Prom was super fun... one of the best nights of my life!

 i  HATE  making hard decisions....

I'm so sick of school I could scream...

So... I'm having trouble deciding where to go for college and what to do when I get there... So i'm gonna give you the pros and cons of each and you can tell me what you think... ok?... ok!

King College

Location: Bristol, Tennessee/Bristol, Virginia (the campus in on the line)

Type: Private/Christian

Tuition: $17,680

Room and Board: $5,720

Total (before books): $23,400

Scholarships: Academic- $8,000,Whitehead foundation scholarship- $840, Lottery scholarship- $3,300  Total: $12,140

Loans: $12,000

Pros: Somewhere new and exciting. Beautiful and small campus in the mountains of Tennessee and Virginia. Christian atmosphere. 

Cons: Away from family and friends. Not as much security. ALOT of money in loans that will have to be payed back after I graduate.

MTSU

Location:... a duh... Here.

Type: State School

Tuition: $2,258

Room and board: live at home

Scholarships: Lottery-$3,300 (so far 2 more are pending)

Loans: none needed

Pros: HOME! A whole bunch cheaper. No loans to pay off. Friends an family. Comfort and security.

Cons: Same ol' same ol'. It's really difficult to get into the nursing academy. GIGANTIC campus with ZERO parking.

Well it seems pretty obvious I suppose where "logically" I should go. But I am still unsure.

It would feel so great to let go right now...

but I won't let me...

I need prayer lots and lots of prayer

Why are there so many questions and so many dead ends in life. How can I find my self wanting when everything is right here. I don't know where I am going but I know I always want you with me to have and to hold forever and ever... why can't we just fast forward to two years from now when we'll be older and ready for the life we want. Why are there so many questions....

Awesome 18 much better than Sour 17!!!

Happy Birthday To ME!!!

Just four more days and I will be legal...

Yes, that's right February 10th, 2006 marks 18 years of existence for Betsy Jo....

Exciting isn't it...

photo from h_olly
Ya see those girls right there....Just so you know, they're amazing!The coolest girls you'll ever meet hands down.

Here's wishing you a very happy weekend  

3 weeks till the big 1-8 !

I am so sick of trying

I just want to quit

I'm exhausted from worry

and faking and acting like everything is ok.

I need to be real and show you who I am there's stuff you need to know in order to fully understand why I am the way I am...

For the first time in my life I am feeling shy and ashamed afraid to let you see who I am. Some people won't understand

just like the song Iris says "i don't want the world to see me cause i don't think that they'd understand"

we placed 3rd...

I mean it's great considering we were only 4 points from beating the 1st place winners...

how come certain people are just so perfect it really bothers me..... i just don't understand it.

So... We had the state semi finals for the Business Plan Competition and... we were in the top 6... which mean we advance to finals! YAY!!!

Hey ya'll!

         How is everyone?! Well this week has been super stressful but hopefully it'll get better! I am really excited about phuse box it seems alot different than xanga and myspace... so yea def. excited! Talk to ya'll later!

P.S. I REALLY miss summer :(