I didn't get to share this pic when Rachel and I took it because my
pictures were as big as me when I downloaded them onto Safari. Thanks
to Nathan I now go through Firefox. Which leads me to create this post
to share. Thank you Nathan and those that told me about Firefox.




So this is the ultrasound picture of Rachel and I's lil'
shorty...child, Paul Aslan Nadeau. We got this back in October. No
telling what he is looking like now. I can't stop looking at him. I
talk to him everynight as Rachel sits there and laughs because he moves
around so much. It has been so surreal praying for MY SON! MY SON! I
still can't believe it! I have had dreams about him. And I have had
dreams about him for years. I wrote about him even before I was
married. I have talked about him and prayed for him. Now almost 2
months until he comes into this world I site here and think about him.
What will he be like? What will be his interests? What foods will be
his favorites? Will he like to write? Play sports? What will his laugh
sound like? His smile look like? His voice? I am speechless that at
this very second as I write these words that God, in some awesome and
mysterious way, is right there with Aslan, forming him and talking to
him. Whatever Aslan decides to do or like in his life Rachel and I pray
that he would love his Creator more than anything else. More than a
girl, more than himself, and more than Rachel and I.


Again, I look at this picture and I can't put into words how I feel
inside. To not believe that something bigger than you and me did
this?...I can't fathom it.

Most of you know my story. My childhood, my dad, my parents, and my Momma. Beacuse of what I wnet through and the things I have seen I keep a journal that I will give to Aslan one day. Or if our Jesus should call me Home while Aslan is still growing up and trying to figure things out. Here is an excert from the journal I write to Aslan.

 "If I Should Go: Letters to Aslan."

Aslan, you are precious. I am mystified how God is creating you this
very second. Awe-struck I am that God has blessed your Mom and me with
you.  Aslan, you are from The Savior and His you will remain. Your Mom
and I are humbled that the Lord has entrusted you to your Mom and I for
18 years. During that time we will teach how to fly my precious son.
May God whisper your name even now and may His voice comfort you now
as he mends and puts His final touches on you beofre your arrival.







My son you have been prayed for by your Momma and me for some time. We can't wait until you get here! Today I am praying that God grant you His knowledge, His counsel, and His understanding.

The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him—
       the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,
       the Spirit of counsel and of power,
       the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
                               Isaiah 11:2

This verse is enscribed on my wedding ring. Your Momma prayed this for me everyday before we got married. Maybe she could see into the future and look what dumb things I would do and the super-buttheadish things I would say to her? Maybe thats's why she prayed that for me...ha-ha.! Aslan, your Momma loved me so much that she prayed for me. Prayed that verse for me. There's power in prayer, son. That's why we pray for you, even now as you are still in your "one-womb" apartment. So now I pray the same verse for you. Why? Because it's a tangled mess of a world. Your gonna go through some times when what feels good to you sounds a whole lot better than anything your Momma or I or the Pastor has said to you. It's in those times when we are not around when you will have to make some crucial decisions. So I pray Isaiah 11:2 over you now so that by the time you get old enough to be introduced to those situations you will have God's influence on you so much that you will know to follow Christ. And who knows? Maybe you'll even get a chance to share your faith with the ones who asked you to do those stupid things.

Aslan, your Mom and I are praying for you. We love you so much. When you get here in March...you, your Momma, and me...crazy get together bash at our place!

The Spirit of the LORD will rest on him—
       the Spirit of wisdom and of understanding,
       the Spirit of counsel and of power,
       the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the LORD -
                                        Isaiah 11:2