Ben Moser
Relationship Status
Single
Highschool
Blackman High School
Interests
God, Pride of the Southland Marching Band, Tennis, Business, Computers, Music, Movies, family, friends, movie-making, musicals, theatre, theater, photography, outdoors, camping, hiking, sleeping under the stars, laughing, starbucks, coffee, new york, broadway, italy, france, life, love, hope, pictures, cookie dough ice cream, poetry, my iPod, sleeping, art, graphic art design, graphics, design, entreprenuership, media, hopefully webdesign
Favorite Music
The Fray, Michael Bublé, Hawk Nelson, Yellowcard, Rascal Flatts, Andy Davis, Dave Barnes, Glenn Miller, Benny Goodman, Chris Botti, Ray Charles, Louis Armstrong, Miles Davis, UT Pride of the Southland Band, Frank Sinatra, Natalie Cole, Relient K, Switchfoot, Barlow Girl, Todd Agnew, Lifehouse, Coldplay, Brad Paisley, U2, Jack Johnson, Shane and Shane, Passion, Chris Tomlin, Charlie Hall, David Crowder Band, Beach Boys, Earth Wind and Fire
Favorite Movies
Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, The Notebook, How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days, The Italian Job, Saving Private Ryan, The Matrix, Catch Me If You Can, Phantom of the Opera, The Princess Bride, Remember the Titans, Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl, Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest, Gone In 60 Seconds, The Incredibles, Bad Boys II, Gangs of New York, Ferris Bueller's Day Off, Moulin Rouge
Favorite Books
The Bible, Mere Christianity, The Da Vinci Code, Angels and Demons, Harry Potter, The Partner, The Last Juror, Wild at Heart
Other Websites
http://tnjn.com/beta/staff/bmoser/
THE PLAY!
February 11 2006
The play went on without a hitch! It was wonderful.
Yet I am glad it is over...
and I still have this dreadful British accent stuck in my speech.
It won't go away.
Anyways...thanks to much prayer, everything worked great.
I might post pictures later if I can get them to upload.
::b
Yet I am glad it is over...
and I still have this dreadful British accent stuck in my speech.
It won't go away.
Anyways...thanks to much prayer, everything worked great.
I might post pictures later if I can get them to upload.
::b
Wounded
January 31 2006
I would have given you all of my heart
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crow.
I know most of you skip over lyrics, as do i, but it really hit me tonight...once again.
I feel so stuck in this moment that i don't think i can move on.
and go figure, it is a concert night. it always happens on concert nights.
::b
but there's someone who's torn it apart
and she's taking almost all that I've got
but if you want, I'll try to love again
baby I'll try to love again but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that I've cried
cause I'm sure gonna give you a try
and if you want, I'll try to love again
but baby, I'll try to love again, but I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
'Cause when it comes to being lucky she's cursed
when it comes to lovin' me she's worst
but when it comes to being loved she's first
that's how I know
The first cut is the deepest, baby I know
The first cut is the deepest
The First Cut is the Deepest by Sheryl Crow.
I know most of you skip over lyrics, as do i, but it really hit me tonight...once again.
I feel so stuck in this moment that i don't think i can move on.
and go figure, it is a concert night. it always happens on concert nights.
::b
Poser!
January 24 2006
" "Any day now, I'll be found out" is a pretty common theme among us guys. Truth be told, most of us are faking our way through life. We pick only those battles we are sure to win, only those adventures we are sure to handle, only those beauties we are sure to rescue."
I couldn't have said that much more effectively. I feel so trapped sometimes, so limited by what I can and can't accomplish, that I simply give up. I can't tell you how many times I've settled for something that is easier to obtain. And now that I've found that route mainly successful, I'm having a hard time reasoning with myself why I should risk rejection, exposure, or pride. I can't explain in words the amount of regret I feel for some decisions I have made. Sometimes I simply want approval. That's it. Yet approval is so hard to achieve. I often find myself posing as someone who I am not, someone who can have more guaranteed success and happiness than I could. Or simply posing because I don't want to be wounded any more than I already am. I pretend to not care that you broke my heart, pretend to move on, pretend to not think about it everyday. I take the convenient option over the one that I know can make me happier.
"Every boy, in his journey to become a man, takes an arrow in the center of his heart, in the place of his strength. Because the wound is rarely discussed and even more rarely healed, every man carries a wound."
Moving along...
I don't feel like I belong at Blackman. Not to say that I belong somewhere else, or that I don't belong at Blackman, but I don't feel like it. I don't feel like I can be me there. I have few true friends there, and I feel quite lonely sometimes.
On Prom...
To be honest, my first choice is taken. I was thinking about this yesterday at school, and I don't even know who I want to invite. A few friends of mine have discussed this subject lately, both in differing views. I want to go to prom, and I want to have fun. The problem is I don't want to invite someone who I don't think will have fun. I have thought about asking a few close friends of mine.
And in closing...
Carpe Diem. Risk it. Don't settle.
Dum Spiro, Spero.
::b
*Both quotations taken from Wild at Heart by John Eldredge.
I couldn't have said that much more effectively. I feel so trapped sometimes, so limited by what I can and can't accomplish, that I simply give up. I can't tell you how many times I've settled for something that is easier to obtain. And now that I've found that route mainly successful, I'm having a hard time reasoning with myself why I should risk rejection, exposure, or pride. I can't explain in words the amount of regret I feel for some decisions I have made. Sometimes I simply want approval. That's it. Yet approval is so hard to achieve. I often find myself posing as someone who I am not, someone who can have more guaranteed success and happiness than I could. Or simply posing because I don't want to be wounded any more than I already am. I pretend to not care that you broke my heart, pretend to move on, pretend to not think about it everyday. I take the convenient option over the one that I know can make me happier.
"Every boy, in his journey to become a man, takes an arrow in the center of his heart, in the place of his strength. Because the wound is rarely discussed and even more rarely healed, every man carries a wound."
Moving along...
I don't feel like I belong at Blackman. Not to say that I belong somewhere else, or that I don't belong at Blackman, but I don't feel like it. I don't feel like I can be me there. I have few true friends there, and I feel quite lonely sometimes.
On Prom...
To be honest, my first choice is taken. I was thinking about this yesterday at school, and I don't even know who I want to invite. A few friends of mine have discussed this subject lately, both in differing views. I want to go to prom, and I want to have fun. The problem is I don't want to invite someone who I don't think will have fun. I have thought about asking a few close friends of mine.
And in closing...
Carpe Diem. Risk it. Don't settle.
Dum Spiro, Spero.
::b
*Both quotations taken from Wild at Heart by John Eldredge.
Wild at Heart
January 18 2006
" "Where are all the real men?" is regular fare for talk shows and new books. You asked them to be women, I want to say. The result is a gender confusion never experienced at such a wide level in the history of the world. How can a man know he is one when his highest aim is minding his manners?"
"There is nothing so inspiring to a man as a beautiful woman. She'll make you want to charge the castle, slay the giant, leap across parapets. Or maybe, hit a home run."
"A man wants to be the hero to the beauty. . . . You see, it's not just that a man needs a battle to fight; he needs someone to fight for. . . . The battle itself is never enough; a man yearns for romance. It's not enough to be a hero; it's that he is a hero to someone in particular, to the woman he loves. Adam was given the wind and the sea, the horse and the hawk, but as God himself said, things were just not right until there was Eve.
Yes, there is something passionate in the heart of every man."
All quotations taken from Wild at Heart by John Eldredge.
::b
"There is nothing so inspiring to a man as a beautiful woman. She'll make you want to charge the castle, slay the giant, leap across parapets. Or maybe, hit a home run."
"A man wants to be the hero to the beauty. . . . You see, it's not just that a man needs a battle to fight; he needs someone to fight for. . . . The battle itself is never enough; a man yearns for romance. It's not enough to be a hero; it's that he is a hero to someone in particular, to the woman he loves. Adam was given the wind and the sea, the horse and the hawk, but as God himself said, things were just not right until there was Eve.
Yes, there is something passionate in the heart of every man."
All quotations taken from Wild at Heart by John Eldredge.
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The Famous Among Us
January 14 2006
I thought it would be quite interesting to attempt to match a famous actor or actress with my friends. So here goes:
Brian King: George Clooney. Smooth as silk in Ocean's Eleven, and skilled in doing so many different things.
Sarah Moore: Rachel McAdams. You and I always seem to be able to talk about anything. And if you think back, her position in "The Notebook" is applicable. Beauty combined with grace…with a hint of reality.
Rebekah Minor: Elaine from Seinfeld. Subtract all the sex she has, her personality of always being honest and still very witty. She can hang with the boys--and beat them at their own games.
Cameron West: Kirk Cameron ("Growing Pains"). Tall, funny, and a strong Christian. Not to mention the same name.
Brittany Nichols: Scarlett Johansson in "The Island". Sometimes out of it, yet always involved. You are naturally pretty and can always liven the screen…or the room…with your smile.
Sarah Wilson: Jessica Simpson. Simply because you couldn't get the door open that Sunday School morning…when the instructions were on the handle. Very much a "Jessica" moment.
Rachael Vance: Sarah Jessica Parker. Classy and elegant.
Aimee Davis: Julia Roberts. Multi-talented and beautiful. Can entertain you with anything.
Lauren Barber: Jennifer Lopez. Easy choice.
Jeremy Crook: Bruce Willis. No your not bald…but I can just see you saving the world come Armageddon. Or come shine.
Brian Ponath: Peter Griffin from "Family Guy". This one was pretty simple.
Joel Grissom: Stewie Griffin from "Family Guy". You want to take over the world and you don't care who you offend. Perfect.
Zach McCain: Colin Farrell. You have style, wit, and charm, and you are a good actor also.
Ashley Orman: Kirsten Dunst. She had red hair in Spiderman, and she isn't Nicole Kidman.
Graham Wells: Sean Connery. A genius at what he does, and he does what he does right. If that makes sense. Plus, he was James Bond.
Garrett Shaw: Ben Affleck. You are a great person with a great mind, but you probably shouldn't be acting.
Nathan Moore: Denzel Washington. Always interesting, can do just about anything, and creative enough to do so.
Rachel Meyer: Audrey Hepburn. This was a hard one, but the classy and talented Hepburn won. She was creative, interesting, and unique, and she had many people who loved her.
Nemanja Cavlovic: Tom Hanks in "The Terminal". Enough said.
Clint Nadeau: Ben Stiller. You just look soooooo good. A natural Zoolander.
Chris Madison: Robert Redford. Baseball lover, "The Natural", and a great personality. Very kind.
Amy Bonin: Michelle Pfeiffer. Beautiful and talented. Never forgotten, always interesting.
Amy Powers: Sandra Bullock. Classy and interesting.
Rachel Bonin: Whoopi Goldberg. Crazy and funny. Always in for a surprise.
Anna Miller: Angelina Jolie. No, you don't have big lips, but when you want to, you can pull off some interesting stunts, even if it's just for fun.
Andrea Yohe: Norah Jones. I know, I cheated with a musician. But who better to cheat with it on. You are a natural musician with a refined taste for music.
Amy Dent: Kiera Knightley. Long, light blonde hair and beautiful. You are always someone to look forward to seeing.
Holly Morris: Uma Thurman. You can be soft and quiet, and you can be friendly and loud. You are good at both, and you surprise everyone.
Kaitlyn Robertson: Lisa Kudrow from "Friends". Wild, random, and sometimes odd. But always enjoyable.
Lauren Beasley: Meg Ryan. Can be classy, can be modern. Always intriguing.
Kelly Sullivan: Doris Day. Classic and enchanting. Almost a Marilyn Monroe, but not as suggestive and more comedic.
Xavier de Castor: Kevin Costner. Well-rounded and talented. Kind, soft, and very respectable.
Sara Johnson: Hilary Swank. Tall, yes. But she has a strong sense of independence and a strong personality too.
Kelsey Johnson: Kate Hudson. You are beautiful and you have a great personality…sense of humor…all that. And I'm not trying to butter you up. Tall, blonde, etc. You get the picture.
Jason Thacker: Heath Ledger. Always playing a big role, and most people notice. A great person who is even better when you get to know him.
Shannon Murphy: Katie Holmes. I don't exactly know why…but you struck me her. Maybe it's that you look similar. Maybe you like Tom Cruise. Who knows.
Lauren Moser: Jennifer Aniston. You are wild, unorganized, and intriguing nonetheless.
Bethany Moore: Kate Winslet. From Shakespeare to J.M. Barrie (Peter Pan) to Titanic, you are always wonderful to see and always good at whatever situation presents itself to you. Classic beauty and character. And very fun.
Jonathan Moore: Will Ferrell. You are funny in whatever role you want to play. Always entertaining and fun to be around. "Stay classy San Diego".
If I had to pick one for myself, it would probably be Matthew McConaughey.
There were a few of you who I couldn't pair up tonight. Amy Amonette, Stephen Hamby, and Jonathan Stewart are ones I couldn't match.
If you weren't on the list and you want to see what actor or actress most resembles you, let me know.
::b
P.S.: Monday, January 16, 2006...
In observance of Martin Luther King Day, we will celebrate with a picnic luncheon (potluck) at the Old Fort Park at 11:30 a.m.
From there we will proceed to Carmike, where we will enjoy a showing of Tristan and Isolde at 1:40 p.m.
Everyone is invited.
Brian King: George Clooney. Smooth as silk in Ocean's Eleven, and skilled in doing so many different things.
Sarah Moore: Rachel McAdams. You and I always seem to be able to talk about anything. And if you think back, her position in "The Notebook" is applicable. Beauty combined with grace…with a hint of reality.
Rebekah Minor: Elaine from Seinfeld. Subtract all the sex she has, her personality of always being honest and still very witty. She can hang with the boys--and beat them at their own games.
Cameron West: Kirk Cameron ("Growing Pains"). Tall, funny, and a strong Christian. Not to mention the same name.
Brittany Nichols: Scarlett Johansson in "The Island". Sometimes out of it, yet always involved. You are naturally pretty and can always liven the screen…or the room…with your smile.
Sarah Wilson: Jessica Simpson. Simply because you couldn't get the door open that Sunday School morning…when the instructions were on the handle. Very much a "Jessica" moment.
Rachael Vance: Sarah Jessica Parker. Classy and elegant.
Aimee Davis: Julia Roberts. Multi-talented and beautiful. Can entertain you with anything.
Lauren Barber: Jennifer Lopez. Easy choice.
Jeremy Crook: Bruce Willis. No your not bald…but I can just see you saving the world come Armageddon. Or come shine.
Brian Ponath: Peter Griffin from "Family Guy". This one was pretty simple.
Joel Grissom: Stewie Griffin from "Family Guy". You want to take over the world and you don't care who you offend. Perfect.
Zach McCain: Colin Farrell. You have style, wit, and charm, and you are a good actor also.
Ashley Orman: Kirsten Dunst. She had red hair in Spiderman, and she isn't Nicole Kidman.
Graham Wells: Sean Connery. A genius at what he does, and he does what he does right. If that makes sense. Plus, he was James Bond.
Garrett Shaw: Ben Affleck. You are a great person with a great mind, but you probably shouldn't be acting.
Nathan Moore: Denzel Washington. Always interesting, can do just about anything, and creative enough to do so.
Rachel Meyer: Audrey Hepburn. This was a hard one, but the classy and talented Hepburn won. She was creative, interesting, and unique, and she had many people who loved her.
Nemanja Cavlovic: Tom Hanks in "The Terminal". Enough said.
Clint Nadeau: Ben Stiller. You just look soooooo good. A natural Zoolander.
Chris Madison: Robert Redford. Baseball lover, "The Natural", and a great personality. Very kind.
Amy Bonin: Michelle Pfeiffer. Beautiful and talented. Never forgotten, always interesting.
Amy Powers: Sandra Bullock. Classy and interesting.
Rachel Bonin: Whoopi Goldberg. Crazy and funny. Always in for a surprise.
Anna Miller: Angelina Jolie. No, you don't have big lips, but when you want to, you can pull off some interesting stunts, even if it's just for fun.
Andrea Yohe: Norah Jones. I know, I cheated with a musician. But who better to cheat with it on. You are a natural musician with a refined taste for music.
Amy Dent: Kiera Knightley. Long, light blonde hair and beautiful. You are always someone to look forward to seeing.
Holly Morris: Uma Thurman. You can be soft and quiet, and you can be friendly and loud. You are good at both, and you surprise everyone.
Kaitlyn Robertson: Lisa Kudrow from "Friends". Wild, random, and sometimes odd. But always enjoyable.
Lauren Beasley: Meg Ryan. Can be classy, can be modern. Always intriguing.
Kelly Sullivan: Doris Day. Classic and enchanting. Almost a Marilyn Monroe, but not as suggestive and more comedic.
Xavier de Castor: Kevin Costner. Well-rounded and talented. Kind, soft, and very respectable.
Sara Johnson: Hilary Swank. Tall, yes. But she has a strong sense of independence and a strong personality too.
Kelsey Johnson: Kate Hudson. You are beautiful and you have a great personality…sense of humor…all that. And I'm not trying to butter you up. Tall, blonde, etc. You get the picture.
Jason Thacker: Heath Ledger. Always playing a big role, and most people notice. A great person who is even better when you get to know him.
Shannon Murphy: Katie Holmes. I don't exactly know why…but you struck me her. Maybe it's that you look similar. Maybe you like Tom Cruise. Who knows.
Lauren Moser: Jennifer Aniston. You are wild, unorganized, and intriguing nonetheless.
Bethany Moore: Kate Winslet. From Shakespeare to J.M. Barrie (Peter Pan) to Titanic, you are always wonderful to see and always good at whatever situation presents itself to you. Classic beauty and character. And very fun.
Jonathan Moore: Will Ferrell. You are funny in whatever role you want to play. Always entertaining and fun to be around. "Stay classy San Diego".
If I had to pick one for myself, it would probably be Matthew McConaughey.
There were a few of you who I couldn't pair up tonight. Amy Amonette, Stephen Hamby, and Jonathan Stewart are ones I couldn't match.
If you weren't on the list and you want to see what actor or actress most resembles you, let me know.
::b
P.S.: Monday, January 16, 2006...
In observance of Martin Luther King Day, we will celebrate with a picnic luncheon (potluck) at the Old Fort Park at 11:30 a.m.
From there we will proceed to Carmike, where we will enjoy a showing of Tristan and Isolde at 1:40 p.m.
Everyone is invited.
*Cough Cough* "Ech hem... I Have An Announcement"
January 12 2006
To Those of You Who Care:
Monday, January 16, 2006...
In observance of Martin Luther King Day, we will celebrate with a picnic luncheon (potluck) at the Old Fort Park at 11:30 a.m.
From there we will proceed to Carmike, where we will enjoy a showing of Tristan and Isolde at 1:40 p.m.
Everyone is invited.
::b
P.S.: If you are planning to go...repost this on your Phusebox.
Monday, January 16, 2006...
In observance of Martin Luther King Day, we will celebrate with a picnic luncheon (potluck) at the Old Fort Park at 11:30 a.m.
From there we will proceed to Carmike, where we will enjoy a showing of Tristan and Isolde at 1:40 p.m.
Everyone is invited.
::b
P.S.: If you are planning to go...repost this on your Phusebox.
Captain's Log. 12, January, 2006. 9:41 p.m.
January 12 2006
What am I thinking about??
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Because of Aimee Davis's denseness, I will further separate the two thoughts expressed in this post.
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The new MacBook looks absolutely incredible.
Absolutely.
I want one.
::b
Talking and Dreams
January 05 2006
Thank you Sarah Moore for talking with me for so long last night. I know we werent solving any of my problems or anything, which is what the last sentence sounds like, but for some reason just talking gave me some kind of clarity or something I can't really express in words that feels peaceful and ...sigh. I wish I could explain it. Anyways, I didn't get in trouble for getting home late..real late. My parents just probably ignored me last night and my mom didn't say anything this morning.
I want to know the stuff that dreams are made of.
I know some of you can't dream or don't dream, and I feel sorry for you. Not the pity "I feel sorry for you", but just that you are missing out a bit.
I had one of the most emotionally charged dreams last night. It was scary (not horror scary), strong, heartfelt, fun, angry, sad. And it was all tied together with the strongest emotion: love. I know it sounds sappy...but my dream never made it to that part. The sappy part that is. This one just felt so...real...that when I woke up, I had to think a long time about what it meant, why I dreamt it, what caused it, how I would have handled it, how it would have ended...so on and so forth.
I don't think I've ever had a dream so real and surreal mixed in at the same time. Like nothing makes sense around you...but everything makes sense in your head.
And the girl.
Why do I feel so attached to a character in a dream? I know that nothing in my life, most likely, will have anything to do with this dream. But I want to find her. (Double meaning: finding her in the dream, and finding a person correlating to that character with the same real emotions in life.)
*sigh*
If I could do it all over again in the dream...I would. But there was no romantic events or anything (don't get any ideas). Everything was simply understood as the dream went on. All the small dreams that occurred before my mind settled on the "good one" have no correlation whatsoever...yet your mind somehow convinces you while you are sleeping that everything does in fact make sense. It makes no sense, and as I am writing this, some things in the dream I begin to remember...but they don't matter to me. I just want to relive or "redream" what happened in the good dream. I remember everything that happened, I just don't know how it got started or how it ends (as is the way with most dreams: it starts in the middle, but you dont notice it in the dream, and you don't need any prior knowledge or experience to comprehend what is happening. Then it doesnt end.)
I just want that feeling of attachment. Not attachment as someone continuously with another. But the attachment I felt in my heart. An attachment that can get through and almost enjoys the hard part because it brings you closer together.
If only...if only.
I guess I need to go get ready for school...*sigh*
Already the strength of the dream is fading...and that makes me sad.
::b
P.S.: I want to know what you think. If you could customize any
website on the internet, or have an idea for a useful online tool that
is not common now, what would you do, or what is your idea? What do
you wish you could do with or use a website for? If there's anything you think you could use, let me know.
Thanks for whatever suggestions you guys leave, they are very appreciated!
I want to know the stuff that dreams are made of.
I know some of you can't dream or don't dream, and I feel sorry for you. Not the pity "I feel sorry for you", but just that you are missing out a bit.
I had one of the most emotionally charged dreams last night. It was scary (not horror scary), strong, heartfelt, fun, angry, sad. And it was all tied together with the strongest emotion: love. I know it sounds sappy...but my dream never made it to that part. The sappy part that is. This one just felt so...real...that when I woke up, I had to think a long time about what it meant, why I dreamt it, what caused it, how I would have handled it, how it would have ended...so on and so forth.
I don't think I've ever had a dream so real and surreal mixed in at the same time. Like nothing makes sense around you...but everything makes sense in your head.
And the girl.
Why do I feel so attached to a character in a dream? I know that nothing in my life, most likely, will have anything to do with this dream. But I want to find her. (Double meaning: finding her in the dream, and finding a person correlating to that character with the same real emotions in life.)
*sigh*
If I could do it all over again in the dream...I would. But there was no romantic events or anything (don't get any ideas). Everything was simply understood as the dream went on. All the small dreams that occurred before my mind settled on the "good one" have no correlation whatsoever...yet your mind somehow convinces you while you are sleeping that everything does in fact make sense. It makes no sense, and as I am writing this, some things in the dream I begin to remember...but they don't matter to me. I just want to relive or "redream" what happened in the good dream. I remember everything that happened, I just don't know how it got started or how it ends (as is the way with most dreams: it starts in the middle, but you dont notice it in the dream, and you don't need any prior knowledge or experience to comprehend what is happening. Then it doesnt end.)
I just want that feeling of attachment. Not attachment as someone continuously with another. But the attachment I felt in my heart. An attachment that can get through and almost enjoys the hard part because it brings you closer together.
If only...if only.
I guess I need to go get ready for school...*sigh*
Already the strength of the dream is fading...and that makes me sad.
::b
P.S.: I want to know what you think. If you could customize any
website on the internet, or have an idea for a useful online tool that
is not common now, what would you do, or what is your idea? What do
you wish you could do with or use a website for? If there's anything you think you could use, let me know.
Thanks for whatever suggestions you guys leave, they are very appreciated!
Useful Website
December 30 2005
Hey guys!
I want to know what you guys think.
If you could customize any website on the internet, or have an idea for a useful online tool that is not common now, what would you do, or what is your idea? What do you wish you could do with or use a website for?
If there's anything you think you could use, let me know.
Thanks for whatever suggestions you guys leave, they are very appreciated!
::b
I want to know what you guys think.
If you could customize any website on the internet, or have an idea for a useful online tool that is not common now, what would you do, or what is your idea? What do you wish you could do with or use a website for?
If there's anything you think you could use, let me know.
Thanks for whatever suggestions you guys leave, they are very appreciated!
::b
Prayer
December 07 2005
Please...
Take a moment and pray for a friend of mine.
I can't say much more than that...
And if you like,
take more than a moment.
It is extremely needed.
and I thank you.
::b
Take a moment and pray for a friend of mine.
I can't say much more than that...
And if you like,
take more than a moment.
It is extremely needed.
and I thank you.
::b
Tears
December 01 2005
.i acheived my goal.
i cant stop the tears either.
why does it mean so much after so long??
this is the worst feeling.
i wish i could go somewhere.
if i could change anything in my past, i would change my answer that night.
::b
"My dearest Allie,
I couldn't sleep last night because
I know that it's over between us.
I'm not bitter anymore, because I know
that what we had was real.
And if in some distant
place in the future
we see each other
in our new lives,
I'll smile
at you with joy
and remember how
we spent a summer beneath the trees
learning from each other
and growing in love.
The best love
is the kind that awakens the soul
and makes us
reach for more,
that plants a fire
in our hearts
and brings peace
to our minds.
And that's what you've
given me.
That's what I'd hoped
to give to you forever.
I love you.
I'll be seeing you, Noah."
i cant stop the tears either.
why does it mean so much after so long??
this is the worst feeling.
i wish i could go somewhere.
if i could change anything in my past, i would change my answer that night.
::b
"My dearest Allie,
I couldn't sleep last night because
I know that it's over between us.
I'm not bitter anymore, because I know
that what we had was real.
And if in some distant
place in the future
we see each other
in our new lives,
I'll smile
at you with joy
and remember how
we spent a summer beneath the trees
learning from each other
and growing in love.
The best love
is the kind that awakens the soul
and makes us
reach for more,
that plants a fire
in our hearts
and brings peace
to our minds.
And that's what you've
given me.
That's what I'd hoped
to give to you forever.
I love you.
I'll be seeing you, Noah."
.this song is incredible.
December 01 2005
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me, the way that it was and should have been surrounds me.
I'll never get over you walkin' away.
Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Listen to "Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban here.
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me, the way that it was and should have been surrounds me.
I'll never get over you walkin' away.
Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Would it help if i turned a sad song on
"All by Myself" would sure hit me hard, now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
Cause I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Well I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain, from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.
Listen to "Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban here.
Christmas Concerto
November 29 2005
EVERYONE IS INVITED
to attend Blackman Band's
Winter Prism Concert
It will be an amazing show
A wide variety of music
will be on display
for all to indulge.
Begins at 7 o'clock p.m.
in the Blackman High auditorium.
You're in for a treat!
Plus it's free.
No Excuses.
::ben
to attend Blackman Band's
Winter Prism Concert
It will be an amazing show
A wide variety of music
will be on display
for all to indulge.
Begins at 7 o'clock p.m.
in the Blackman High auditorium.
You're in for a treat!
Plus it's free.
No Excuses.
::ben
Thanksgiving 2005
November 24 2005
I've escaped to my hideout for the holiday.
See...
If you want to find me, here are some general surroundings...
This should guide you towards my family and I...
And this is a close-up of what our place looks like...
So now you should be able to find our little hideaway, "the hideout" nestled in the mountains of the Smokies in Townsend, Tennessee.
Thanksgiving dinner was really, really good. I love coming up here this time of year. It is just amazing, especially when it snows. I'll be back up here for New Years, but then I'll be staying in a chalet in Gatlinburg. We'll be within walking distance of downtown where the New Year's Ball will drop from the Space Needle.
I don't feel like doing much right now, I think the turkey has taken control of me...
Gobble.
I finally broke out the Christmas music today, as my handy Powerbook is providing all the wonderful music in this little cabin...as well as its service as a DVD player and internet access line.
Props to my sister for allowing me to use her camera to take the photos you saw. It took forever for me to upload them, as I am running on dial-up. (I know, I said it... for all you techies, I apologize.)
Happy Thanksgiving to all of you wonderful people who have agreed to be my friend here on PhuseBox. All 180 (/edit/ *183*) of you...as of today. You all rock. Have a wonderful holiday, and be safe.
::ben
See...
If you want to find me, here are some general surroundings...
This should guide you towards my family and I...
And this is a close-up of what our place looks like...
So now you should be able to find our little hideaway, "the hideout" nestled in the mountains of the Smokies in Townsend, Tennessee.
Thanksgiving dinner was really, really good. I love coming up here this time of year. It is just amazing, especially when it snows. I'll be back up here for New Years, but then I'll be staying in a chalet in Gatlinburg. We'll be within walking distance of downtown where the New Year's Ball will drop from the Space Needle.
I don't feel like doing much right now, I think the turkey has taken control of me...
Gobble.
I finally broke out the Christmas music today, as my handy Powerbook is providing all the wonderful music in this little cabin...as well as its service as a DVD player and internet access line.
Props to my sister for allowing me to use her camera to take the photos you saw. It took forever for me to upload them, as I am running on dial-up. (I know, I said it... for all you techies, I apologize.)
Happy Thanksgiving to all of you wonderful people who have agreed to be my friend here on PhuseBox. All 180 (/edit/ *183*) of you...as of today. You all rock. Have a wonderful holiday, and be safe.
::ben
Xanga....hah
November 23 2005
Did you Know?
Xanga has now added the option of placing a title on your entry...
Xanga has upgraded the limit they place on uploading photos to members...
Xanga is replicator and not an innovator?
Thanks PhuseBox.
::ben
Xanga has now added the option of placing a title on your entry...
Xanga has upgraded the limit they place on uploading photos to members...
Xanga is replicator and not an innovator?
Thanks PhuseBox.
::ben
Mac Loves Windows
November 22 2005
iMac <3 Windows Movie
The ideal middle ground delivered in a funny CGI movie.
::NEW SPARK* PODCAST AVAILABLE::
Episode #8
I'm off to Gatlinburg for Thanksgiving, so I won't see any of you for the weekend. I may find a way online, so hopefully that might work. Have a fun and safe holiday everyone!
::ben
Harry POtter
November 21 2005
Tomorrow!
Afternoon!
Harry Potter, food, and possibly some hangin out afterwards...
Brian and I, and whoever else wants to go...
Movie is at 4:50 at Carmike. Meet around 4:30ish.
Remark to let me know
Afternoon!
Harry Potter, food, and possibly some hangin out afterwards...
Brian and I, and whoever else wants to go...
Movie is at 4:50 at Carmike. Meet around 4:30ish.
Remark to let me know
Pi
November 20 2005
Maximillian Cohen is my hero. Pi is a great movie. It makes you think about what is behind God's creation. I wish I was that analytical. The pattern behind pi is...
In Retrospect...
October 22 2005
Retrospect is more than 20/20, its...
gutwrenching
emotional
if only
if only.......
i feel more on this coming later-stay tuned.
::moser
gutwrenching
emotional
if only
if only.......
i feel more on this coming later-stay tuned.
::moser