me remember.
Ok just thought I would share the depths of my heart with phusebox land tonight, because I usually don't share the depths of my heart with anyone. That's what's in my heart tonight.
peace to one and all

r

November 11 2005
Joy, I cherish our friendship.

James Roberts

November 15 2005
Hey Joy, I got this quote from one of my friends, and I thought it might help "Be who you are and say what you feel, because the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter don't mind." Dr. Seuss. I know how you feel a/b noy liking yourself @ times. Last year, God really showed me that I need to seek only his approval, and find my personal satisfaction in him. That's it. I hope you're feeling better. I know we're not like best friends, but I really can relate to the situation.