There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

i like back massages

i dislike papers that are late....egh

 

i want a hug from each member of my family right now

i miss wide open spaces without concrete

 

 

i love the gift that God has given me

i hate being behind or feeling useless 

 

  goodnight all 

 

my throat is tight

i can't swallow

all of my emotions seem to have collected in the pit of my stomach and they seem to swell with each tear i hold back 

 

i don't want to cry,

but i don't want to hurt either

yet i can't seem to prevent either 

 

i feel my heartbeat throughout every part of my body 

i don't want to think because i don't like my thoughts

anger, hurt, dissappointment

fear floods in bringing with it even worse

those things unnamed by the heart because i don't want to admit    

    they are there 

 

 

if little things are impossible, then what of the big things?

what does this mean?

why do i hurt? 

 

is being numb better than feeling pain? 

well..... today is the very last day of my life as a teenager.

 

very very odd. 

very final sounding.

 

 do i magicly become responsible and.... adult?nothing changed magicly when i turned 18 

life is... life

 

breathe in. breathe out.forgetting either one is a serious problem. 

 

 

yesterday i hiked mt. leconte- exhausting! amazing! today we went to dollywood. i rode mystery mine- accomplishment for me. then one of our guys accidentally hit the curb in the van and blew a tire. interesting- i want to go horseback riding so bad- it's about all that would help me clear my head right now... don't like the new phusebox.  

ok so everybody's getting mail... and packages.... and funness from home..... except me! lol! drop me a note sometime!

 

Smoky Mountain Resort Ministries
3327 Camp Smoky Lane
Sevierville, TN 37876

 

k not sure how i ffel about all this newness-- won't have much time to play with it - i'm in the smoky's working for Smoky Mountain Resort Ministries until Aug. so yeah... no internet at dorm.... brent... can you still confirm my pix request?

If you are ever going to experience love, you must surrender to it.

a la the movie "Fools Rush In"

You can turn painful situations around through laughter. If you can find humor in anything, even poverty, you can survive it.
Bill Cosby

How you treat people
is about
who you are,
not who they are.

Econ - 10 am... about to begin studying

Constitutional Law- 1pm- began studying 2 weeks aog -still feel horribly unprepared

A woman can say more in a
sigh
than a man can say in a sermon. 
~Arnold Haultain ~

I wish to be... admired.
I love to be... held.
I hope to be... precious.
I deserve to be... sought after.
I long to be... enough.
i need to be loved.

why do romantic movies always involve someone missing a flight for love?

Our lives improve only when we take chances
- and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.
* Walter Anderson *

if not now,
when?

Dani Westerman --
[adjective]:

Visually addictive



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

A
kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when
words become superfluous. 

-
Ingrid Bergman

blessed are those who mourn
for they shall be comforted

i mean at this rate it's following the speed limit on mtsu campus it's so slow. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

so apparently i'm bitter.
apparently.

one thing.
bitterness is always discribed as an aftertaste.

while you have me, i'm sweet -perhaps bittersweet.
like like anything great, the sweet is worth the bitter.
it's when you let me go, turn me loose, cast me off-

it's then that you taste the bitter.

and my dear,
you've not tasted that bitter.

I was in deffinite need of an awesome day and let me tell you...
God blessed me with a totally awesome, de-stressing- make me happy, wonderfully amazing day. But, ya know, that's not suprising because He's just that kind of guy!


i'd hug everyone if i could.... a picture of me hugging austin (___who is fun to molest in coffee shops ;-P ___) will have to suffice

... that you recieved a random phone calll asking if you could possibly help MTSU by registering early to test the new system.... such a hardship to take upon myself but i guess i can sacrifice and get in all the classes i want...
so i'll register today at 1:30 to help out my school..... he he he he

“Patience is waiting.

Not passively waiting.

That is laziness.

But to keep going when the going is

hard and slow

- that is patience.”

Anon

A ship in harbor is safe -- but that is not what ships are built for.
John A. Shedd, Salt from My Attic, 1928